Feeling so anxious tonight...
 

Crap... oops, sorry for starting a message with that...

Cant sleep... Im feeling terrible anxious tonight... yes, more than normally... :o I feel tired and want to sleep but I cant... It is not insomnia, it is... anxiety... pure anxiety... ugh... :mad:

I can feel my heart beating like crazy.... :mad:

I hate stress. Stress is seriously consumimng me.... :(

Dear majo,
 

Dear Majo,
I hear you.
Can you find ways to calm yourself down with this happens?

I'm having a hard night too -- tried to distract myself and did some deep breathing. Also tried to convince myself that I was going to be ok.. . . that I AM ok.

I hope since you posted a little while ago that you are ok now and feeling safe and ok.

I hope tomorrow / Wednesday goes well for you.

M.

Blue, I hate when I feel like that. I too hope that today is better for you.

Mari, I hope you were able to get some decent sleep last night. For some reason I have been going to sleep too easy much earlier than I use to. I think that moving away from that ex next door neighbor and feeling good with Bobby and I might have something to do with me sleeping easier now. I kind of miss those almost all nighters though as I seemed to have the sharpest mind during that time sometime.

I hope that all of us will have a good day today with feeling peace and calm and joy.

befuddled2

Dear Mari and dear Barbara,

Thanks for reading and replying ! :hug:

I had to smoke today... :mad: Couldnt handle the anxiety... :mad:

The stress was for nothing because at the end, my boss couldnt receive me so, we cancelled our meeting... :mad:

However Im still feeling anxious... Im going to try to breath deeply and Im going to light up some candles to see if that helps...

Hope you 2 are feeling fine today !!!

:hug:

Blue,

I'm sorry to hear you smoked but you can quit again. I will be quit smoking for 5 years in December. Never give up quitting smoking.

befuddled2

Ugh, I hate smoking... :mad: I know it is pretty bad for EVERYTHING... but... :o

Hey Barbara !! 5 years ?? Awesome !!! did you use to smoke a lot ??

Blue, I use to smoke anywhere from 50 to 60 cigarettes every single day. I made my mom's funeral arrangements on my one month quit anniversary. My marriage got worse when I quit smoking. I did it though but not without quitting for 7 or 8 times before that. At this present quit I just kept telling myself I would not smoke no matter what. That's what got me through it.

befuddled2

Wow Barbara !!!

That's what I call courage !!! :hug:

So awesome !

hope you are feeling better blue!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thanks Bizi...

Im feeling so tired... so, hopefully I will sleep deeply tonight... :o

:hug:

Dear Majo, ;)
'Sending hugs and hoping you feel better.
M.

Thank you dear Mari.

How are you doing ? Fine I hope. :hug:

Dear Majo,
 

Depressed and tired. :confused:
Other that, I'm fine.
M.

I hate it that you both are having a rough few days.

Get over this and get better.

Donna

Uff Mari.... I feel exactly the same... I can only sleep... I need to study but I cant :mad: I feel too tired and I dont know why !!! :mad:

And, of course, the few hours I dont sleep, I cry, so, I cant study either !!! :mad:

:hug:

Ihate to hear that you are crying...here is a shoulder to cry on.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Majo,
 

Do you have any strategies when you cry like that?

I'm down . . . also low energy --> not sure which is which. Maybe they are the same thing.

I hope that tomorrow goes better for you than tonight did.


M.

(((((((((bizi))))))))) Thanks !!! :hug: A shoulder to cry is always nice... :hug:

Mari...... Low energy.... that's the thing... I feel my brain is "sleeping".... does that make sense !? guess not... oh well...

I had migraine today :mad: it's 1:50 am here now, and, Im up listening music.... :rolleyes:

Perhaps tomorrow I will be able to study.... :rolleyes:

Take care my sweet friends !

Dear Majo,
 

Music is good. :)
Take care.

M.

3:22 am and my insomnia is over....

Good night dear all !!! :hug:

Sleep well. :D
I'm going to bed soon too.

M.

Did you sleep well Mari ??

I did more or less.... hopefully tonight...

One more week of agony and my stress levels will decrease...

ARe you finishing a project?
glad to hear that you will have some relief soon.
bizi

The opposite dear Bizi... Im trying to start a project.... :o I have to present my project in front of 7 judges next tuesday (october 27th) to see if they consider it is worth enough to be made and if Im a good student and should continue my studies....

Im stressed like hell.... :(

Dear Majo,
You are prepared and as ready as you can be.
Try not to worry. Worry won't make any difference.

