[Feel the Burn]

Dont recall how long,, but it has been a while since i have been here,, I wish Icould say thingshave gotten better, but they havent,, they have gotten worse, suffering from chronic sclerosing silidinitis,, chronic sinus infections and to make it all worse,,thisdam SFN is getting the better of me,, Icant do much of anything anymore,I drop things, Icantcarry anything, myhands are uselss,, my legs arethe same,, cold destroys me,, and no one can tell me why,, oh we know youhave a problem,but we dontknow what it is,, comeon,, in all of mankind,, I am the onlyonethathas evershowed up with things like this,
Showering has takenon a new meaning, it takes me ahour to just get ready for it,, I advoid a lot of it,, i cant stand the water hitting me,, and getting in and out of the tub is bad enough,, Doc says fibro,, I am not buying that,, no one can be this bad and have fibro,, only med I am on is ultram,, does little,,
this has destroyed my quality of life, i actually have no life,, cant do much of what I used to do,, and sitting makes things worse, and walking is just as bad, I cant stand for long,, the muscles in my legs just burn,, and of course sitting then getting up is just as bad,, oh I fall a lot, and my doc says,, well you know its nerve damage,, huh,, it wasent this bad 5 months ago, and I have been to teaching hospitals,, Mayo,, and no one can say why or what to do,, so while they enjoy there lives,, I get to lament the loss of mine,, and the loss of my wife and kids,, they miss there dad and husband, the fun go to guy,, but even they have no clues what this is like, how cdan aneone understand this kind of hell on earth