[jennifer.ellison237]

I have suffered the loss of a baby to SIDS. My son, Dante, was 4 months and 10 days old. I relive that day every day of my life. Im not sure how to move on or if things get better. I have a daughter who was born a few years after he passed away and Im pretty sure people think im crazy for how over protective i am while she is asleep. She is 3 now and i still check on her to make sure she is breathing.I also have a son who is 5 years ilder than Dante. However, I did not have any contact with him until recently. I was diagnosed with PTSD and some other mental disorders after Dante passed. I tried comitting suicide 6 times now, 4 of those times I was hospitalized. I still get that feeling every once in a while... to take too many pills and slip away. But I always remember my 2 children that are alive and need me. Does it ever get better? Does the pain ever stop? What about the suicidal thoughts, do they ever stop? Do the flash backs ever quit? Any advice is helpful. I have been going through this for 5 years now and it seems that nothing is getting better!

[Chemar]

oh Jennifer I am so sad for you. Deepest sympathy.

We have a very caring group here for survivors of suicide. http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

The PTSD forum at our other Community, PsychCentral, is a lot more active than this one so you may want to post there as well
http://forums.psychcentral.com/forumdisplay.php?f=15