I didn't mean the BIG 'waay back machine' I'd only meant that IF one looked at a person's earliest posts, one mite have gotten a 'hint' tho not much. We all like our privacy, and many of us keep some aspects without detail or specifics to maintain that privacy.

Curious: As other comments have indicated, those are super clean and neat SLIPPERS! I have to admire that! My slippers the faithful are in use and almost 'rags' & grubby-ish by now, the others I've in a Hefty Zip Toter...for what? I dunno, hope that they mite fit at some future time? Easy way to transfer to some 'donation bag' in the not so distant future?

Sue, you MUST know you crack me up with your descriptions of your relationship and all else going on! Goodness anyone who can make such FUN out of such stuffs! , Well, I believe that you KNOW I am truly grinning about now? And with all that's going on, how you and your family and friends are dealing with it, well, it surely gives me lots of hope for some parts of the world! Especialy to you...special 's

For everyone else? More of those dreaded cyber hugs! 's
Since I can't hug you each in person...so...take what ya can get? - j

those aren't my slippers. LOL. i googled "pile of slippers" and that picture came up. lol. but...my slippers are clean...i only wear them in the house. and no way am i going to waste coffee or chocolate by spilling some.

I do not worry anymore. I found it counterproductive. I do the best I can with what I have to work with, and I try to let the rest go.

My philosophy is: what's the worst that could happen to me? That I die? Well, anyone can die at any time, and I'm not scared of that.

But I understand your disillusionment with the doctors. I used to trust them completely, had no reason not to, until one put me on a drug I didn't want to take and caused me permanent damage. Now I realize that some have a God complex, some never bothered to further their education once they became doctors, and some really do care but have no idea what to do with complicated patients.

About those slippers: I really like the zebra print ones! I've got plain black Isotoner ones with the cuffs that come up the ankles. Unfortunately, the soles are wearing off, so I may be in the market for new ones at some point.

Sue, the Lake of the Ozarks is a really pretty place! My mom was from Arkansas and used to go there on vacations. I visited there about six months after my mom died and just gazed at the water for awhile, and the white-tailed deer would come out of the woods and stare at me.

fanfaire

daniella: Like fanfaire, I do not worry about it all much any more....with the worry comes much more stress than we all need or want. Every day each of us keeps going and fighting or accepting this all gets us just that...another day. Most important in it all is to keep the positive attitude that this all will not bury us. Most reports say no. So in the fighting it and keeping a hopeful attitude we make better progress. Attitude is key to healing of any sort...there have been lots of 'papers' done about those who have cancer. I have read them? As I have that too. We are human beings, and we have the ability to surpass any expectations, and we do! Therefore with what we have striving to overcome the many 'minimal' expectations many docs set for us is kind of easy...IF we are STUBBORN. I have found that my stubborn-ness has been my best asset in this all. I might be winning? Dunno yet. Time will tell.
Disillusionment with doctors? I wish there was a way we all could find ways to either communicate effectively or to report JERKS! If not, I'd loove the AMA to have a 'charity booth' in which those I hate could be either water chair dunked or zapped with a water gun or the like...Those who get the most dunks or zaps better watch out from the state medical boards?

Slippers....? Already said my part. About to shop for my 'presents' to me from my Hubby...Slippers ARE on the agenda....finding those perfect ones IS a challenge, NO?

Sue - I have been lots of places, seen lots of amazing things elsewhere and with the local creatures...One event before I got PN was leaving a farm and getting to the dirt road...there was one beaut of a Golden Eagle on a fence post...just looking at me...and well, me him! It was a good ten minutes before that beast decided to leave me...with one super look of disdain? But, What a magnificent Creature! Feels, silly, but I almost feel as if we had some kind of sub-consious neuro-talk? When this bird took off, I really felt as if I could Fly!?

Simple hugs to all for the interim - j

Well with 3 cats, there have been instances of mouse livers, but then I won't go into that...so as not to offend others.

Our cat just hates mouse livers, and leaves them for us! sweet? Not.

just the 'livers'? Oh my...maybe I should protect others' sensibilities and tell you what my mere 'suburban' cats presented me with!
Any way ya put it...those cat 'presents' for want of a better name? are THEIR way of honoring you? Giving you the 'gift' of some of their hunt. I cannot ever describe the confused looks by my beasts when I carefully [w/o my own hands, but scoopers, plastic etc.] bagged and trashed such gifts...with a "GOOD MIGHTY HUNTER BEAST" as I did it...Mouses, moles, voles OK...the still twitching other stuff... well, harder to take? But this is the way nature works. Just wish other parts of the world were more straightforward? Oh my... - j

Curious my love you sure got us on that one...Here I am with ice on my nose
wondering HOW can she walk with those backless slippers (that are very
clean) and not end up like me..I still can't google up anything,or u tube up,
But I shall,i shall. Ok I went to sign up for a few things and messed that up,
there,I said it i really did...Mrs. D i think I spoted a few,but ya know some,look well,that's for tomomrow...

