Wonder of all Wonders....#134!!
 

Wow…I wonder where everyone is…I guess asleep!

I wonder how great the epidural I received last week has helped. Haven’t taken much for pain.

I wonder what it feels like to withdraw from my pain meds???:confused:

I wonder why the Olhipie just fell out of bed because he wanted to stand and fix the crooked bed cane…he hasn’t been able to stand upright for at least five years…

I wonder how great it is to have a son who can pick my Olhipie up as if he was a rag doll and put him in bed for me….

I wonder how blessed I am!!!:hug:

HMMMM..... I too wonder where everyone is :eek: I came back this morning
fully expecting it to take me a good week to catch up. But nope, very little
posting has been going on. What a bunch of slackers:p:p KIDDING!!
Sure hope it is because everyone has been enjoying life too much and have
been too busy to post. Hoping my SOS family is in good health and that life
has been kind to them these past couple of weeks:hug::hug:

I wonder at how proud I am of my Angel friend BMW, YOU GO GIRL!!!:yahoo:
I wonder if I can thank her for her PM’s and emails while I have been away

I wonder if I can tell Moi, he is one special guy and I have missed him. Thanks
for the emails and jokes really made my day several times! I wonder how he and Moss are doing and if life has been gentler to them of late?:hug:

I wonder if I can thank doody for her thread she started for me. Moved me to
tears this morning when I found it. Thank you dear friend:hug:

I wonder how Alffe and her family have been doing?

I wonder how great it is that Flygirl is taking such a fantastic trip! Sure hope the Rain holds off for you while you are there. Great about the new business too!

I wonder how twink is? Thank you for the card!

I wonder about Kathy, and wish comfort and peace for her.

I wonder how goofy is? How her husbands test came back...and how her FIL is??
thinking of you all :hug:

I wonder how BJ is doing? How her head felt with the wrap after last treatment And if she is finding any relief?

I wonder how sweet Koala is doing. I wonder at how many time I have found
myself thinking of her and being so thankful her test came back with such
Fantastic news!!

I wonder how amazed I continually am by Tammy and her upbeat attitude,
You help inspire me in my roll as a caregiver.

I wonder how curious is doing? I wonder if she knows I think she has a very
loving heart and I thank her for all the work she does here on NT

I wonder how Wren is doing, and if she is finding happiness? I sure hope so!

I wonder how our Abbie -David -DM -Ducky -Barbo and Bizi are all doing too

I wonder if I can say whew!!! Typing is still hard for me, and this was a lot of typing! But, you are all worth it. I hope to see some more of my family posting, sure have Missed you!!! :hug::hug: :grouphug::hug::hug:

Glad to see you this AM, Nikki! I'm off to work so will wish you and everyone else here a wonderful day!

I wonder what a bunch of sillies i found in the chats last night ...I wonder if Twink looked like this :o:o:o. I was polite and lady like at all times

I wonder if Nikki and Koala know that there is a couple others in here with b-days in oct... on line party hummm (BMW laughs with mischief)

I wonder if yes yes yes I got notice yesterday that....I PASSED MY TEST and am free to leave numberland with my G.E.D. :D

I wonder if I can say I have decided to post in here only when I feel the need for support or I find another in need of my support ...staying in focus with the reasons for this room thats called suvivors of suicide and not about me or politics or pets or when i feel like acting funny or when I am depressed
and I am truely very sorry if I stepped on anyone elses toes or stomped on someones foot since coming here, Please accept my Apology it is from the inside of my heart and I truely do meen it.

I wonder if BJ will feel this :hug: and know how much she is loved by many and that she is a caring and wonderful person. I think of her even if I dont post.

I wonder if Tammy knows that she is in my prayers. :hug: :hug: :hug:


I wonder if I can leave all the people that read and that post in this forum a months supply of healing thoughts ,hugs ,smiles and.....
PEACE
BMW

I wonder if I can tell BMW, I am ALWAYS in need of her support, she is
a ray of sunshine in my life:hug:

I wonder what I missed when I was away:confused: I love my SOS family
and need to share with you all not only about my deep grief of my dad's
suicide, but also about Lynn, and even happy times. I think that is what
I love most about THIS forum, we become a sort of community, we care
and therefore share.

I wonder if I can tell you all how much I have missed you and have
looked forward to when I was able to post again.

