[Starznight]

Ok, last time I went for my physical, my sodium levels were a little low, nothing to worry about, my glucose as always was also low (despite my candy habit and sweeter than sweet tooth, like there's no such thing ever as too sweet, but plenty of things that aren't sweet enough) but still... meh that's normal for me, and my blood was concentrated (high in neutrophils) all together fairly routine nothing jumping out especially.... but in the past month I have been craving salt, like adding sea salt to top ramen cravings, and candy habit has gotten a bit out of hand (all the Easter candy is gone and it's not even Easter yet). And if I stand at anything less than the slowest of slow paces it's instant ringing of the ears and world spinning wildly out of control.

Finally toss in the weight loss with half a pound of jelly beans and peeps in me a day and my great "tan" on life long whiter than white... so white it's practically clear skin, and all says to me it's time to head to the doctor to see if granny left me more than just some antique nativity sets. She had Addison's disease, and was about my age at the onset... that is something I really don't need with the body's aversion to synthetic cortisone, impending surgery, and MS as my little cherry on top.

This is the one time in life I'm praying it's something psycho semantic, or that I'm having a hypochondriac episode... something... anything but getting that particular disease from dear ol granny. She was otherwise healthy and still was a craptastic disease only mercy she had was it eventually damaged her heart to the point of no repair and she was able to pass away fairly peacefully after fighting for less than thirty years. But then again she had the same initial over production of cortisol and aversion to steroid treatments that I have had so this could be a good thing ... if I do have it, at least I might be able to take cortisone so they could actually treat any MS flares and the no doubt adrenal crisis that will follow along with it and if we go by a family history on living with disorders... I might only have to fight for only 20 more years so there's that.....

Still... I really hope I'm just being a little off-kilter even as I'm up all night because if I don't have a blanket I'm freezing to the point of turning blue, gooshflesh and teeth chattering, and if I'm snuggled under a blanket I'm way tooo hot and yet not running any sort of temperature 97.9 for the month, checked several times a day because I can't believe I'm not running a fever. I just need a new body. Anyone have some laying around that they aren't using?