Hi, i'm new to this site, what led up to me trying to find a forum was that i think i had another seizure in the night, this has been going on some months and i've undergone tests ruling out epilepsy, i didn't pass the receptors test for myathesnia gravis, but i've yet to see the nuerologist again. However i think it is all trauma based. I spent 14mths on a trauma unit and althought i was there for anorexia and self harm, and what we thought was weird turns,psychotic like. I have a long history of abuse and attatchment, seperation anxiety, DID was diagnosed at the unit, but at that time i'd only started to be aware of switches in states, there were still gaps in my memory, and i guess my experiences with mental health service her in England has traumatised me more. It was following a two year torment with a psychiatrist that was denying me treatment, and eventually took all support away, including my cpn of 12yrs that the strange events started. First like a stroke, but no one was bothered then my muscles were weakening, breathless, panic, stopped leaving the flat and cut off all ties with the outside world, chronic ocd, and unbelievable strange things i couldn't account for. i was losing time, switcing, becoming out of control, i had litrally no one to turn to and i started to treat the strange things like normal because no proffessional would listen. I was sectioned 3 times, totally deluded that i was a clockwork doll and my psychiatrist laugghed at me and sent me home with no support. Then i started to get involuntary movement, flapping hands, unable to control my panic, though my breathing was find, it was terror that kept me awake, speech slured, then lost my swallowing reflexes, then one night i felt panic but as though my mind was snapping. was taken to hospital and for the first time had a seizure right there and was unconscious for 8 hrs. Thought someone had to understand now that there was something wrong, but refered to nuerology and whenever i have a seizure sent to psychi who say its medical and no one will help so i don't bother anymore. Last night i went blind, i was frightened but i knew i was awake bcause i went through grounding , checking i could feel my back against the chair, then it kept going and coming, then went blind again, so crawled into bed. only to wake this morning lying in vommit and stuff knocked everywhere, i'd wet myself which leads me to think maybe i had some kind of seizure again. I decided i didn't have energy to be pushed from pillar to post, and no one doing a damn thing that i didn't bother going to the hospital, it makes me feel like a fraud, so i started to look on the web to see if any of this could be linked to trauma. Hoping that other people may relate, or be able to advise me, is this serious and should i recieve treatment, or is it okay to leave someone like this who was once very fit, just anorexic. Sorry this has been a ramble but i am desperate for someone to understand, my head is in constant fight or flight and its making me suicidal. so i would be grateful for any feed back and look forward to checking forums out and getting to know people. Waves Fracturedmind

Hello fractured,

we have a nice collection of forums and an awesome group of members- so look around here and see if any fit for you.

Our co-site is -
http://psychcentral.com/ http://forums.psychcentral.com/

Welcome. And the best of luck, sounds like you need some lately.

fracturedmind,

It is great to see you have joined in with gang. There a number of people here will to help in any way they can.

and see you around.

Darlene

Hi fracturedmind and welcome to NeuroTalk!

Sounds like you need some quick help. Try googling Emotional Freedom techniques and download the manuel. Doing these tapping procedures can be a quick fix for trauma.