I am pretty sick with pancrease stuff from the C drug, and I went to the ER in the big pain time, and they said they were demanding to keep me. I sid NO NO NO!!!! I just have a full round of IVSM, and its dangerous for me to be here! They were upset, but offered NO alternatives, or out patient choices to help me. He really thought he could bully me into staying. NOPE! I went home. my PCP was angry and spoke against vs going. He told me I did the right thing ot RUN RUN

I lasted 2 days at home. I was extremely ill. It was coming from all ends. I reached a point that I was no longer making sense. I was sweaty, confused, peeing on mysefl, and soiled myself. DH found me in bed in speaking nonsense, feverish at 102, curled into the fetal position, and wet from many sources, from sweat to pee. The old lady cat was at the foot of my bed YOWLING! She kept running to get daddy.

I was admitted thru the ER and it took 12 sticks WITH ultra sound to find a vein. I was given dilauded before they even tried to get me off the foor. Zofran, Dilauded, phernergan, are given with great freedroms. I have proven myself to this MD over many years to be trust worthy to this MD. I work hard for a less is more approach. I am normally griping about getting OFF this stuff!

I was very ill when I got here, and speaking out of my head. Thank you for all the prayers, love, hugs, and well wishes. both public and private. its been a long road, but today i am begining to feel half human. I have sat up in a chair for bit, and even had ONE ounce of orange sherbet.

The best gift of all was today I got my very own Pic line! its a double lumen, and its the latest model. No more worries about blood draws, or IV access. My poor little arms are so bruised, swollen, sore. I am TIRED of seeing MDs.

One guy said its bowel, one said bladder, one said MS, one said they want 4 feel of my intesting to be removed. not two in the whole bunch can agree.

I am too sick to go home, and some of these MDS are really scary. Instead of saying " I dont know" they spout twenty dollar words that aint wirth spit! As soon as I can find an exit, I am gone, gone, gone. At least I am more aware 0f my surroundings, and situation.

I will be back in a few days or a week. Love to all.