Most insurance co. are certainly looking out for their interests first, after all they are a business. Though At least with medical insurance I get more than what I pay out, unlike auto insurance I've probably paid enough in auto insurance over the past 18 years to have bought 2 new cars...

But that's a whole different rant

As to the PT, I really can't knock them for not weeding me out till things become much worse. I never can tell the difference between 'pain!' and 'pain....' At no point have I ever needed to split hairs over pain or 'discomfort'. But I find getting kicked by a shod horse, 'uncomfortable' so I already know my perceptions of pain are skewed. Add my stubborn personality and yeah PT can be great or worse mistake of my life

But therein lies the other issue I'm having with pain, the more I'm in intense PAIN the more desensitized to 'discomfort' other might call 'pain'. Prime example is dropping a frying pan on my foot today, right across the bone, with a resounding 'crack' and I only flinched over the rattling sound as it wobbled on the floor.

I felt it hit, I can 'feel' the bruise in that I can feel the pressure from the pooling blood. It's not numb, it's just too slight an injury for the brain to even notice it. I know it hurts to do that to one's foot, it certain stung like a mother years ago, and enough people have done it to themselves that you know there's supposed to be a little pain dance and choice words following such an occurrence.

Burns are becoming much the same. I know I burnt myself, I can tell I've run the burn under cool water enough, or I've applied sufficient burn cream to it, but the brain refuses to ping "pain!' Or even squeak out a little 'ouch'. It wasn't an issue when I was taking narcotics, it kind of brought all the little and big pains together in the same spectrum, but now the monsters are taking over the little guys, so the little burns have a wider gap between noting and treating, bruises get whacked and mistreated plenty till there nice and black.

Something needs to change, that's for sure... I'm getting too many scars just 'living' with it. And I'm not "living" very well with the pain either since I can't help but think of creative ways to kill the pain at its source.

My problem wasn't with my Neuro, but insurance. Let's face it they choose by refusing to pay until you try their preferred formulary. My Neuro argued with insurance to keep me on Avonex...it was working and I didn't have issues. They were trying to force me on Copaxone(I don't want a new strain of drug, they all stop working at some point so why burn through them early.) The best we were able to do was get insurance to agree to Rebif. One thing I do know is don't refuse to be heard and fight for what you know and want. You may not win 100% but for me I got the 80%. 4 years and no relapse so far; cheers to another 40 more I hope!