[RedPenguins]

Hi Everyone,

Well, it looks like I am going to have a re-dose of the HiCy treatment. I'm a little nervous...okay, a LOT nervous! I didn't get sick at all last time....but I'm told the chemo somehow has a cumulative effect and thus....I may be in for it this time. I'm also going to lose my hair again and am not thrilled with that, as it has been growing in quite well....and now I have to start over. And since I stopped wearing my wig to work back in February, the wig that I have (and paid a ton of $$ for), will not work as it is long hair and I'm not going to go from very short hair to long hair in a few weeks time! So now I have to buy another wig.

It looks like I'm going back to Baltimore for the treatment in early May. Still trying to coordinate the schedules of my caregivers. Having a hard time getting people to commit to being able to come with me to baltimore. Not fun. Actually, it's quite depressing not having any family and thus no "guarantees" of always having a caregiver handy, ya know? It sucks being all alone in the world.

I guess I'm just having a pity party for myself. MS sx have been flaring up. I swear, this better not be the start of an exacerbation! I can't handle that right now at all. It will push me over the edge.

waaa.

~keri