Having a bad time, couldnt help someone because I was too busy holding myself together - then got really angry with myself for not being able to be who I used to be - i want to be who i was before this happened! But I can't - I used to be connected to the world and now I draw back and keep to a small circle - it's bigger than it was after I was attacked but ........ I dont
think I'm making much sense....


Does it ever seem to anyone that they are going round in a never ending circle and that just when you think you have made a move in the right direction you fall down again - I know I am better than I was but today it just seems like it's not enough - I'm having trouble shaking the blues and people at work are starting to notice - usually I can hide it at work - any suggestions how to shake the blues ? I think part of me is grieving for who I used to be... does that sound dumb? it's almost like i lost a friend and I don't really know who this new person is...I suppose time will tell take care everyone - Phoneix7

I'm sorry Pheonix.. Depression is a beast. You aren't alone my friend....that black hole has sides. Let us help you to your feet.

Hi pheonix7,

I feel that sometimes, I also hold regrets about who I am now. I used to think, I would have been so much happier if I didn't have PTSD, or if my suppressed memories just continued to be suppressed. But now, I just learnt to let go of things. I've learnt that negative thoughts doesn't help in my recovery so I try to counter them with thought-challenging thoughts. (part of my CBT therapy)

Whereas on days that you're feeling down, just let it be. After a while, it will just go away. Because suppressing emotions doesn't help for me, I'll just release it, either by talking to my psychologist or writing in my diary.

Anyway, just remember that you are not alone!! You can always discuss your problems here to let go of the baggage. I think that this belief is good enough to help you, because knowing that someone is there for you, is comforting and relieving for someone suffering in pain.

Take care.

thanks Alffe, the darkness doesnt seem quite so dark now - Phoenix7

[QUOTE=almondface;387929]Hi pheonix7,

"I would have been so much happier if I didn't have PTSD, or if my suppressed memories just continued to be suppressed. "



Hi Almondface, I too wish my surpressed memories were still surpressed - but it's too late for the one's I have back - I have supressed my emotions for years and I guess now I just have to deal with it - take care Phoenix7