I am rather bitter and hurt over the actions of my employer who targeted me two years ago and a Union that watched complicit as a woman I didn't even know started some sort of campaign against me that quickly turned into a she can't do her job anymore due to her health campaign. They leveled all sort of bogus claims my way even resorting to forgery, so I fought and they never let up on the offensive.

I thought they were offering an olive branch this fall, but in the back of my mind knew at some level it was a setup. They reassigned me back to my former school where I really respected my principal and thought he supported me. Nope just the finale for them. I was late one morning due to medication fluctuation and look out here we go all over again. By this time I am noting to myself that either because of the stress and increased meds I have to take to counteract it or the PD itself is taking its toll on my speech and kids cannot understand me, so I know it is time to step down. I am treated like I don't even have the capacity to make that decision. Supervisor writes me demanding arrival time as if I were a child. I was not late for any classes I taught. I have gone from being best school librarian in the district to a social outcast. Not one ounce of compassion from anyone...you get tagged no one wants to be around you.

Where to turn? Union has sold me out. Next stop a lawyer with ADA specialty. Never again will I pay a lawyer for a thing. Nope, me thinks we are just bread and butter to them. I wasted thousands on "counsel" only to be told that I had no recourse unless they fired me or demoted me. Well they can use your health condition against until you quit for the sake of your health, end up in a wheelchair, or collapse from stress. The ADA offers you nothing when your employer can get away with bullying and mobbing. Lawyers know that employers pull this all the time but do nothing to try and change things. In the end all I get is permanent decline in health but cannot sue because simply timing the emergence of freezing with beginning of job harassment means nothing in court. With no real measure of anything with this disease can't prove anything. I didn't even want any sort of litigation for compensation, just to be treated with some respect.

The longer I live with this the less I like myself as seen through the eyes of others. They strip our humanity away. Doctors do it and end up seeing us as a set of symptoms because they can't find find the balance between compassion and objective distance in order to not get to "attached". Lawyers do the same. Employers simply see you as a blight, an aberration, or as an insurance premium...

I do not at all see myself as a victim, but just wondering what motivates a person to single us out and target us because they see our health as a weakness. Then next thing you know it is a witch hunt and you know the outcome before the trial. People with Cancer seem to be treated much differently in the workplace and in society. Is it because they see us as representing human frailty; constant reminders of how little control we all really have...? They don't live with it; right, so why should they have to see it every day...

What really scares me is that every single person who colluded in this at my workplace has convinced themselves they did it for "the kids" and they brag about how important their work is "touching lives" and all that crap, yet they psychologically terrorize a colleague not recognizing that this too has a profound impact. These people who dehumanize us...by societal standards are usually great successes in life. Is a part of that because they get rid of us? We are now a tax liability they can ***** about but not have to face everyday?

I made my resignation effective immediately. Actually felt guilty. Faxed it this afternoon. No confirmation. Finally wrote HR at 10PM to confirm and well yes they received it thanks for making decision in best interest of the kids, thanks for your years of service, blah blah blah. The supervisor who lied. The same one who mentioned his mom had MS to make things better somehow. Not a word.

I feel like I am surviving a hit and run. I am now sitting up, rubbing my head, but I don't understand what they get out of this….or what I am supposed to make of it all.