Hello you lot,
I know I've been quite "up" lately, as I recently found out I was pregnant again. My husband and I have been through so much in the last few years with trying to become pregnant, IVF, becoming pregnant, and then losing the pregnancy.

As many of you know, I recently found out I was pregnant again (by IVF), and we were thrilled. Each and everytime I become pregnant, everything seems fine, and they tell me they don't see any reason why I shouldn't be able to maintain a pregnancy. We've been tested, prodded, and poked to the point that we feel like lab rats.

I had an appointment with a high risk peri-natologist that works in hospital where the group I work with delivers. All seemed well (I was scheduled for a 4-D Ultrasounds later on this month). Earlier in the week, whilst at work, I experienced some mild bleeding and hadn't been having as much nausea as I'd been experiencing over the last month or so.

Lo and behold, we did an ultrasound at work the other day, and I have a "blighted ovum". I'm no longer pregnant, and there is no explanation for the loss of this pregnancy. There comes a point where we have to say enough with the IVF, and decide it's just the baby we want. Both of us have said it's not about giving birth, but about becoming parents.

BUT....I'm so disappointed. I feel like a failure for some reason. I work with pregnant women all day, and that certainly may be contributing to my feelings of loss. My Neurologist doesn't seem to think it has anything to do with the MS, and honestly, I don't either. I've seen plenty of women with auto-immune diseases deliver perfectly healthy babies after having perfectly normal pregnancies.

Has anyone on here had problems holding onto a pregnancy? Has anyone on here adopted? I'm concerned that our chances of getting a newborn are going to be decreased due to my MS.

Thanks. I don't mean to bring you down with our petty problem in the grand scheme of things, but you lot are the only ones I know would understand.

Thanks for listening,
Chris

I'm so sorry, Chris I know what a sad and disappointing time this must be for you and DH.

I don't know much about adopting, but do you have to tell them about the MS? You take a chance too, you know, as the new Baby may have a genetic possibility for illness.....Maybe even MS.

I hope an Adoption is a probability for you and the process all runs smoothly. A lot of People become Parents and don't want it...You want to be Parents, which is a plus in my book.

Again, I am sorry for your loss and wish you better roads ahead.

Love,

Awe, Chris. I'm so sorry, this has to be just devastating for you and hub. Greta and her husband are in the process of adoption, hopefully, she'll chime in with some ideas for you.

You are NOT a failure, that position is for those who never try. Bearing a child does not define a woman as an individual, and I, for one, happen to think you are an exceptional individual who will make an exceptional parent.

Please take time to grieve your loss and try to regroup. There is hope, and I am praying for you and hub.

I am so very sorry Chris

I only have some experience with adoption. We were going through the adoption process when I got pregnant.

It was a long time ago but I don't remember my MS being an issue with the agency we were using. We were willing to do an open adoption.

Since I became pregnant just as we were to start the home study I will never know if the MS would have affected the biological mothers decision.

Again, I am so very sorry.

I am so sorry. Take some time to heal. I think you will be a great mom to a lucky child waiting for you out there.

Chris-
I can't tell you how sorry I am. Noone should have to go through that experience once, let alone multiple times.

I am going through the process of adopting right now. We haven't tried to have our own, but if all goes as planned, we'lll adopt from China. Unfortunately, China has changed their rules and people with MS, are now likely excluded to adopt for the near future from China. China has recently changed their policies to slow the number of new adopters, so people with MS are excluded (TG-I'm grandfathered in). We expect to have our child in Sept 08 if all goes well.

I Know already that it's not a big issue in other places. My neighbor's son ( single gay man) adopted an American newborn infant last year and the process was not all that long, just expensive. You will find a way - I know that. Best of luck to you!

gentle hugs chris.

i'm so very sorry.

Chris,

I'm so sorry! Of course you aren't a failure! I'm sure you'll find a baby just waiting to be loved and cared for. There are families in our church who've adopted several babies, and they always seem to grow up to be extra special and blessed. I love seeing those babies grow up with their adoptive parents.

I hope you will find the adoption process to be painless. God bless you both.

Hi,

Have you considered using a donor egg or do they think the loss is due to some other factor? You have my sympathy as I was going through infertility treatments 11 years ago and know what a toll they take on you. It's hard not to feel like a failure, even though you are NOT! Lots of things in life don't go as we'd like, as I am sure you've noticed. Sigh...

Anyway, just sending well wishes that SOMEHOW you soon have a baby to call your own.

Missy

Chris
So sorry for your loss. to you and hubby. I wish I had words of comfort. I believe that everything happens for a reason and the next, best thing, is to come. I'm sure you'll be the best mom when your time comes. Please take care of yourself and know you both are in my thoughts.