The seven judges -- do some of them know you personally from your work? Do you know some of them?
I suppose you can focus on the folks you know during the presentation. They will be hoping you do well.

M.

Good Luck!
 

Oh Dear! I would be beside myself with anxiety. :hug:

But I bet you will do just fine. I remember how dedicated you were about checking on your cell cultures before.

Whatever you do, try to take care of yourself this week, so that you will be as fresh as possible for the presentation itself. Sending you positive thoughts and calming vibes! :) Hang in there... you're almost there!

~ waves ~

Thanks for the vibes and thoughts waves !!! :hug:

Mari, I know them... because they are very famous... but they dont know me :( Any of my 3 bosses will be there :(

Oh well.... :(

know that you are doing the best that you can be doing.....
know this! because it is true.
keep up everyday....
Take one step at a time toward your goal...you will succeed.
I jsut know that you will.
bizi

Dear Majo,

Do you have to go through a panel?
How long will it be?


Get rest. Remember that part. Maybe start resting a head of time. :cool:

M.

The presentation will be 15 minutes long and after that, they have 45 minutes to ask everything they want.... :(

Im feeling terribly bad tonight.... I cant stop crying... I feel anxious... nostalgic... nervous.... afraid... nasty.....

I need to sleep as I have to present my project to my group tomorrow... in preparation for the big day... But I cant.... I just feel that, if I close my eyes and "sleep", I will start dreaming with my presentation, my project...

I feel very bad... I dont want to look ridiculous that day.... or tomorrow... ugh...

:(

Thanks for listening friends and for your kind words. :hug:

I have no idea how can I handle this.... I guess I cant.... God...

Dear Majo, :hug: :hug: :hug:

They might spend that 45 minutes talking to each other. The questions will be more about them than about you. This is often how those kind of panels go.

Do the best you can to relax between now and then.
If you go in there feeling strong and confident you will feel good about your work.


I hope you do well and get your funding.
I am sending good thoughts.

M.

hopefully you got some rest last night and a cup of coffee this morning.
let us know how things went today with your group.
sending good thoughts your way. You can do this yes you can.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thank you for your thoughts and prayers sweethearts ! :hug: :hug: :hug:

I presented my project today twice.... according to my 3 bosses, Im ready to present my project to the panel... :o :rolleyes:

I have some more days to study...

I managed to sleep last night... I drank a tea so I could feel more relaxed... However, my fibro is killing me today as it is aggravated by stress... :mad:

Hope you are well my friends ! :hug:

Dear Majo,

Trust the three bosses. If they say you are ready, then go with that.
Tell yourself you are ready.

Thanks for the hug. More hugs. :hug: :hug: :hug:
Keep taking care of yourself as best as possible.
M.

Thanks for the positive note Mari !!! :hug:

Take care ! :hug:

Good Job, Blue!
 

I hope this pre-presentation gives you the confidence you need for the "real" thing. Sounds like you have all your "ducks in a row" :)

Get as much rest as you can... you'll do great. ;) :hug:

~ waves ~

that sounds great! you will be jsut fine.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

The day is getting closer and closer... I have to admitt anxiety has diminished a little bit...

My main fear is, that I forget everything last minute or, that I dont manage to say what I have to say.... :rolleyes:

My hands and feet are numb thanks to my fibro that is aggravated by stress... crap... :mad:

Sending blessings to you dear friends !

hi ho...
 

Blessings backatcha!

you won't forget everything. i am glad the anxiety is a bit less now. that sucks about the fibro tho. :(

i think the hardest thing will be starting up. But, you'll see. once you get into the flow everything will come rolling out of your head and off your tongue like it was part of you from the beginning of time.

Keep repeating inside your head that everything will go fine... even if it doesn't feel that way. The feelings are just a part of you, not all of you. They will not erase your knowledge and they do not determine your academic abilities. They will not control the presentation.

It is natural to be nervous about this kind of thing. It isn't a bad thing in itself... but try and let yourself off the hook for it and distract yourself a bit. Do soothing things. Self-nurturing things. Would a warm or hot bath help with the fibro?

:hug: i hope you feel better.

~ waves ~

Oh sweet friends,

This stress is really consuming me... my health sucks... and my mood, even more !!! :mad:

I just had a... hum, do we call it anger attacks !? :rolleyes: I just started throwing everything and venting... I felt angry with everything and everybody...

Now all my body hurts... I dont feel my arms... I dont feel my hands...

Argh... I want to scream... I want to... jurt myself... does that make sense !?

I just feel... weird... crazy sick...

ugh