[PunkDizzle]

boy i have been under major stress the past week (due to a death in the family) i didn't really know the family member very well so as bad as it sounds its not effecting me much at all emotionally.. but i swear all the shock and sadness it caused the rest of the family is hard for me to deal with and had to have sent me into an exacerbation or at least making my old Sx come back with a vengeance.. (can't remember what that is called when its not a true exacerbation but a return of old Sx)

my vision is blurry again in both eyes.. i can not focus on anything.. feel like i am drunk.. i am having panic attacks and the usual anxiety Sx.. usual for me anyway.. strange thing is i just had my monthly dose of IVSM on Tuesday.. and usually i would be feeling awesome right about now.. crummy thing is these Sx come and go and they are nothing new.. so i am not running for the phone to call my neuro..


i went out yesterday because i had to go to the bank.. and about 1/2 way into my drive i started like driving like i had a bottle of Vodka in me.. felt ok when i left the house and thought id be ok... so i had to slow way down and think it through so i didn't hurt anyone.. people were getting annoyed behind me but screw em.. if they only knew..

anyway i made it to the bank got my stuff taken care off and sat in the parking lot for a while hoping the Sx would pass... and lucky it did in about 15min... but it was pretty scary when it happened... made me a little afraid to drive now until this passes..

i kind of have a feeling once all the craziness calms down around here ill start to feel better.. its really hard to be a comfort to family members that really need it when you don't feel good yourself.. i try but there is only so much my body/mind will allow me to do when i get all MSie.. if that makes sense..