My best and my worst are the same, the day I had to quit work. But it was the best because shortly after my youngest daughter graduated from high school and I found out I had a husband, a home, another life that I had hidden from myself because of my drive to be the best of the best in nursing. Nursing was #1, myself, family, husband, church all came in a distant 10,11. Nursing took up #s 1, 2, 3, etc. Our empty nest syndrome was wonderful. I found my kitchen. Both our Moms had small strokes and needed just a little extra attention. I could kick myself for how I treated my family and everyone else in my life while I was working. I sure do have a nice SSD check to show for it but I would like some of those moments back.

I think I can say alll this because I don't have severe disabilities like some of you do. I still have the one major lesion and my MRI basically has never changed in the 15 years I have been n this journey. As Dej said, I have made so many frineds from all over the world because of this computer. I do't know if I would have gotten one if I had still been working. I wouldn't have time to use it!

I have been able to plan and empliment my girls weddings, be at the childbirth of both my precious little grand daughters. I have been able to stay with my Mom almost the whole time after her cancer diagnosis and be at her bedside when she died. Would I have been able to do all this if I did not have MS and still be driven to be that best nurse, highest level on the career level. I don't think so. So yes, I do thank God for it. I just hope He lets me stay at the level I am now. But if not I know that through my example, one or both of my girls may be there to help me. I know my son in laws will.

I didn't mean to make this so long. It's the cortisone from the root canal!