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08-21-2010, 08:03 PM | #1 | ||
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from the New Isaiah: approximately, from blurred memory, he called out from a distance, and he said something like this:
Show me where you have been wounded In every atom I will feel the pain written on my heart in burning letters that's all I know I do not know the rest I was bound to a burden but the burden, it was raised I can no longer keep this secret Bless the name, the name be praised |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Fiona (08-22-2010), rose of his heart (08-23-2010) |
08-22-2010, 06:23 AM | #2 | |||
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We lived with"Festus" a fawn-colored pug for over 15 years. A few summers ago we made the very difficult decision to have him euthanized. Because he had little raccoon eyes, my husband nicknamed him the "Black Masked Bandit." I think that is a good nickname for what we're discussing in this thread.
Parkinson's has to carry more ambiguity than all of the other neurological illnesses combined. First, you will have lost 75-89% of your neurons before that first twitch in your finger or foot dragging occurs. Second, doctors diagnose it by "observing" your symptoms. Third, I don't see very many scientist putting the pieces of the puzzle together. I didn't have time to research this, but has anyone surveyed PWP to see if trauma preceded diagnosis? There surely is some work in psychology or Psychiatry that has done this. I have often thought that the medication may be what continues the symptoms (but that's reserved for another long post). Everyone knows that stress bathes our CNS with toxins, so why can't we bathe it in some chemical good for our brains? Fiona - your misdiagnosis scares the #@!$% out of me. I am happy for your improvement, but hope you stick around to help solve this puzzle. Peg |
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08-22-2010, 07:54 AM | #3 | ||
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Phew - so much to discuss and answer here or try to answer or something-
and remembering, I'm not all the way through my process, so while the issues raised are indeed provocative and emotional, I don't have a slate of fully-formed answers yet. All I can do is tell you some of what I'm working with right now - but some of it needs to remain personal and private until the work is done and we have the perspective of time, because while I am exploring things and want to share, I can't neccesarily shoulder everyone's doubts and apprehensions for both myself and everyone else all at the same moment...I do want to let my experience be as helpful as possible, and so I decided to report on the incomplete process rather than wait a year or two when I'm more fully evolved, but meanwhile those who are seeking may have to be satisfied - as I am right now - with an incomplete set of answers yet. Everything in due time. BUT let me try to deal with certain things as I can. Firstly, I need to ask you, dear Peg, why are you so scared about this idea of misdiagnosis? I'm not following you on that yet, and I don't really get it about the raccoon...what are you saying here? And while we're on it, could you point me to the hard evidence that proves that percentage of neurons die before symptoms show up? Or where do you get that information? I realize these are highly emotional issues for everybody. Nice to hear your voice again, tho, Peg, and thanks Imad for your words, and Paula, and I will try to respond to as much as I am able.... |
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08-22-2010, 01:16 PM | #4 | |||
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And while we're on it, could you point me to the hard evidence that proves that percentage of neurons die before symptoms show up? Or where do you get that information?
Fiona, I know of another woman (40 something??) from another forum whoo was misdiagnosed and got much better after the movement disorder specialist took her off the pd meds. She was able to say goodby to pd ! here is a link discussing the removal of ovaries increasing the risk of pd - i wonder if it is not only the estrogen the ovaries provvide but on a more esoteric level the dna memory which sort of indirectly applies to the ancestral influences for illness as well as the bodys' innate ability to respond and heal illness. How much do we really know about hormones? having just gone through menopause i muse that my brain underwent a sort of hormonal reboot that at first cycled me through hot flashes , anxiety, frozen shoulder,fatigue etcc etc but some of those got better and how does one differentiatee those sx from pd or menopause? personally i don't take the reductionistic linear approach ccrediting onee sx to a single cause. http://www.cbc.ca/health/story/2007/...-estrogen.html md
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Fiona (08-22-2010) |
08-22-2010, 02:13 PM | #5 | |||
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I am so happy for you and for whatever circumstances have brought you to this point! I look forward to reading more posts about this - whenever you are ready to share.
