*** PD - Mirapexin is the real horror!!!
Published on 17th Sep 2009 |

The B****** that I am!!!!!!!

I was dx in April 08 with this wonderful disease , I say wonderful because I've done nothing but wonder where it will all end????

I was put on mirapexin straight from the off, knew nothing about the drug or its side effects, I was in turmoil and decided to ask for guidance from the PDS forum, help and advice was very forthcoming from the very kind and helpful pwp on there and many good friends were made. I was also warned about the side effects of the meds and the devastating effect they can have on your life, armed with this knowledge I stumbled through the next 8 months coming to terms with PD, side effects, nah not me, actually I was disappointed that I didnt get any, especially of the sexual nature.

2009 started great and continued in this way until about May, this is when I started visiting all night chat rooms looking for women to talk to, I knew it was wrong but just couldnt stop myself.

Over the next two months many encounters were made and I found myself needing more and more conversations to satisfy my needs. This was the seceret world of mirapexin which everyone had warned me against, but hey I had no side effects, this was "normal" for a bloke.

June 09, I met and "fell in love " with a woman, this was the one, within 2 weeks I had turned my back on not only my wife and family, who loved me dearly but all my friends, and a very dear friend who had always been there for me whenever I needed them. I didnt care, I had a new family, I moved in with this family and all was roses .

10 weeks later and I am know back in my home town, behind me is a trail of broken hearts and big debts, I have been a right b****** and deserve everthing I get.

My wife , the wonderful woman she is, says she will have me back and we are dating again.The children, understandably are not that keen, I nearly destroyed their mum and them, I ripped their hearts out without batting an eyelid.

My new family have now been left behind to pick up the pieces, I have nearly destroyed them too.

I am not proud of what I have done and am not looking for sympathy, was it the meds???? I suppose its all to easy to blame them.

It's not been easy to write this down and swallow my pride, but I hope it can help others to understand what meds can do to you.

I have probably ruined several innocent peoples lives over the last 10 weeks, and we think Pd is hard!!!!! Side effects of drugs are harder and ruin more lives than Pd ever will!!!

Dopamine agonists work well for some folks but have caused many to experience similar behavior leading to ruined lives. I know, I have been there. The sad part is that even though you are forwarned about OCD behavior, you don't really know it is happening until the damage is done. The guilt that comes with the aftermath is brutal. Pick up the pieces and get on with your life. What is done is done. Good Luck

TG

Talk to your doctor - ask about titrating off that particular medication.

I was OCD and when I titrated off the med, the compulsion disappeared.

Good luck - Jean

if you haven't already, i would google mirapex and ocd and let them know that it may have caused, not only your compulsion, but your "not even batting an eye".

I think the latter is a PD symptom also; we get apathetic and detached. if they know about that coming from somewhere other than you, it might ease their pain.