[bobcatsrule]

Ok this is like the 4th post i have started today and not finished. maybe this one will fare better than the others.

I have been having an internal debate with myself all day long as to weather or not i should get a 2nd opinion. now or later? I want to KNOW and i was dx with spasticity yesterday and i can feel it! Man can i ever feel it, b/c that is what i have been saying all along even before i knew that my muscles were spastic.

the current neuro says that it is just withdrawl from the medicine that i was on and am now withdrawing from but i would think that after two weeks i would have/should have stablized. I never did, i only got worse.

now granted i was on high doses of the other medicine and that will take some adjustment time but what i don't get is if this is all in my "head" then why does the medicine work so well?

My neuro says that i have just forgotten what "normal" is and that i will have to retrain my body to remember what "normal" is. But from what i remember the weakness was present BEFORE i ever went on that medicine and i had such severe double vision off the medicine that i couldn't function very well (totally housebound) for over 2 weeks!

then on top of that it could take several weeks before my body returns to what HE feels is NORMAL! GERRRRRRR and in the mean time i don't get to drive, i am housebound and totally incapacitated just to prove what????? that he is an idiot and that he has been wrong before and he is likely wrong again!!!!! I mean, what is the point?

in the mean time i miss out on jobs and possibly loose jobs that i might have other wise gotten b/c of absenteeism and severe photosenstativeity (sensitivity to light) and worst of all the nauseating doubble vison.
oh and did i mention eye pain when the strain becomes so severe that it feels like swords are sticking out of my eyes?

the alternative that i see is that i could go ahead and spend the $$$ and get a second opinion and then know and put this baby to bed and then if there is something too it great, if not then ok I'll know that and can go on with life! I hate limbo land!!!!

have gotten an agency that would agree to pay for an MRI so that would be covered and then i could go on with life or apply for what ever it is that i need from there!

Ya'll have gotten to know me a little bit. what do ya'll think?