Frightened
 

I started feeling cold,but deep down I was warm. My hands started shaking. I started feeling intense fear. It was close to 3 AM,and I am alone.

There was some situation that triggered it. I didn't have a full panic attack,but it was close enough.

I'm needing just a little encouragement. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend, :grouphug:
Are you doing a bit better now?
Sorry about that.
Mari

Dear Steve
 

i'm sending you some good thoughts too. i hope you are feeling a bit better already. hang in there. you know as i do these are episodes, and, as they come, they go. you will feel better. i am sorry you deal with this so often.

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~

I am sorry that you suffer with this anxiety...
wish it were easier for you
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Ditto, to what all say. I am hoping we can help with this.

Donna

I thank you all.
 

I'm frightened. I feel a lump in my throat,and I'm loosing interest in most everything. I don't feel like doing anything. I'm not thinking right.

I'm worried also because the IRS has sent me a notice about 2008. I've contacted them,and have a CPA working on it.

I can't think right,and I feel no comfort,and I'm worried,and obsessed with negative thoughts.

I'm scared right now,but not panicing at the moment. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,
 

That's good that you have a CPA working on it.
I wish you had a good pdoc that was more helpful. Can you get a tdoc to help with anxiety related issues?


M.

Hi Mari To be truthful,I'm mixed up,and I don't know what to do. I was thinking about calling my counceller,and I should have but didn't.

I've got so many things to renew. I was thinking about going to the Hospital,Wellness center,but I have a bunch of things that I have to do,and renew everything. Car registration renewal, Car inspection in March,taxes by Mid March for me. They are giving me 30 days. Renewal of Radio Transmitter License. I have very little money.

All of this is worrying me. Thanks for the suggestions. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I see hwy you are worrying...you have a lot on your plate coming up.
I am sorry.
Have you ever thought of mystery shopping to make some income?
bizi

I'm on medicaid,and I've got to keep the money down below $2 thousand. They check on me too. My sister thought that it was strange that they wanted to talk to someone to confirm my financial status,and if I was paying rent. Now I only get $31 dollars a month in food stamps. Now the other things are happening too. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,
That's a lot of paper work and deadlines to handle.
Good luck. We'll be pulling for you.
M.

I'm concerned about tonight. I still have a lump in my throat. I'm not thinking right.

I'll feel alright,then I'll feel like something real bad is going to happen. I'll feel depressed,and then I'll feel alright,and then bad again. I'm having mood swings that are hard to cope with.

Last night I became cold,then colder,and warm. I wasn't thinking right,scared,and then I thought that I could die. I felt a little suicidal. I am so tired of this,and when it gets worse like this,it's almost unbearable.

It helps me to talk on this forum. It's a life line. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,
 

Keep posting.
You are connected to us.
M. :grouphug: :grouphug: :grouphug:

It's 4:13 AM,and I didn't have a panic attack. My thinking is clearer tonight. The obsession wasn't there thank goodness.

If I didn't have the obsessions,the fears would be easier to let go.

It's a inability to keep my subconscious thoughts under control according to that last post on the Anxiety & OCD forum. It was better tonight. It doesn't flare like that often,but it did last night. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Friend

I caught up with the thread. Please keep us updated.

I hope you can start paying one thing, then the next.

Donna

I hope so Dmom3005. I'm having a hard time with being frightened by one of those agencies. I can't think right when this fear elivates. I may have to sell some of my sterio,and radio equipment. I don't know. Thank you for talking to me about this. BF:hug::hug::hug:

you sound overwhelmed
 

Steve, i'm glad to see you are hanging on. it is hard work, and you are doing the best you can. there is a lot of "real world" stuff going on in your life right now... so you have triggers. please take a moment to pat yourself on the back, just for hanging in there with all this, ok?

and i want to underline what Donna said about doing one thing... then the next - just one thing at a time.

a thought: when i have things whirling in my head over and over, it helps me to make a list. i find it freeing is all. i don't try to write the list in order. that comes later. when something pops in my mind it goes on the list (no numbers!). somehow, once a something is on the list, i seem more able to let go of the thoughts about it.

after you make a list like this, the next thing is to figure out the priorities, since, for most of the things you mention, there are deadlines. i do this by writing in numbers next to each item, with 1 being the most urgent thing to do. so, for example, i might end up with a list like this:

