Many THANKS to all of you.
 

I wanted to thank all of you again for your support. I'm glad we all have each other on here.

I am doing better today. I talked to my step-daughter last week and she was much worse so it brought me down again but as I said, she is strong.

I turned 58 today and her birthday is Sept. 2nd so it's going to be very hard for her I know. I am having trouble figuring out how to acknowledge her birthday after her loss just happened.

I wanted to mention the weather here too. It's been crazy. August has been very rainy which is not typical Colorado weather. I have had to use my heat 3 times this month, definately not Colorado weather. Today it looks like fall of the year and several have told me that the leaves are already turning in the mountains. I want to take a drive and go see the Aspen leaves turning soon.

The weather reaks havok on your pain. My legs and feet at night hurt and seem to never warm up. They stay ice cold. The kids are getting me a new electric blanket today though. I do believe we are going to have a very long cold winter. Last winter was very mild.

I was just wondering if your weather has been as wierd as ours. We have only had 2 days of over 100 degree weather this summer. That's ok with me too but it sure isn't our norm.

Thanks again for all of your support. I am trying my best to pull myself up from everything and I'm sorry I don't come on more to answer any of you. I just have trouble satting at this computer for very long anymore. Not so much the pain but the anxiety.

Ada

I totally agree about this summer weather. Some locales are calling it the non-summer or the summer that wasn't.

We only had about 5 days this whole summer where the sun shined and it got up to 70F. (at our summer place in the UP of Mich.) It was frightful...since our cabin is on an island, with NO heat, no running water, no electricity save a little generator.
We had alot of high winds and dangerous waters too.

I wore shorts about 4 times! My flowers rotted. And the indigenous plants were stunted and very late. So we came back early. Normally I stay past Labor Day, but I just couldn't do that this season. We saw an article in USA Today newspaper showing on a map and explaining how the jet stream was moved for some reason, dumping cold wet weather on alot of USA.

I am still catching up, so I haven't read about your step daughter, yet. :o-- going to now.

edit to add... oh, my, what a summer you had! I am so sorry for your losses. And suicide is even harder to deal with.
This summer about 50 miles from us, there was a huge family reunion.
10 members and a couple of dogs were walking along a road near the area at night and an SUV driven by a guy who had a limited license for previous infractions--lost control or he was intoxicated or whatever, hit them all. At the time we left for home 3 had died, the dogs died, and the others were seriously injured! He fled the scene, and was found the next day. Now he is awaiting arraignment, in a facility far way for HIS safety! It was a totally freak thing. Many were from out of state, and the ones killed were all young women. :(

Ada, you know we have a Survivors of Suicide forum here that is very welcoming and full of members who can help your step-daughter further if she needs it. Take a look, and see what you think for your situation. That has to be very traumatic for her.

happy birthday ada. love ya tons iam happy that you are feeling better hang in there hun.. weather here is crazy goes from 90-70s and tons of rain.. makes me feel horrible plus there is a ton of illness here i have had a stomach virus for a week my oldest has sinus infection and problems with her asthma. its just nuts

carrie

hi ada, glad ya liked my email. but i was a little off key on the singing huh? laffs...

hope you got all the work accomplished with your friend...

our weather here has been horrible too.....guess the moderator is from mi too.......upper tho..i am northern mi (lower) ...now that i got you totally confused.....laffs... we have only had about three or four nice summer days too.......today is in the 50s and it is going into the low 30s tonight...frost freeze warning...so i put the flowers that i could, into the garage................................
we are seeing color changes here too....grrrrr i am heading to florida for a week wed..can't wait...............all by myself.....frank is staying home...hahahaha he is having a revision on the scs the end of sept....wish him luck.....

this past week has really put him into a major flare............................off the charts pain.......the weather is a major factor............................................ ..

well, have a great night ada, and again.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU......(THIS TIME IT IS ON KEY)
HUGS

Happy Birthday!!!
 

Happy Birthday Ada! I wish I was there to celebrate with you. Missed you on Saturday, but I'll call tomorrow!
I love you. Di

Happy Birthday, Ada. I think of you and send you blessings to ease your pain.:hug:

Happy birday Ada
I live in new mexico,,the humity is low and the heat
on the bones in the dead of winter feels good,,ive been thru vail colorodo,,,its cold,im just in too bad of shape to take the bitter cold anymore ..although i love snow and the brisk clean feeling and smell that comes with winter and the smell of pine tree's...I wish you and yor familly well and the best,,,may the lord in whom i love and serve be with you and guide you always,,,,,,,,,,,,,,much love,,,,,,,,,,bobber

Happy Birthday Ada.

