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Okay, well, I guess I'll just try and post everything on here, since I'm new and could use a little support. I've had multiple issues with my body and my health since I was little. I got my first set of tubes in my ears for a Eustachian tube that wouldn't work properly when i was only three years old (and have had five more put in since then). I've been diagnosed with asthma since i was eight. I've always been a little clumsy (lol, I don't know if that's an actual medical ailment though). I bruise easily. I've been told I'm a bleeder, and anytime i go on an airplane for a trip longer than 6 hours, my lower legs, ankles, and feet swell up like blimps (even if i do exercise or walk around and drink lots of water and little salty foods). I've had IBS for at least the last 6 years (I'm sick so often, everyone thinks I fake it). I've got TMJ and my jaw gets stuck out of place any time I lay down. I currently have Depression, Anxiety, and PTSD. I've been getting migraines ever since i turned 20 (I'm now 27), and they can get so bad that I will completely lose my sight for up to 30 seconds (I'll see just a bright white light and nothing else); lose the ability to talk; or I might start mixing up words and start stuttering (which makes it impossible to understand me); I sometimes lose the ability to think clearly (which is super frustrating to me, because I know i have something to say, I just can't figure out what); sometimes it will make me dizzy or make me stumble; sometimes it will make me stumble (ya, those were all just for the migraines). I've got a bum knee for bad running form trying to train for a marathon (I never made it to the marathon; I can barely walk without pain now). I've got nerve damage to my right arm and muscular atrophy in my right hand, my right shoulder constantly pops out, and I think it's all starting to do the same on my left side as well, I just haven't gone to the doctor for that side yet. My back has recently gotten all messed up, but I don't know what's going on with it. I had an appointment for a chiropractor, but I had to miss it because the doctor thought I had a tumor. Turned out I actually have Pseudotumor Cerebri (Idiopathic Intracranal Hypertension). I was only diagnosed with that about a week or so ago. Since then I've had one MRI, scheduled another for later this month, have had two neurology appointments (so far), have another scheduled for Monday, had one lumbar puncture (which freaking hurt! He couldn't find the space between my spinal bones... ), and one ER visit. During the MRI they asked my if I was claustrophobic. I said no. Apparently I was very wrong. I freaked out once the noises started and I realized I couldn't even see my toes (they didn't notice; the freaking out was all in my head... and my heart; if they'd taken my pulse during that thing they would have thought I was having a heart attack (oh ya, I have a minor heart problem, and with the PTSD, the sudden sounds really messed me up)). I was so relieved when i realized the helmet they put me in had a tiny mirror so I could see out. My 40 minutes in there seemed like 5 though, since I was worrying so much and trying to calm myself down. And during the Lumbar Puncture, they wanted to test my CSF pressure, so they got out their pressure reader. My CSF Pressure was so high they couldn't read it, it just shot out of the top (My husband was there and he told me about it all in all it's gruesome details afterwards). They're testing my CSF too, but I haven't received the results yet (hopefully Monday!). I've recently started losing my peripheral vision (that's how i originally got diagnosed). I went to optometry and told them I had trouble seeing and they looked in my eyes then sent me to ophthalmology. Ophthalmology told me I had Papilledema and referred to a Neurologist. And now I'm here. Okay, I don't know if I put everything in here, but I wasn't very orderly writing this, so I'll say it's good for now. Please talk with me! Thanks.

P.S. - I don't want to go blind!!!!!