Hi, I know that feeling you are going through about telling the truth. I do not have your issues, but I have with held information at times to my doctor. I had a neuro, who would not listen. since he did not listen, I would not cooperate and do what he requested of me. to do NCT not fun. I refused his order, and walked out. I lost that Neuro guy and I am not sorry one bit. It has to go both ways with your doctors. It takes both doctor and patient to come to understandings for compliance with drugs and proceedures. I would get another physician, I want the truth, and I want to be heard when I speak about the troubles I am having. We all have such serious stuff happen to us on this site. You have to have that trust with your doctors. This is just an opinion, and I really hope you find a good solution. I am sorry you are having such a time of it. Ginnie