I sincerely hope that your family has begun the healing process.

It is wonderful that we have each other - it's a great reminder that in giving to others, you receive in return. And in order to have friends, you need to be a friend first.

You're the best. Peace and love, Sandy

Sorry I missed this post yesterday. Happy Belated Birthday.

Our weather has been crazy this summer. We were hot and humid in June not normal for Ohio. We had two days that it was 90 this summer. The last couple of days have been like falls days the low this morning was 39. We have had more rain than normal this summer. That's good for our lawn business.

Take one day at a time and I hope each one is better than the last.

Take care,
Sherrie

Hi everyone and thanks again
 

for the birthday well wishes. I spent it mostly by myself. My kids were all gone.

Susan and her girl pals were up at the cabin and they did invite me to go but I had too much to do around here to go. Travis and Devin were hunting in the mountains and Dustin was on a camping trip with his dad. The boys did however come over and spend the night with me for my birthday. That was my present from those two, getting up at 5:30 to get them off to school. LOL
I did get my blanket too.

It looks like a fall day again today. We had a hail storm a couple of weeks ago and I have roof damage so waiting on the insurance man to deal with that. It beat up my only tomato plant. Even the weather tells me I don't have a green thumb. Everyone I talk to on the phone in other states say their weather is crazy too. Look out for winter, OMG.

Gramma, thanks for the song still off key though. LOL I do hope that your better half has good luck with his SCS surgery. Since being friends with you for so many years, I worry about him too. I know he has some really hard times with the RSD.

I want to say I am doing better. Some days yes, others no. Yesterday was rough again. My Dr. put me on Crestor and I do believe it is making my depression and anxiety worse but he is determined to keep me on it so we cut it down to half of a 5mg. I pull myself up and then I start going down again, just can't seem to stay up mentally.

MrsD, I will talk to Debbie about coming on the Suicide website. I talked to her for 3 hours on the phone Monday night. She seems to be doing somewhat better. She's back home and even walked out to where she found Donald at. I don't know if that is good for her though. I will mention the website to her.

Allen, I have been watching the news on the fires. It's just so sad what people are going through nowadays. I hope they get them all out soon before many more homes are lost.

Thanks so all of you for being there for me. One of these days I will get myself pulled up and stay there.

Ada

Hello Ada.....

You're always such a pleasure!
I hope and, I pray, that you can get yourself to a "happier" place.

You don't "deserve" any of what you've gone through!

Ah, yes, the weather, the circumstances, I know... I know too well.

Yet, we're gonna get you to a point, where you can smile again!
Because, that IS one of the beautiful things you have!

I'm so very happy to hear, that you're taking good care of yourself,
and,
even those around you!

Ada, you're one of God's Miracles!
Please,
Don't forget that!

Even an off-key tune can sound lovely, with those whom love you, and,
those You love!

Please, Ada
Take Good Care,
And,
Be Well!

PM Me anytime!


Pete

asb

Ada
Im glad to see that you had a eventfull day,,,I believe that God does that to keep our minds busy and off our troubles,,,,im still crutching aound in some pain from a bad THR surgery,,a friend of mine came over and wanted me to look at his car{ i worked 17yrs in the mechanical field],,I didnt really want to ,and then thought that my friend was crazy for asking me to try to dx his car problem with the shape that im in,,,,Well , it was a true blessing,,God wanted me to help him,,we Got the car fixed,,but i wouldnt have everknown that God wouldve worked in a way like he did,,,,,,many good things happened that day,,,and God did lift and took away some of my physical pain ,as he had me take away the mental pain of another,,,,,,,,,,,,praise you Lord

Hi Pete and Bobber,
 

I do still smile at times but I do know what you mean about being ask to do things you think you can't do. It's like we have to pull ourselves up by our collar and say, ok, we can do this.

This evening I have to take the boys to the high school football game and then go back and get them afterward. Then tomorrow I have to take Devin to a birthday party and keep up with Dustin. Mom and Travis are out of town.
I had some other thoughts of what to do this weekend but I can't say no for some reason. I enjoy the boys though. They are hardly ever in a bad mood so they keep me laughing.

Bobber, God does give us the strength to do things that we think we can't do or that we don't want to do at times. Fixing that car got your mind off of what you are dealing with. It's like a reprieve.

I will say, today my RSD is doing it's thing in my right arm, hand and foot. I know it's due to the weather. The burning has been bad. I can remember asking my Dr. to cut my right arm off or call in Dr. Korvorkian at times when I was at my worst. I don't want to get to that point again.

We all need to find some things in our lives that are good to help us through the pain and depression of the RSD.

Ada