Hello there .
I identified with your fears and apprehensions . Sometimes , banging your head against a closing door is mightily frustrating.
I too come from a dislocated family , if I can put it that way. I am also by nature a retiring type who has always struggled to interact with others . This probably relates to the compounding of my probems by the attitudes and actions of others.
You are an amusing person and deserve to share your humour . It would be a shame to hide all that good **** under a bushel .I speak from experience.

hello
i hope one of the test you got was for a flow study. they thought i had pseudotumor cerebri as well until flow study and contrast dye MRI showed aqueduct stenosis.
if after spinal tap you had some relief from your symptoms then a shunt or ETV may be of some help.