2) renew car reg
3) prepare taxes
1) pay phone bill

then, i do one thing at a time, following the numbering. if everything is about the same OR you are too upset to prioritize, don't worry. just pick anything, and get the papers ready. check it off on the list. then take a break. then do the next thing. etc. only after you finally go and get a certain thing done, come home and cross it off the list completely.

also, when i am too overwhelmed to handle things, what sometimes soothes me is to do something manual and repetitive. it can be anything, useful or not, like polishing surfaces or washing dishes or folding clothes or macrame or whatever.

here's hoping you're doing ok tonight. i'm thinking of you. :hug::hug::hug:

and keep posting.

~ waves ~

Thank you Waves
 

This is the second time that I've freaked out about things in under one year. I have a list of things,but the IRS is whats scaring me.

I'm a little better tonight,or this morning. I hope that I get things straightened out with them. I didn't know that I owed them anything,because I didn't work that year,and I was waiting for my Social Security Disability hearing. BF:hug::hug::hug:

i had filed taxes in years and finally called the irs advocate division. the guy was so nice. his brother was mentally ill. this guy couldn't have been sweeter. he helped me so much and put up so easily with my anxiety.....right now i am back to not filing taxes but i don't think i have to..
i am also experiencing general terror a lot
bobby

BF even though you have all this clutter, and stress one thing I hear is going forward and not letting it over take you, as you battle all. The legal, renewals, axiety, you are seeing light at the end of the tunnel to not cave in.

that is amazing. If only you had one person to be a partner in it all to do even the renewals. I don't know your age, if you are 50 are the senior centers in your are? Often there are retired folks that would take the renewals and sit with you there to sort them, chat as you write checks, help address or stamp them.

I think too when the daylight savings comes, the IRS thing is out of the way you can breath a sigh of weight off your chest.

It is terrible to have all this overload, but I hear good things from your attitude. Somewhere, somehow you are coping. Put a sticky up on your fridge, with a smiley face. Put a to do list, and check off each as it is dealt with.
After each check, take a big breath of air and let it all go...then pat yourself on the back.
Your are being sent :grouphug: from afar, and:)
di

Steve

Don't let the IRS bother you. They will work with you. Also realizing
that its possible, but I don't know how to owe when you didn't work.

Unless you had lots of money.

Donna

Dear Bobby. I know what you mean by terror. Sometimes It comes to the point of terror,and it's basic torment. The fear is deep,and I'm trying to hang on. Then it turns into a indescribable torment. Thats what it's doing to me right now. It's impossible for anyone to understand this,unless they have been through this. I think that you understand. I should get better,but I don't know when..

I thank everyone for comforting me about this IRS situation. I didn't have to much money in 2008. I had a small amount in a IRA,and I retreived my 401K which was taxed before I got any of it. Then I was down to $84 dollars when I recieved my first Social Security Disability check.

Thank you Bobby for telling me about the IRS advocate division. I didn't know that they had one. All that I have heard are horror stories about the IRS. I haven't heard good things. Thanks for the info. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I thank all of you.
 

After reading the posts tonight,I feel better. I went in the other room,and I noticed this tormenting fear has eased up. I feel better. I thank all of you. Thank you for caring about me. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am telling you the guy was just so very nice, even when I was having panic attacks on the phone and couldn't breathe he patiently waited until I could breathe again. After I finally got all seven years filed, and no longer needed his comfort and support and suggestions etc, I asked to have his superviser's number or name and address and wrote her and told her how wonderful he was to me. I received a very warm letter back from her!
I also tend to isolate during my terrors which make them worse.
I also eat which is also awful.
Bobby

Bobby thanks for sharing the advocate info with BF, that sounds so great.
That is how we survive from support forums. the REAL support unconditional from friends that even though they are in a moment of needs, extend to ours too.
You are a blessing, giving person. I wish I could take an earaser and rub out the terror in your life. and all our lives.....
di :hug:

that was so nice....thank you
http://www.irs.gov/advocate/article/0,,id=97402,00.html



http://www.irs.gov/pub/irs-pdf/f911.pdf
I think this might help. I forgot how i found the number before.
Bobby

Dear Bobby
 

I thank you so very much for this information. Steve:hug::hug::hug: