[Equine Dentist]

I am new here; this is my first post. I was diagnosed with neuropathy in 2013. The initial symptoms began in 2012. I was caring for my mother that was going through a bone marrow transplant after losing my father suddenly. At this time, my husband decided he wanted a divorce. I was down to 86 pounds and drinking everyday. It began with restless legs, then a dropped foot, the numbness and zapping of the feet and calves. In January of this year, my hands started freezing up and slowly began feeling so painful. I just found out that I have pinched nerves in my neck, elbows and wrists. The pain is unbearable. I also just found out for the first time that my condition is permanent. I havery been led to believe all this time that the nerves would heal. Apparently the entire nerve is damaged, not just the sheath. I have been sober since February of 2014 and I am at a normal weight, maybe just a tad skinny. I have been told that it's just too late. I am getting injections in my neck soon and I am seeing an orthopedic surgeon on Monday about my elbows and wrists. I work as a horse dentist and I also paddock race horses and ride as well. All this time I havery stayed distracted to get through the day. I am so busy on my boyfriend's familys' farm that this is pretty easy to stay busy. We take care of both of his parents, they are older and sick. His father is on kidney dialysis with only 25%of his heart and his mother has full blown dimentia. I feel like a crazy person because one minute I am totally rocky balboa and dreaming big and the next minute I am crying and hopeless. I can't believe that I am praying to only have the pain of neuropathy instead of the pinched nerves as well. I take all the recommended vitamins, I am quitting smoking, I eat right and am very physically active- I never sit down, I am trying magnetic therapy and also essential oils -- everything I can think of. I don't know how to accept this and I can't imagine feeling this way forever.