boo_♥ |
05-10-2014 05:02 AM |
Hurting
Wow. Really feeling like crap lately. I've "unintentionally" gotten off my meds twice in the last two weeks (they make me so sick, sometimes I get sick just by looking at them or smelling them), and probably only made myself worse. I've had a nonstop migraine for almost a week now. It got so bad two days ago that I went to the ER because my meds just weren't helping with it. That helped some, for the rest of that day, but I can't go in there every day or every other day, can I? I've been there twice in the last month, but they just lecture me. My neurologist recently changed as well. I have yet to meet my new doc. I have an appointment scheduled for the 19th, but I tried to make a sooner appointment after the ER trip. They said the earliest they could get me in was the 22nd. I'm just going to have to wait for the 19th I guess then. Anyways, feel like I'm dying. Sometimes the pain is so bad I think about cutting out the offending area of my head with a knife just to make it feel better, but I don't really tell anyone that, since they're sure to think I mean to commit suicide. Which is not the case at all. I'm just thinking up creative ways to deal with pain management! :D ok, a bit morbid, but you get my point. I hurt. :(
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