Pamster, I know how it feels deep in your heart it hurts, when you watch them out the window and their laughing, you want to be apart so much. But then they come in(I have 3) first thing they do is sit down and tell me all about. You see, since I got sick God has shown me another way for us to be close and we are. So when your sad and wishing you could do what they do, remember aleast we still have eyes to watch the beautiful things are sweet babies do and we can still love on them when they get done. I'll tell you something elese, when they have a problem or want to talk, they will come to you first, because guess what...you have the time!! God Bless You, Tammy72