In limbo-land not sure what is going on. I've had strange symptoms since 2005 and I finally found an MD that referred me to a neurologist. Had the appointment with the neurologist. Definitely have migraines. I have an MRI scheduled for Wednesday. I'm scared that it will come back either way, clear- meaning that I'm absolutely nuts and must imagine all of the symptoms that I have (I'll list below) or relieved, that I won't feel crazy anymore.

Since 2005 I've had the following symptoms:

eye twitching (the neurologist told me this was due to anxiety)
numbness/tingling-fingers/hand/arm/feet/face
burning/itchy/pins/needle feeling with extreme hot/cold-especially after showering
headaches- which ended up being migraines
tremor-in the hand
pain-face/inner ear/jaw/hand
losing ability to write, poor penmenship, unable to hold things with hand, type at times, button clothes, hold steering wheel
weakness in limbs
fatigue in middle of day for no apparent reason

I absolutely feel even worse since the appointment and feel that the neurologist thinks it is just carpel tunnel of the rt. hand. Had an EMG ran in September that came back clear. I've had carpel tunnel before and it felt completely different than this- nothing like what my hand/fingers feel now, which gives me a funny feeling about what the MRI results will be and doctors assumption of the carpel tunnel. He said that he wanted to rule out MS with the MRI along with other things but down played the MRI, making it the very last thing he talked about so we really couldn't ask any further questions. So, I feel very vulnerable right now and scared. I know you all understand what this feels like becasue you've been there before. What if I do have MS but the MRI comes back clear and I still have the symptoms? Will they think I'm absolutely crazy? What if it comes back clear and the symptoms continue and get worse? Will the neurologist just ignore me like all of the other doctors have over the last 3 1/2 years?

The neurologist is a very nice guy and I feel comfortable around him, unlike with the other doctors that I've had who were MD's that dismissed all of the symptoms when I would go in about them- and they would act like I was just a nut. I have Bipolar and they would literally- treat me like I was a crazy person just making stuff up and ignore why I was at the doctors office. It was awful. I've been through so much psychological turmoil with doctors due to the mental stigma that it isn't even funny. I just don't need any more of it with the results of the MRI from the medical field, family or friends. I even feel if the MRI comes back clear my DH will dismiss my symptoms and treat me like I'm crazy. He already dismisses them the way it is. I feel very lonely right now like no one cares.

Sorry about the pity party. I needed to vent and cry some. I've done a lot of crying lately. I just want to feel validated that I'm not going bananas.

Coffeegirl