[TRESA]

Wow-I suspected things were heated up but this doc is backing himself into a corner.

State has been trying to get him to explain why he is sending me to neurologist at Univ Hosp so that they can approve my travel, lodging and meals for trip.

He refused to fill out the form. They called him twice. They asked the nurse today for just a verbal consent that he had scheduled me to go and see this new neurologist.

The nurse said she would call them back.

Office closed at noon and state called to say that without a verbal or written explanation their hands were tied and with it being Friday - there would be no way to get me to my docs on Tues morn now.

Suggested I call and reschedule doctor visit. New doctor's office said that if I tried to reschedule it would be a VERY long time before I would be able to get an appointment.

There are no buses to KC from where I live. I could bus to wichita and then take airplane to kc and then a taxi to doctors and return in like fashion - all at my own expense...like forget that concept.

So much for my attempting to be in control of my life!

I'm waiting for my case manager to call...maybe she'll drive me there...she'll have to...or find a way for me...

I'm worn out and depressed as I simply went to urologist as Primary Doctor requested. Now I'm caught up in the ego battle - being sabotaged - neuro can't afford to have me dx'd with MS as he will be very liable for damages to loss of bladder control due to MS which he arrogantly forced my primary internist to be fired and ordered specialist of MS to not proceed with further diagnosising me a year ago as HE had NOT been the one to send me to her!!

AAUUGH!!!

Why do I feel so scared?