do we do each other justice by beating up on each other....when we don't even know each other......

Huh?

rose

What I meant was....."I saw two years and lost it." Granted, two years is not a long time. But, everyone has gone through the point of having chronic pain for 2 years. I'm sure there are people with pain that has lasted 2 months, 2 years and 22 years. It is difficult to assume how people will react to feelings laid down on paper, or the internet. I apologize for hitting any raw nerves about the vicodin and vodka scenerio. I'm not one who ususally presents dramatic thoughts of poor impulse. I was just so incredibly frustrated at that time, and I should have probably taken a cleansing breath, before making those over-the-top statements. Today my feet aren't hurting as bad. Is it because I'm wearing my Birks all weekend, and my feet aren't trapped in shoes or socks. Is it the fact that I'm enjoying some time with my sons celebrating my 58th birthday, and not thinking about my caseload of sex offenders.....who knows....I just know that right now I'm feeling okay.

I'm glad you're feeling better.

rose

I had grey goose vodka martini tonight with 4 olives. It's taken me a long time to learn how to use alcohol productively, coming from a pathologically sober family. (I mean, think Passover, and 17 people can't finish 2 bottles of wine!) Among the lessons I'm learning late in life:

1. growing up means learning that sometimes it's a good thing to lie.
2. There are times that call for a drink.

So tonight, a vodka martini.

Jack, I haven't followed what this thread responded to; I just know that sometimes I've been frustrated as hell with you and wanted to shake you. Usually, I don't write when I feel that way, but once or twice I have. We're all in pain here; and venting, well, it's got to be done in a particular sort of way for us to be able to be there for you when you do it.

Hard to explain, but if you "vent" and then get offered help and advice, but still need to vent, it makes those who've responded to you feel frustrated and helpless. And then, angry. So, next time you need to vent, think about what you want from us, and make it possible for us to give it to you. You could even label the post--"Just venting-no need to respond--I'm okay" Something that won't trigger our help reflex when it can't do any good.

I don't know, maybe I'm not making sense. That martini you know...