That was uplifting! I think I'll just go slit my wrists



Don't panic....I still have my sense of humor...but at this rate who knows how long that will last!

tenalouise,
Thanks for all that information. I read alot of it but had to copy it to finish later. It started to make my head spin. I'm starting to understand why the MDS feels that Paxil is the culprit.

I haven't checked into this yet but I seem to remember in the late 70's maybe mid 80's that a lot of 50 something men were killing themselves because of Prozac. I wonder if Paxil and Prozac are the same type of drug? Do they work in the same manner? I'll have to research that.

GregD

Greg..Im sorry to hear that you went through that, but you definately was able to do the right thing and get the guns out of the house..Medications can sure be scarey, especially anti-depressants..Some people go through some bizzare stuff with them sometimes, but on the other hand they have helped many people tremendously..I havent had to take any myself, but I must say that pd sure does change the emotional balance in a variety of ways..Lucky for me so far depression hasnt been one of them

I am sorry but I thought it better to be safe, and know the information...

sooooooooo sorry.

sometimes too much info is a stressor in itself and it's just enough to push ya over the top.

Today I feel like I have the flu. I know I'm going through the withdrawl of the antidepressant. But no more horrible sudden onset high velocity tremor and hyperthermonuclear melt downs. My tremor is just verging on nuisance value today. I imagine it will take me a week or two to get past this. I read an interesting tidbit refering to how we have come to have so many drugs... about how we start with herbs, render them down to supplements and then render the supplements down even further until we have drugs. Leaving us with the quick fix, the pure element that does the job, but none of mother natures padding to allow it to take hold and do its work in a more natural way. I thought that was an interesting comment on the human condition and the lives we live in the 21st century. We need to get back to chewing on roots. I think I'll just see if I can get by with a sleeping pill and if good old sleep will give me the coping mechanisms to deal with whatever it is that depresses me. I understand that depression is our head chemistry gone haywire, but I just don't think I want to go to those places drugs take us. Gregs experience is very very scary. My experience was just incredibly unpleasant. But even unpleasant takes its toll on us after awhile. Parkinson's sits right where the mind and body connect and what happens to the body has an incredible impact on the mind. I believe the reverse to be true as well. Time to get out the meditation instruction manual again.

Once only, ever, have I come close to knowing depression. It was a year or so before dx, so had nothing to do with meds. It had to do with feeling superfluous, in short, it was a 'poor me' moment, but it was, nevertheless very frightening to find my usually jolly self thinking how nice it would be to be dead, to end my life right away and get everything over with NOW.
All the children left on the same morning after spending two weeks all together with us in the house in Denmark, with spouses, and the couples had not been getting along very well with the other couples - much of the strife still stemming from childhood resentments.
Lots of company, lots of strife, and then with one fell swoop, we were all alone, my husband and I.
Jumping off a cliff was what came to my mind then. Fortunately the island is quite flat. The next day death was no longer a tempting option, but I still remember that shocking feeling of wishing for death. It was truly horrible.
I hope you never, never return to that place, Greg.

birte

call me that. - i have allways felt that my brain damage has been caused by my two decade long use of various anti-depressants that the toxicity in my skull was a result of faulty metabolic processing and and something somewhere not eliminating cellular waste products properly. i have read with interest the threads on the bbb and i pursue dietary support- fresh organic vegetables, greens, and fruits.




let food be our medicine and let medicine be our food.



as well as alll the supplimeht pills and pharmacute pills.