[EricP]

This is just a rant and all that can be done is being done for the P thing.

One of my main things MS is doing to me is playing around with my bladder and while I have been on some differing medications to help it as well as practicing the usual techniques, last night I almost lost it getting out of my car. The urge was so severe I fully expected to wet my pants right there, but I didn't. I got back into the car out of instinct to hide from people and I did leak a bit when I sat back down, but nothing I was expecting it to be.
All I know is it scared the hell out of me and got me pretty mad, plus a now needing power washing of my car seat Looks like the bladder thing is coming back and it is making me mad. I was praying of all the symps yo ucan get with MS, please leave my bladder alone, but nope.
So last night I got my sack of pads back out and started wearing them again for in case...I am THAT scared I may have an actual accident, so those will give me some time to flee the scene if I have too. So far no more incidents, but I hate wondering when one may hit and I may not be as lucky that time as I was last night.

I hate the thought of having to do the cathing thing, but it is looking like that will be a reality pretty soon. Seems th meds are stopping working. I'll ask my doctor to see what else can be done, but I hate calliing them for everything like this.... It'll just be the same thing...we'll adjust your meds....Well how do I know that some day I won't **** my pants in front of everyone? I hate trusting the meds. Pads for a dude may seem weird and all that, but I trust that a hell of a lot more than the meds, but I don't want to go that route as a permannent fix.

I've been looking at Male clamps too. Also the Botox procedure. that doesn't seem as intense as I thought.