Hey,I'm Justice,I read through some threads and saw the one on situational indicators for what could cause someone to become suicidal,and I'm also Bi-Polar.But as I read through them I was amazed at how accurate they were,because I fall under 10 of them right now.It scares me,because the thought has crossed my mind,but I've been fighting it off with what energy I have,which isn't much.I joined for support to help me keep fighting it,because I believe there is much more strength in numbers.I did lose my Father to a heart attack,my best friend is moving away,and I was just diagnosed with a terminal illness and I'm in my early 30's.There's so much more that I can't get into right now without getting too upset.But I'm hoping I can get support here,and maybe I can help some others to.I learned a lot from my Dad,he was a Psychologist,Ph.D. I'm just scared right now,cause my whole life has been flipped upside down.

Hello Justice-
Welcome to our forum.
Sorry to hear of your losses and the illness dx.
We have many forum topics and caring members here.
If you need any help finding your way around here just give a holler.

Welcome Justice! I hope you make your way around the forum with ease and discover that you've found a new 'second home' that is loaded with as many friends as you're willing to accept.

I'm very sorry to hear of your recent losses and health problems. I am happy you found us and hope you decide to stay and give everyone a chance to help you get through this rough time.

hello Justice

so sorry to hear of all you have been suffering

there are many members here who understand.
You will find some of them in our Survivors of Suicide Forum at http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=29

and others in our BiPolar Forum at
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=38

I know you will find much caring support here

THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT,IT'S HARD FOR ME TO BE THE ONE NEEDING IT.I AM A MODERATOR ON A DIFFERENT WEBSITE,HELPING TEENS,AND YOUNG ADULTS TO KEEP FROM CUTTING,AND HARMING THEM SELVES.BUT FOR ME TO START ASKING FOR HELP,I FEEL WOULD MAKE THEM FEEL I'M NOT STABLE ENOUGH TO HELP THEM,WHEN I'M REALLY GOOD AT WHAT I DO THERE.IT'S JUST A LOT DIFFERENT TO ADVISE YOURSELF,THEN TO GIVE ADVICE TO OTHERS.SO THANKS FOR BEING HERE!

(((((((((((((( Justice ))))))))))))))))

Even those of us that find ourselves caretakers need support as well. We have to take care of us to be able to give for others. I've learned this the hard way.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

We're here and listening.

Also, don't hesitate to post at psychcentral.com We have some really caring people over there as well. DOUBLE the support for you.

Don't hesitate to PM if you need. I'm an admin here and an admin at a mental health website, so I understand your need to maintain yourself for others. It can be a difficult balance, but again, we're here for you.

KD

Keep your chin up...I know it is tough...I lost my father 2 years ago, and then my mother last year...then my husband who is 47 was diagnosed with Cancer last year and it is terminal...and then broke my ankle in Oct waiting for it to heal and well it now has just been diagnosed RSD...Sometimes we are handed things we really do not know WHY??? I often look up in the sky and say why?? but God never gives us more than we can handle and recently I have had to put alot of my pain and depression in his hands...I never used to be a very Godly person...why ...lol well my mother was paranoid schzophanic and she used to non stop try to push that on to us when I was young...Life can only be what we make it and we have to look for a better way out somtimes than it can only get worse I have had to tell myself this several times with what I have been though and am only 39 but keep your head up and try to look at anything and I mean anything positive you do ...Even if it is washing the dishes...God bless and take care of yourself. At least you can type on the computer:-) Keep in touch!
Tammy

How about medications?

The Doctors,both Medical and Psychiatric,have me on enough medications to knock out an entire town! It took them about 10 years to find the right combination of meds.to treat my Illness(the mental health one),the Medical Terminall Illness,I just found out about that,on Jan 11th,of this year.Last year I was sick all year on Interferon,at least until May,they had to stop it,because it gave me a rare side effect of Hemolytic Anemia and I almost ended up in the hospital needing a blood transfusion.But I've been sick since.It started with the Chicken Pox on Jan 2nd,then at the end of Jan.they started the Interferon.Then I just got the Chicken Pox again last month while trying to fight off pneumonia.I feel like there's something hiding around every corner just waiting to hit me,so I get scared to turn any corners anymore.Even when my Dad died,the last couple weeks he was in the hospital,I couldn't go see him,because I had pneumonia then to,so I had to say my goodbyes over the phone,and that's not the same! He was my world!I couldn't even sing at his funeral,cause I couldn't stop crying,so they just put my album in and played the song I wanted to sing for him.I really love my puppy though,I think of him as a gift from my Dad,because of the amazing circumstances of how I was able to get him!Plus he's adorable,he has that little head tilt that just makes you melt,and give him whatever he wants! lol

I've heard people say that God won't give you more than you can handle,and sometimes it makes me feel as if I wonder if he really knows me!lol...But then I do think of all the things that I do have,and can do,that so many others around the world don't have,and can't do,just to remind myself that there's always someone out there,that has it worse than me.And I start counting my blessings,instead of counting my curses!And it helps! So I get what you mean about being able to type,because I do have many gifts,that when I'm hurting,I forget about,and I shouldn't! Thanks for reminding me!