Kind regards and best wishes for your continued improvement - Jean
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"Thanks for this!" says: | Fiona (08-22-2010) |
08-22-2010, 05:25 PM | #6 | ||
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First of all, I really really value everybody's contribution - marvelous stuff, and wish I could have long conversations with each of you about each post!
Ok, Peg, rereading your post, I think I got what you were saying now, it's clear. No, no abandonment plans here...I'll give yas whatever I can when I can. In terms of bean spilling - the link I gave earlier to the info about Dr. Hamer's work is probably the most resonant image I can relay of the gestalt of my current path... The whole issue of diagnosis or misdiagnosis - very, very loaded, and ultimately vitally important. But in just speaking about where I'm at right now- it's not really the point either. I guess I would ask people what if instead of being cloaked in this garment called PD at the time of diagnosis, you were told you had some kind of dopamine problem, that there were treatments that could ameliorate the symptoms, but it was unknown how things would wind up going with you - would that make you feel better or worse?? This is where I think the meaning of the illness to the patient becomes very important - some people feel very comforted by the definitive world of the diagnosis even with its pessimism, but at least one can feel more or less "understood," validated for one's symptoms, part of a population that has a collective identity... On the other hand, a person can have completely the opposite reaction to the whole thing, feel trapped, doomed, labeled, judged, and foreclosed on. It's hard to see how that helps people live positive lives, and just living with that supposed knowledge would suppresss the very endorphins we need to keep our systems as healthy as possible. I think the important thing is to listen to one's body as it is now, and pay attention to the symptoms as they occur, but to stay present with them, and not use them to build an increasingly fearful forecast for the future. As I said, being released from the diagnosis doesn't let me off the PD hook yet, because of my years with the meds, and figuring out how to disengage and built up my own vitality again. I think the crucial thing for me was and is my relatiionship with my current doctor - his confidence in the strength of his work, in the accuracy of his interpretation of my situtation, and in my potential for recovery. I've been looking for this for a long time!!! Although interesting that upon return to the US in the last few weeks, I saw another doctor - great guy, teaches at Harvard Medical School - told him about the original assignment to PD, and he immediately snorted and said, "Who gave you THAT diagnosis?" I said, "So you think it wasn't accurate originally?" He said, "Look at you - anyone with a little common sense would see that was way off the mark...." But it doesn't really matter about that. What matters is how I deal with my situation, and in the largest sense it comes down to my determination, my surrender, my generating a transformative situation to heal my body. There is no reason that the plasticity of the brain can't extend itself to this task - none. So if gaining understanding not only of my own personal history, but that of my grandparents and their grandparents and their worlds is part of it, if finding ways to develop the ability to work and live from a place of muscle relaxation rather then tensing up about everything is part of it, if letting go of the fear that everyone else has that healing just not possible for you is part of it, if letting go of the meds by substituting mucuna, other herbs, physical exercise and meditation is part of it - the most important part for me is feeling free and licensed to envision a healed life in THIS lifetime and moving toward it, and letting go of all that came before. Understanding the role of post-traumatic stress - Peter Levine's book Waking The Tiger is excellent, and he has concrete suggestions about how to address it. He says that even what would be a considered a "normal," routine event to many - an ordinary surgical procedure for instance - can generate PTSD for someone else. Harley, in terms of conversion disorder - well, don't know much about it, but yes, I think Freud's work is very related to the work my Swiss doctor does, although these contemporary guys take it way past what Freud was working on. Again, the link to Dr. Hamer's descriptions of his work are informative in this regard, but again, the development of exploring the patterning that is established in the brain long before our own births is the big deal here... I think that there are people (doctors) working with this psycho-bio-geneologie modality in the US and other places- I am just currently trying to find out who they are, and I will report on that. There were many wonderful comments made, and I may hopscotch a little in reply, but I plan to continue and complete the conversations we have started here. |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | anon72219 (08-22-2010), imark3000 (08-23-2010), jeanb (08-22-2010), moondaughter (08-22-2010), rosebud (08-25-2010) |
