Just depression
 

lately I have been trying to go to sleep at six. I have been feeling so sad and so guilty when I know how severe other people on the board are facing so much.
today will be the last day with richard. he said he would get me another physical therapist. I am using the walker a lot in the house. My backache has eased. it is getting me easier to walk than it has in a while. I feel so bad for people on the board. I so wish everybody well.
fondly
bobby

I am feeling better. I thought i had sunk into depression again. Hopefully it will stay away. I have been out of depression since about oct 26.

I appreciate your love and support Bobby, but I don't want you to think or worry about me much because it could effect your mood. I'm okay :hug::hug::hug:

I'm sorry you are feeling sad, but you have a lot going on yourself, and shouldn't feel guilty thinking about your own situation :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that you are using the walker in the house more and your back is feeling better :hug:

Love to you (((HUGS)))

thank you so much. I really care about you. I love you lol. I am doing better. I thought i was going backwards in p.t. again but richard really knew what he was doing. I stopped using the walker again as the stiffness seems to have gone away. Today I might go for a short walk with my aide. I have a pdoc appointment this morning. I guess I will just tell him about my overspending and overeating. I bought three more books this morning which I will probably never read. I am so hooked on politics. I can't wait for him to be impeached.
Just what he is doing with the environment!
love
bobby

I love you, too :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

I am still having a hard time with buying things, too.

I hope you do go on a walk with your aide today. It will be good for you to get out, and good for you to have someone with you to help give you some confidence.

we went for a short walk and sat on a bench. then i got my mail and asked to serve jury duty. I called my pdoc's office and requested a letter. His secretary said he sent it to me.

I was permanently excused years ago. I don't know why you have to keep dealing with this...

My PCP told them how many mind-altering drugs I take. He said they don't want people who take meds like that on juries because it could lead to mistrials and appeals...
But I live in Massachusetts, not NY.

I'm glad you had a nice walk :)

i am going back into depression. I feel so down. i am waiting for halo ice cream to be delivered. after that I will take my medications and go to sleep. I had the therapy and that depressed me. we talked about my sister and in directly how empty my life is. the therapist is lovely. One of her brothers is schizophrenic.

She talked her mother -in-law who is in a wheelchair to see the turner exhibit a while back at the met and wound up going six times.

Hi, Bobby,


I hope you sleep well.

Good to hear that you like the therapy.


M

didn''t sleep well but thanks

I'm so glad you like your therapist...

But I'm so sorry that you feel like you are getting depressed again and are not sleeping well :hug::hug::hug:

I am a feeling really blue. I don't do well during the holiday season. everything is about family and i don't really have any. having my nephews in my mind make it worse now. I haven't seen laurence or alex before the stroke. It is really painful. I thought I lost weight but it was only temporary. I am trying cumin now. I was up most of the night and now I just feel wiped out.

I am sorry you are feeling blue.:(
What has helped you in the past?
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

who knows/ i pigged out and feel horrible and ordered two pies!

the jury duty summons hasn;t helped/ i keep on thinking now of the trial and the explosion and the pain of the burns and the experience of twirling in darkness forever without being able to talk my way out of it and the dreadful hospital experience. this lasts for a while

oh bobby, how horrible.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

In one of my religious classes the teacher always quotes a wise man from centuries ago who says everything is for the best. Because of the explosion I was left in the position of fearing life and terrified of death. I thought that faith was the only way I could get out of the limbo I found myself in. I have to keep on reminding at times like these that was for the best and I found faith. I am supposed to read the Torah but haven't been able to yet. I will never get rid of the terror

Bobby,

I hope that you have a better day today.


M

I got on the scale and I gained five pounds in a week. I am really out of control. today I see my therapist. she wasn't able to see me yesterday

I'm sorry you have had so much trauma in your life, Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that talking to your therapist yesterday helped a little :hug:

I wish you were sleeping better... feeling better :hug::hug::hug:

Love to you today (((HUGS)))