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09-24-2007, 09:36 AM | #1 | |||
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i have found that writing helps me more than anything deal with pd..does anyone else here write poetry?
I am Human Please do not look at me as a type of curiosity I am not at all what you see I am nothing less than human This body exuding hell Is hiding something neath the shell I know where my feelings dwell I can show you I am human Time attacks my dignity And slowly drains simplicity There is nothing done effortlessly I stumble being human My lips are sealed by pride But the eyes will never hide The tears that I have cried Because I am human The option was never mine To plant this choking vine And feel it as it twines Round what it knows is human Feed my weary soul An acceptance of its toll Realize my only goal is to feel I am human ©Laura Jeanne Dean Living by Candlelight When you have been living in a room with a degenerative chronic illness for as long as I have, you become enslaved in the reality of having to adapt to the continual darkening of that room. The light has faded for such a long time that it is merely a memory that tickles numbing senses. the shadows then begin to creep in kicking off a survival instinct to light candles to be able to see. The shadows grow bigger as the flames flicker yet you must find comfort with them for sanity's sake this is sufficient for awhile. But, the disease progresses, and soon it is difficult to even light a candle. The darkness then becomes your home. Then God in all of His glory extends to you His light ©Laura Jeanne Dean The Truth of Two There is something you need to hear My attitude disguises my fear I have not held you very near And have blamed you for my fate Inside of pain there is a door Which I have closed to feeling more It blinds me from your daily chore And slams shut my desires gate To walk this pace is not my choice I strike out with venomous voice With gestures being grandiose To camouflage your search of me Only now do I begin to know That within you a sorrow grows As the pace becomes very slow My heart opens my eyes to see Your feet callous when mine ache Your mind quits when mine will not create You stop motion when my world breaks You share all of my heavy toll I see my pain rise in your eyes I hear you whimper when I cry Each cherished moment cannot fly Without brushing upon your soul This path was not built for two Navigation barely lets one through Though my future is hidden from view Today I feel your hand within mine ©Laura Jeanne Dean A Poem For Chloe Come here my little one. Sit upon my lap and wipe away my clouds so I can absorb the warmth of your sunshine. Wrap your arms around my rigid frame and show me your wonderful smile. Today I will feel the joy of being your Grandma. I long to watch you romp through my garden, then join you to pick flowers when your legs tire. There will be some to fill the vase that is waiting for your magic touch on my table, and a bouquet of your favorites to bring home to share with Mommy. When my body aches we will go in the house. I have your blanket ready on the bed, so we can lie comfortable as you tell me of your day. If the pain closes my eyes, I know you will not be afraid. You will sing a beautiful solo to soothe me to sleep and then join me with your head on my shoulder. I will dream of being the Grandma I long to be. My shuffled gait would not hinder us at all as we run along the ocean beach flying a colorful kite high in the sky. The sandcastles we build will be magnificently huge, full of seashells for doors and pebbles for windows. When I awaken you still are dozing with contentment. I look to you and whisper a thank you in your ear. The love that is shown in your innocent gestures keeps everything fresh and in perspective. You show me how blessed my life really is each time you spend a day with me and say to me, "I love you Grandma." Copyright © January 2002 Laura Jeanne Dean
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09-24-2007, 12:18 PM | #2 | ||
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These are wonderful!
Thanks so much for sharing them. |
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