(((BIG HUGS))) for everyone:hug::hug::hug:

I wonder why anyone in our forum is made to feel saddened or ostracized after expressing their thoughts. ((((burntmarshmallow))))

I wonder if it would help if I left hugs of support for anyone who has been led to feel that they somehow stepped over someone's invisible line of decency.

I wonder if acceptance, understanding and non-judgement could turn this forum back into the place of support I was led to believe existed here.

I wonder if, ever, the world will accept that we all come from eclectic, diverse and individual walks of life and that each of these situations makes us who we are.

I wonder what happened to respect.

:hug:
Here's a hug to anyone who needs it :)
I wonder if you'll all have a great day - make it the best you can, okay?

:sing: Addy

((Tamiloo)) You're an inspiration.
((Nik-key)) You are too. I'm glad you feel so much better.
((BMW)) So proud of you, but you knew that - congratulations.
((Spanish Moss)) Hugs and love
((Addy)) It's been a long road on these forums, hasn't it? Hugs and love.

I keep tabs on you guys when I can. I'm only an email or a message away.

Hugs and love for the room.

I wonder why today after posting here.... all day this song has been
playing in my mind.... Lean on me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ovDAF-VTPg


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Just my rambling wonders....
 

I wonder at the emptiness of this room...

I wonder at the silence and how deafening it has been in here.

I wonder if I can say that emptiness and silence are very frightening to me.

I wonder if I can say that I have learned over the past couple of weeks in dealing with the "real" world... that not everything is as we think it is or believe it to be... There is often MUCH MUCH more going on behind the scenes that we may never know.

I wonder if I can say that I have learned not to judge a book by it's cover... Yes, I've had to look beyond covers lately. I found many things to be more beautiful than I expected but also discovered much to be very disturbing.

I wonder if I can tell everyone of you in this SOS family that you ALL have had such an impact on my life... I may not talk often but I read everything.

I wonder if time heals all wounds??

I wonder if when those wounds heal people will understand and come back around??

I wonder sometimes that saying I'm sorry... isn't enough and I don't know what else to do or say.

I wonder if I can say that these wonders are from Abbie the person and not Abbie the Mod....:o these wonder are all personal to me***.

I wonder if I can leave BIG HUGS for all...my SOS family.:grouphug:

:hug:
Abbie

***please know that my wonders are personal and in no way are about anyone here.

I wonder if Abbie said what was exactly on my mind..and that I have been really thinking about healing lately...

I wonder that I have been feeling "homeless" lately...and have really contemplated on just "moving on" yet my almost 10 year history with the SOS forum and the wonderful family that I have come to love so much made me hung on...

it is good to see some life in here...and I believe in Time being the biggest and best healer...

I also believe in the WHOLE picture and not just parts of it and Abbie, you've said it so well, cause I was often myself, a victim of part of the picture and because of my personality, I often appear the most guilty...(although this is NOT about moi. LOL)

I still love the blind men feeling the elephant analogy...it always rings so true for me...

I wonder that this forum have weathered many storms...and....survived...and hopefully, it will continue on...

I wonder if I can just add ((((BIG HUGS)))) to all

and say a big thank you...to all of you visible and all of you behind the scenes...

:grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

....there is a song...

"Science is golden....through my arms, you'll "C"...." (that's my science grade...LOLOL)

:D ;) :eek: (yeah, maybe only I will get this one...*grin)

but seriously...

Silence is not golden in this case...cause through my armpits, no one can see....

Abbie you post was simply beautiful and moved me greatly :hug:

I wonder, while I was away what could have possibly been so bad to cause
this emptiness here... our sanctuary... our place to heal, share and help
one another. I wonder about it, but I truly do not want to know. I am deeply saddened right now.

I wonder that I worked my butt off in rehab to get back HERE as fast as my
body would allow. Earlier I posted the lean on me song... I got all weepy and
couldn't finish the post. I can feel the emptiness here.... I don't understand
it, but I can feel it. I wanted to let you all know..... when I was down, and
thought surely I could not survive one more day in the pain I was in...
I came here.....

In desperation, I spilled out my heart to a room full of strangers. I was welcomed by you,
I was wrapped in the warmth of people who cared
and were not afraid to reach out to a stranger in need. For the first time
I found a place I felt safe to express what I was feeling, how deeply I
was hurting. You all understood, you knew my pain, and you did your level
best to try to help me.....

In my time of sorrow....
you all let me lean on you...
YOU were the friends...
that helped me carry on!!

I lost my dad.... a pain I still am not sure I can endure.

I am losing my husband. I lose a bit more of Lynn every day.
It is breaking my heart!

