There we go

(Warning- Water is not the only thing that may get deep around here )

Just for a starter, yes, current physics does indicate that the Universe is a big holographic storage unit of some sort and that each bit of Something contains a picture of Everything.

And we are nothing in that universe.

Except that we are its center and that It needs us to exist.

The Vastness is so impersonal.

Yet, every sparrow is, indeed, watched.

And loved.

(Is that a HighCoo or something? )

(Have you ever noticed how the Yogis giggle like madmen?)

(Have you ever noticed how the Yogis giggle like madmen?) [/QUOTE]

I can't even imagine what being the son of an alcoholic would be like. Interesting that you became ann expert in managing boundaries. Also a tireless inquiring mind and a great patience you possess.
thankyou rick for responding to my philosophical musings - we just have to learn how to respond instead of react - a challenge in a dualistic world!

I can't even imagine what being the son of an alcoholic would be like.
Not a bit of knowledge that I would wish upon you Moondauhter. Sort of like that feeling in your mid-section just before you are to give a speech, only it doesn't go away.

Interesting that you became ann expert in managing boundaries. Also a tireless inquiring mind and a great patience you possess.
And thank you for the kind words.

thankyou rick for responding to my philosophical musings - we just have to learn how to respond instead of react - a challenge in a dualistic world![/QUOTE]

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Recently I visited a shaman who instructed me to become aware of the power (for lack of a betterr explanation} emanating from just below thhe belly. he emphasized the importancee of good posture and reccomended to hold my body at a slighht angle when being confronted by those who are angry, critical , manipulative etc so that my heart chakra is not wide open to them.

reading your response the feeling i get is being frozen in fear....exposed -guesss how i know lately I am beginning to wonder about the wisdom of "to heal it you have to feel it" verses a contextual shift where instead of reliving old wounds instead switch the focus to what relaxes us and explore that. takes me off of defense..ini yoga class i am beiing ttaught to be very very kind - not to push but rather to focus on the places in my body where there is ease and tto see iif my awareness can expand that ease.

have you heard of the mandlebrot set ? youtube has interesting videos on this subject. comes to minnd for me when i think of feeling trapped in a fear pattern or being released into ease pattern. like attracts like. guess we are learning patience but learning how to trust..well for mme curriously i am learning that by controlling my impulses i am establishing a way to trust myself.. stepp by sttep dear frieend ....patience and be kind to yourself.

love,
sharilyn

Sharilyn-
I have a poster of the Mandlebrot set pinned to my office wall. It always fascinated me that such complexity could come from simplicity. I've always thought that its being "created" from a very few simple equations was a hint about the mystery of the Universe.

I am being forced to reexamine a large part of my life, not all of it pleasant, and renew the acquaintance of some old ghosts thought dead. The idea of the PD personality did not spring full blown from the forehead of any of us, but we do share certain traits at a higher level than the general population.

I wonder if the general umbrella of "childhood stress induced traits" would cover much of it? Hypervigilance would be one of mine. An aversion to anger and a powerful self-control, as well. And an ability to "read" others' emotions. Survival tools when you are young. Do those fit you in some form?

Chronic elevation of powerful chemicals would take a toll of some sort. We know that adrenaline (acute stressor) sends us off the deep end. Is it because we over produce or over react, I wonder? And the aversion to anger, etc. Is it simple conditioning ala Skinner? Or does a part of us know that those chemicals destroy us, so we avoid them and seek not novelty? The Hero pays a price. That is one of the reasons he got the job.

....and an interesting read for those who dare not, which is the majority-
http://www.biologyofkundalini.com/

"Ellie Van Winkle suggests emotional repression of the full expression of the fight/flight response and the consequent lack of resolution back to a neutral set point, results in the atrophy and toxicosis in catecholamine-noradrenergic neurons. A toxin is anything that cannot be utilized by the cell, and when elimination is impaired, toxins accumulate to intolerable levels and trigger a detoxification process. This cycle of toxification and detoxification shows up in the form of a mild to extreme disturbance in the emotions and personality.....

....Our brain falls into patterns of cyclic neurotoxicity as a result of emotional repression of the fight/flight mechanism during early trauma, social stress, abandonment or deprivation of needs during in our infancy. Thus the neurotoxicity that is addressed by kundalini awakenings is the repressive mechanism built into our primary wiring (0-5 years development). This initial patterning becomes the template for ongoing emotional repression, and lack of neuron-recouperation, which interferes with the smooth running of our catecholamine "activating" neurons. (The Catecholamine metabolism proceeds from tyrosine, to DOPA, to dopamine to norepinephrine and then to epinephrine.)...

....Babies suppress fight/flight responses when their needs are so unmet that they go into a freeze response. The vegetative unmyelinated vagus controls basic metabolism and responds to stress by "immobilisation behaviours." Domesticated animals including humans are sub-natural when it comes to releasing the tension of both fight/flight and freeze. Also as children under punitive authoritarian rule, when our caretakers and teachers are not truly our "friends," we are encouraged to "lie" by inhibiting the expression of fear, anger, sadness, and so the neurotic, dissociated false self that doesn't know what it feels is built. Kundalini awakenings constitute a mechanism for the ultimate release of this primal repression, allowing our brains to evolve and mature beyond the ongoing cycles of repression/neurotoxicity/detoxification....."

THANK YOU, thank you Rick for posting this!! WOW!:


“The process of Awakening is the hardest thing in the world to do for the simple reason that we must confront ourselves. Rather than attempting to formulate "reasons" for our behavior and engagement of life, we have to come to clearly see we are not and have not been Awake.” Garwin Redman

I've heard it said that those who have developed their 6th sense of vision and can "see" auras have observed that when a person is in a state of fear their chi moves backwards which was the fundamental observation of Janice-Walton Hadlock of pders. Testimony to the intricate and varied electrical pathways of our subtle bodies. In homeopathy we know that healing occurs first in the subtle energy bodies before physical changes manifest.

I wonder about the physiological changes that can awaken the firey serpent- when my husband had a vasectomy he experienced a very mild sense of fire going up his spine. THen there are the poisons that play a role in Kundalini (such as diethyl ether given to birthing women and in my case Dethylstiburol- DES to women at risk of miscarriage). Recent studies indicate relationship to MS with menopause!

We come from the "children are to be seen but not heard" generation. A time when breastfeeding went out of vogue and evaporated milk replaced the all important DHA rich breast milk.

I feel that "freeze response" when I become vulnerable. In homeopathy school I volunteered to have my case taken by my class (about 30 MDs, DOs and NDs)...stupid me....this was just about the time the tremors began). to my own suprise when I got up in the front of the class (that I was previously a happy and very verbal particpant in) I froze deep down inside - the tension in the room was palpable and thick- all my tension...i felt deeply humiliated and all those docs and a worldclass homeopath - well - the prescription was cannabis indica (homeopathic)- which didn't seem to help much although it may have as i think that everything we do to help ourselves goes towards our evolution even if at the time it doesn't feel that way. Then there was the time I called into talk to Caroline Myss on hayhouse radio (an audience of hundreds of thousands world wide) and i asked her if she could help me identify where the fear was coming from and even Caroline, a worldclass medical intuitive seemed a bit dumbfounded. Its as if the boundaries that contain my soul were sort of like phosphorous....no boundaries.

md

here is a hopeful thought from your website....hopefully we fall into the tranformative side of the equation....new cause of pd identified..the kundalini is trying to awaken...yes!

It is very important to grasp the distinction between “damage” (pathology and disease) and the transformative process of “metamorphosis.” Certain phases of metamorphosis include cellular necrosis and catabolic breakdown, for the new cannot grow without the removal of the old. Kundalini with its amplified metabolism and nerve activity, and increased oxidation will tend to down-regulate neural and hormonal receptors and rewire the nervous system. However even if we are in the between-slump, when the hyper-functioning has backed off, but our receptors have not yet regrown, we cannot really consider kundalini as being “brain damaging.” We must see all phases of metamorphosis as necessary allostatic changes in the transformation of our organism and the human collective. Once we understand this and intelligently adapt, we can avoid burnout and regression, and thereby learn to keep the gains made through heightened kundalini.

....you actually understood it! Congratulations! (Notice how I, in my humble arrogance, assume that my own understanding is not only correct, but also of a depth to justify judging yours. No wonder the yogis giggle. )

(Did you ever see the Majarishi Mahesh Yogi (sp?) on Johnny Carson? Hilarious! Carson was seldom thrown off his game like that. )