08-22-2010, 06:16 PM | #7 | ||
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Fiona said:
….I think the important thing is to listen to one's body as it is now, and pay attention to the symptoms as they occur, but to stay present with them, and not use them to build an increasingly fearful forecast for the future… ..There is no reason that the plasticity of the brain can't extend itself to this task - none… . ….the most important part for me is feeling free and licensed to envision a healed life in THIS lifetime and moving toward it, and letting go of all that came before. …. Said Fiona Bob said: I can read those sentences over and over, and I feel so much better. It is all at a human scale, and completely immersed in the best things, and looks forward because the best is yet to come. Fiona, scientist. Fiona, artist When the two combine, fireworks light the sky Science and the widest concept of art are needed to deal with this disease on a day-to-day basis, and defeat it in the end. |
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"Thanks for this!" says: | imark3000 (08-23-2010) |
08-23-2010, 11:28 AM | #8 | |||
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"The whole issue of diagnosis or misdiagnosis - very, very loaded, and ultimately vitally important.
thankyou for including me in your response fiona...you have a nice circle of friends. Homeopathy has its origins in Germany too and embodies a much different approach to diagnosis than the western medical model. Having studied and used this type of medicine successfully I know that there is no such thing as two people having the same identical disease, not to imply that there are not similar patterns. Speaking from my own experience after 4 years of an "essential tremor" dx was then switched to pd dx because cogwheel rigidity combined with tremor was "definitive". but i tore up the prescription for s inemet 12 years ago and embarked on seeking many complimentary treatments till just about a little over a year ago. I was able to reverse a lot of stuff-sx changed and was doing well till my husband had a stroke and required intense caregiving by me...i did go without meds a LONG time and waited till I was tanking in the gutter. I kept telling my husbands neuros they should study me because i could show them what pd looked like without the meds.....yeh yeh they said- just didn't have time.... One problem is that people want an easy fix..take a pill. Let someone else deal. Is this because we feel powerless to help ourselves or because we just can't wrap our brains around the fact that our very existence is a miracle and we embody that Golden Mean program too (thx for posting about that Bob ). perhaps even technology will teach us to "become as little children"...enchanted..open and breathlessly anticipating great mystery to unfold which may be the paradigm shift that to "cure" this illlness requires...take for example biofeedback...... The Germans have an edge on education too - they definitely respect the right side of the brain more! In nature chaos precedes reorganization and this process never gets finished! I just know there is a pony hiding under that big pile of manure... BTW Fiona , if ya don't mind my asking. what were your sx at the time you were dealt the pd dx? sharilyn
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"Thanks for this!" says: | paula_w (08-23-2010) |
08-22-2010, 08:33 AM | #9 | |||
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http://www.parkinsonsonline.org/foru...hp?f=250&t=286
Peg- In fact I did a similar survey of PLM members. The link above takes you to a write up on it when I had 39 replies. It has since grown to about 100 with no change in the patterns. -Rick Quote:
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Born in 1953, 1st symptoms and misdiagnosed as essential tremor in 1992. Dx with PD in 2000. Currently (2011) taking 200/50 Sinemet CR 8 times a day + 10/100 Sinemet 3 times a day. Functional 90% of waking day but fragile. Failure at exercise but still trying. Constantly experimenting. Beta blocker and ACE inhibitor at present. Currently (01/2013) taking ldopa/carbadopa 200/50 CR six times a day + 10/100 form 3 times daily. Functional 90% of day. Update 04/2013: L/C 200/50 8x; Beta Blocker; ACE Inhib; Ginger; Turmeric; Creatine; Magnesium; Potassium. Doing well. |
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