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Hugs. I can't give any advice on the feelings of guilt as I too feel those feelings and have not yet figured out how to make them go away.

However, I can offer up some advice on what my mom did with us 3 kids when my dad left when we were just 7, 5, 3.

Through our church, she found a mentor, a big sister type person, to help me deal with my issues. To give me a break. Breaks don't need to be taken with you or the child out of arms reach. Even someone to come in and play video games with your son in his room might be all your son needs for him to feel release from the normal everyday situation, and maybe even for you to feel like you were able to give it to him. That might help your guilt.

My mom remarried my father when I was 13, but from 7-13 she did it herself, and she had cancer twice (survived).

There are people who want to help. There are people who, by helping you and your son, feel like they have been helped.

Good luck.