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Hi,
Yesterday I learned that one of my cousins died. He was walking across a street with a headset and got hit by a car.

Tonight I google searched for the news report of his accident. He got hit by two vehicles: a truck and then an SUV. He was two blocks from where he lived.

He was troubled, but at the time of his death he was apparently pulling himself together after fighting demons and street drugs. I read comments on the web site from a a couple of his neighbors who had good things to say about him.

I sent a link to the article to my sis and an aunt.
I'm sad that he seemed to have been struggling for a long time.
Years ago, someone should have taken him to a hospital and gotten him some help. He had double bad genes from his mother and father. Then his father died when he was a child (perhaps drug related) and he and his siblings were raised by their nutty mother.
He struggled to stay sane in the insane family he was born into.

My mother doesn't want to talk about it (he was her brother's son).


I miss him even though I have not seen him since his father was alive and we were both children.
I hate the craziness that runs in my mother's family.
Hate it.
Sad and angry right now.

Mari

he no longer has to fight his demons. he is free. it is great that he was no longer spiraling downward so he must have started to feel good about himself. Nobody living can understand death. I like to think that when our mission is accomplished, we are freed to move onto something better.
Why are some of us chosen to be mentally disabled and have to struggle to exist with its accompanying pain? I can understand why this is so painful for you. What a shock! Try to be kinder to yourself and gentle for the next while. I am afraid it will stir up more conflict about being bipolar besides the grief you are now carrying.
Bobby

Dear Mari;
I am so sorry.
You are completely entitled to feel sad and angry.
I hate that children have to pay for the mistakes of their parents as well.
I'm glad he knew a little peace before he passed away.
:hug:
Bobi

oh this is a sad story.
It is sad jsut to read about it when it happens to a family member makes it much worse.
I am sorry that you are having to go thru these extra emotions.
It is a fact that crazyness runs thru families.
I am sorry that your mother doesn't want to talk about him.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi:hug:
The other day I saw a bike rider with headsets on and talking on cell phone all at the same time riding on a very dangerous road.
sigh

:hug: Mari :hug:

befuddled2

Oh Mari! I am so terribly sorry to hear this, what an awful tragic unexpected loss. :( :hug:

I hope your family heals from this, how simply awful. :(

Thank you everyone.

I woke up crying and sick.
I hate that I process my emotions through my body.

My aunt forwarded to me an email from his younger sister. She had good things to say about her brother of course.

My family is sooo messed up. I heard about his death 2 weeks after it happened.


Mari

that is a long time....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

No words, just big (((Mari))) for you and your family.

Mari I am so sorry. I know how you feel. Lots of rest and be good to yourself. {{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}