its time. I have known its time for a long time, but have been denying its time. im so sad about it.

I have been trained to drive big rigs, fire engines, rescue squads, race cars, and the like. Driving has been a huge passion of mine for a long time. I used to jump in the car and drive from Upstate NY to Jacksonville Florida in one fell swoop, other than to stop for gas. LOVED IT! now, I get to the corner store and I feel woozy, exhausted, lost, and some days a bit confused.

its been safe enough for a couple of years for me to go to the post office, or local grocery or local MD, but as the last two years marched forward, and my eye sight went, and my stamina went, and my brain fog set up shop the car just sits. I pay taxes, registration, insurance...for a car to sit in the driveway.

The DH has asked if he can use it for a trade in after selling his car privately and we can take the money and buy an upgraded SUV hybrid. This way we get 45 MPG, still have 4WD, and some luxury in a nice car. We have talked about it for almost a year. its time. two weeks ago I finally gave in, and said yes, you can have my car.

I miss driving so much! it was one of my greatest joys, and I was good at it! I will be 50 in a few months, and it just seems too young to hand over my keys.

So sad.