I'm going to St. Louis, Bob is not happy,well who would blame him,not me..
Fanfaire and Hey Joe and other brave one's ,I'm getting there..My younest
was 22 when his father died,and left for MN. right after,first his sister went
to check it out..They came back and loved it,the so called mamy friends,ha
So I thought he's bright,he's big,and he's brave,not to mention so many
friends. Ha Them my oldest took him there to move,besides his Grandmom
said he always has tons,of friends,he beat camcer,and you ran off at 17.
Well this is true before my oldest left MN. he took a picture of the youngest
sitting on a porch readimg....He looked so young,bright,not so big or brave
but he had his chin up..He knew no one,but soon he did,and once again he
surviced...I got hurt by a Dr. which soon I will be able to talk about,I made
a poor very poor decision,I got sick,my mother got Cancer,and my youngest
got scared..First his Dad,his beloved Grandmom ,I got pain could not shut
up,he was far away,,but the other 2 saw me,when he did,he put his head
in my lap and cried..He couldn't talk to me much,didn't come back much,
I was scared and so was he..3 yrs ago he got married,he kept looking at me,
I was different..So after the wedding there was a big staircase,where
everyone was walking down to comgrat them.. He planned everything
for my wheelchair but that...I went out into the the parking lot,made my
way down to the street,and went flying over a speed bump,yelling his name,
almost hit the tourist bus...But he was ok,and i stopped crying so much.

D your young my youngest son takes care of his 32 yr. sister-in-law with PN
or was,but she flew away to live with a boyfriend in a apartment,,she's
happy.. and so on..Am I afraid to die no,do I want to no,but oh boy I
hurt more than I want...So in some ways you are our young one,to young
for this,by helping others with the eating disorders,you are making a
difference..So fear we are all different in the way we handle it,helping each
other in anyway is good..

J. Thank you how lucky we are if you catch my meaning,and you do. WOW
Joan got mushy and smooched us,hot dog,hey where's the reat of you all..
Oh yes living your life. Got something to tell you My youngest and his wife,
adopted little3 yr. old Daniel,then the Surogate had ther baby Daughter
Sullivan almost at the same time. Hands full yes,well they got a phone
call,the adoption folks in March twin boys are a coming...4 for them,my
daughter's 6 month old Ozzy look out Bob i'm catching up. Hugs to ya Sue

Thanks for your feedback on worring. I try not too but really am doing horrible. I'm trying to use the tools I have learned from you all and my support team. As for docters I too wish there were mor consequences for bad ones. I think like a 20/20 hidden camera to show the public and to make docters more scard to show the treatment of patients.
Sue gosh I'm sorry for all you and your family has gone through.

Just wishing every one a "Happy" Thanksgiving, which actually means, I hope everything goes as well as can be expected for all of you.

I have just had a hideous 4 days without 3 nights of sleep. Can't figure out what happened,but nothing worked to put me to sleep, last night was not too bad, I just woke up every 2 hours, but did fall back asleep. I think what set this off was taking my one daily Vicodin, at night, as ordered. (I normally don't touch any codeine at night...keeps me up...but not THIS up.)

There is nothing in that 2D6 drug family that has not had an abnormal effect on me. I should get those genes tested. I am not wired normally and the more I dug in my genealogy the more I understand why. It has been an interesting journey. If only I could verify all my suspicions.

The weird thing was I did doze off during the day during this time period. My Circadian rhythm just went bonkers, but my RLS stopped completely (never happend before).

I tried not to take much for meds and just laid in the dark and listened to my rain and thunderstorm CD and just let myself doze, and when not sleeping drank sips of juice (as I had a bad headache and nausea too). It seems to have worked OK and now 4 days later, I feel fairly OK.

This is my first ever Thanksgiving without all my kids coming home, so, it is depressing,but I had best get used to it, as grown kids have to move around the country for jobs and such. One daughter had to chose, either Thanksgiving or Christmas, so she is coming longer for Christmas....probably a good thing given all the flight problems.

At least I talked my husband into NOT buying the biggest turkey he could find. That was hard for him, as that has been a family tradition forever. He has gotten turkeys too big for roasters and one almost too big to fit in the oven....of course, who had to deal with all that turkey meat after dinner...me! It would take hours to get it all chisled off and put in ziplock bags.

I hope every one at least 'feels OK' and that the day is peaceful.

Happy Thanksgiving Cyclelops:

I wanted to make a turkey breast. And cranberry sauce, and stove topp stuffing. You know, thanksgiving food!!!!!

I ran this by Alan and he looked at me like I had lost my mind. His words and I quote: "If you want to know what I really want, I want what you made last night, that was the most delicious dinner I ever ate!!! MAKE THAT FOR THANKSGIVING!!!

What did I make.

I put some chicken cutlets in some egg beaters, I dipped them in bread crumb mixture with fresh parsley, grated cheese, garlic powder, minced onions, (NO SALT), some cumin. Then I sprayed the frying pan with PAM, added a bit of extra virgin olive oil, and cooked them until they were nicely done. Then I transferred the chicken cutlets onto to several paper towels until they are completely drained.

Then I did the same cooking method with my sliced zuccini, and broccoli florets. After they are cooked, I drained them in the paper towels also.

Then I opened up a can of no-salt tomato sauce, heated it up, added a packet of SPLENDA.

Then I put the chicken, and veggies on a plate, poured the sauce over it. You should have seen Alan's face as he ate this. He died and went to heaven.

I shall take a snapshot of this meal the next time I do it. He swears it's the only way to eat chicken.

I don't touch it this way. Isn't it amazing how we are married and we rarely eat the same stuff?

amazing!!!

Melody