I've lost the ability to work and play outdoors when it's warm. We planted grass over my 12x30 foot veggie garden several years ago. I could get it planted in the springtime but as soon as it got warm it would get overgrown with weeds since I couldn't go outside to maintain it. Now I doubt I could even get it planted!

I've lost the ability to multi-task, and even the ability to do any task at all if I'm in veg mode!

My high energy is a thing of the past as well. Being a type A+ personality living in the body of a 90yo woman is frustrating.

It's all I can do to make it into the office four days a week; that's hard for a workaholic! I've lost my patience for chronic whiners. (Especially if it's coming straight at me and I can't get out of the way!) :eek:

I think about the possibility of SSDI and it makes me sad. I haven't been in the workforce for that many years. I was hoping to work into my 80's like my Dad did.

I went through a period of feeling very vulnerable and helpless for a few years, but I gained something new and unfamiliar to me: a backbone!! :grin: I learned to stand up for myself and for issues I consider unfair. That can be painful at times but it always seems to net good results so I'm assuming I only use it at appropriate times. That has improved my marriage a lot, to name just one benefit.

I have an even greater appreciation for my family and friends. Living with this, and losing several of my loved ones over the years, I try to not sweat the small stuff anymore and focus on the important things.

I realize that I'm imperfect and that's ok, I don't need to be the best at everything. My personal best is ok by me.

Hey Cheryl, my hortoculturist(sp) buddy. This year, I really really hate that I can't get out and play in the dirt. :mad: I guess it's because of the great spring weather we're having.

So, I guess, I am missing my ability to get up and down and walk and just do it....Frustrating....Bah!!!! I wish it would snow..:D

I can't wait untill you get better and can get out there and do what ya can, soon, dammit, and show me pictures..:cool::p:D

EDIT: Well, Wiz, dang it, you and I must have been posting at the same time. I could have just dittoed your fine post..

You know, Wiz, that's one of the things I gained soon after my DH died. I had to - or risk being chewed up and spit out by those who counted on me being spineless and timid.

Once I was given my dx of MS I seemed to regrow a little of that backbone I had acquired a few years before.

Being on my own and having to make decisions about my health and my financial security all by myself was an eye opening experience - but I'm a better person (and smarter, I hope) because of it.

I have gained a wealth of knowledge, patience and compassion in the last few years. Not sure I would have had it not been for the dx.

So....I'm not sure that MS has taken away anything from me that I have not replaced with something better. At least that's how I'm going to look at it. :)

:confused: whuh? :confused:

:Hum: :Scratch-Head: Whuhz whut, AMN? :picknose: :confused:

:confused: whuh? :confused:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess I meaned I aren't as good at things as I use to be. :wink: Don't make me think AMN, it's late and it's Friday, my poor little pea brain is resisting!

Wiz said 'pea'! :D

Peaple keep saying the "p" word and I'm not going to need any meds, I'll just be collecting wine! Suits me just fine!!! :p