There is nothing I can do to bring my dad back....
There is nothing I can do to stop Lynn from leaving me....

But, I am not going to give up the love and caring friends I have
found here without a fight! ( a kind, loving one of course, full of hugs!)
I have come to care greatly for each and every one of you. Each of you
has had an impact on my life. There HAS to be something I can do,
we can do.... to get back what we had.. Surly there MUST be something??

Well, I am all teary eyed again... I miss you all very much.....
and hope ... well you know what I am hoping!!!! :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug: :hug::hug:

:grouphug:

Nik,

you said it so eloquently as well!

and yes, there IS something that you and others that want to heal this place can do...

POST (and not the Raisin kind)

:)

I can't say things any better than any of you. I can only sit back now with a tear and a smile knowing that there IS hope now that I've seen you guys posted today...

I'll be around if anyone needs me...

Moi, I need you!! Very much in fact!:hug:

I will NOT stop posting. I love you all... I will tell you this every
single day... over and over and over....
Until you just have to come back to post and say ok ok Nik!!! enough of you already...
We love you too..now shudup! ;):hug::hug:

I wonder how I didn't realize that there was a "problem"....I just don't have as much time as I would like to post here (or anywhere for that matter)...

I wonder if we all can remember that, although there are many differences between us that might be cause for division....what we have in common is MUCH more powerful...

I wonder if some of you are familiar with "...love covers a multitude of sins."

I wonder if we did a search, how many times someone has said the word "love" here.....

Nikki...Abby...Doody...Addy...My Moi....thank you for the beautiful words...

I wonder if you know that we got to meet a few more people from Neurotalk in person...and I have yet to be disappointed with anyone whose eyes I have had the priviledge to look into from this supportive environment....

I wonder if you know that I love you guys......

I wonder if I can tell Moss her post was beautiful, I wonder if I can also
tell her what I told Moi a bit ago.... You have a beuatiful soul Moss:hug:

I wonder if I can say I did do a search ... there were 20 pages....
over 500 posts with the keyword LOVE in this SOS forum/family.
THAT says it all to me :hug: :hug:

Ps.... I LOVE YOU ALL :hug::hug::hug:

I wonder if I can leave this little song....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4KMriSdmr5I


From my heart to yours...
:hug:
Abbie

I wonder if you guys need a :hug::grouphug:??!??

I wonder if you guys know that :You-Rock:!! (Seriously..)

I wonder how my luck seems to be changing for the better...A guardian angel must love me..:cool:

Take care-will wonder more another night!!

((((Nik-key))))) I don't have to wonder... I know how you're feeling.... and you need our hugs....

I wonder if I could wave my magic wand and *poof ...
... oh darn, I don't have a magic wand :hissyfit: ....

Lets see..... Today......

I wonder at the gift we are given with each new sunrise....
a chance to start anew. :hug:

I wonder at how greatly I have come to care for you...
my SOS family, my friends. :hug:

I wonder how amazed I was to hear my lil niece's prayer last night.
"and dear God, bless my auntie Nikki's other family.. she was sad tonight"

Well hell! if that didn't choke me up:hug:

I wonder if I can share Lynn now has a nurse who comes to our house...
our first meeting was on Monday. I wonder if I can share more on that
at a later time.....

I wonder if I can thank Abbie for the song, thank you dear friend:hug:

I wonder if I can thank Addy, Moss , Moi , Abbie, coolangel,
Tammy , doody and BMW Angel friend for the hugs... I really needed them!
Here are some for you, and my whole family here :hug::hug::hug:
:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:
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Page 3 and such comforting warm posts above mine here . Thanks for them words thoughts and hugs Nikki . :hug: :hug::hug::hug::hug:
I am calling lights out on this wonder :grouphug:.

time to begin a new wonder #135

































Kurama Drowning Round The Sun
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nBXZKLU8NtA

Orsten - Fleur Blanche
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CmtnvNQKJRo

hmmmmmm, I wonder if I can get BMW to put on her cop
uniform for peeking in here after dark :p :D:D :hug:

Looks like we may have a straggler floating around I will be on patrol
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http://i294.photobucket.com/albums/m...cture253-2.jpg

http://i294.photobucket.com/albums/m...ry_monster.png
http://i294.photobucket.com/albums/m...ASSIC/emou.jpg
whats all the comotin do I need to get the police girl over here.

Nope no need to bring in the cop again... I'll behave now that
I see you are still on patrol :D :hug::hug: