[tysondouglass]

Hello all. once again.

Im not sure whats going on with my life right now.
It is the prednisone? The Imuran? The IVIG? The combination? Im lost. And i seem to continually be loosing more and more of myself. Im not myself at all anymore, I dont think. Im definetly not the same person I was a few months ago and its not a good thing.

The dean said it would be easy for me to get a leave of abcense and come back next fall. I dont want to. I want to be a normal 18 year old and do well in college. But even at college, im doing horrible.

My grades, suck. Im not sure how it even happened because before all of this, i used to be so smart and get such good grades yet now, it feels like i spend forever on concepts I should know and remember, yet i dont remember them.

I HATE that feeling.


Im sorry if im using you all as a venting panel.
Yet im not sure what i would do with myself with a semester off. What even happens? Everyone then looks at you like a weird ***. I want to start doing better, im trying! but i feel so foggy and out of it and not myself! Should i tell my doctor about these symptoms?

hope you all are well.