[ol'cs]

Chemicals, even very large ones, don't do much for PD. They have been known to knock down (sometimes knock out) a few cancer metasteses, but for the most part, chemicals just "help" us PWP. Now if you are a "beginner PWP" they can help a lot. However time goes by, and tomorrow is never static with today. Everything has this nasty habit of changing, and no matter what we wish for, we all come to the same end. Medicine exists so that some people who should perhaps not come ot this end so soon, will be "saved", but eventually we are all just stardust, recycled in an open/closed system.
So, our tears are salty water from the sea, our thoughts are those of God, our bodies are impermanent houses from which we peer outward and inward. Who, what can truly "save us". Nothing. So don't be sad, don't be angry, your pain is felt by all of us, and as we reach out towards each other for answers, just think that someday soon, there will be no more pain, no more sorrow, no more need for questions or answers.
It would be nice if we at least knew that we would be in some way rewarded for leading a good life, for not fighting , for not killing, for not cheatiing, stealing, lying, etc; but instead known for loving, for smiling, for hoping, giving, helping, caring, etc.
Maybe having a bad disease makes us think this way, the "better" way. maybe having constant pain makes us think of others who have life even worse than we do, makes us able to contemplate how bad life can get, makes us able to want to help instead of compete with and destroy others.
But it makes us selfish too; not selfish for commodities that enrich financiallly, but commodities like the best researchers, the most able minds among us, ot work on fixing our particular worst problems. But i'm afraid that it's slow going, and there simply aren't enough "cures" to go around. Most of us will simply be forced to come to that conclusion. I am now certain that i will not last much longer than a few whining, stubborn, kicking and screaming years to my personal gallows, with no "cure" so that i may die with dignity. Many of you probably think the same way. Lets hope for a better future for all of humankind, and that the things that really matter for the continuance of our species, will continue. We don't want all of us to come to never see a blue sky, a sunset, or to experience all that we have in our short time on this planet. Maybe a "cure" for many things much more important for humankind than our personal "ultra important, cure PD" for us , will be part of future times. So, my friends, maybe there will be some afterlife for all of us. Some time -space where our spirits exist, and nothing "tragic" can ever befall us. This, I personally hope for, much more than a cure for what ails my earthly form. So, have courage that the reasons for our suffering will be revealed to us all someday, and that being a "good" person" really matters. That's all that i "hope for" now (along with a few "selfish things"; come on, i'm still alive after all). What do hope for , more than even your own personal life?