poem, may trigger ....sorry
 

I stand before the gates of hell,
tormented, afraid and weak,
fearful of my fate.

How do I abandon my dreams of heaven,
when there is so much foolishness and
idle wasting of time.
This can't be true- though I have
known it all along-
My time is up.

And it's time to pay for my mistakes.
Is this life not mine anymore?
I just thought I could go along and play the game-
But the day of judgement is here before me.
My sins read like a book.

Now that is enough!
Stop this madness!
I do not believe in any of this.

Just turn around...it's not my time.
There is so much work left to be done.
I do have a life worth living.

By turning around, I walk away.
I walk back into my sacred life.
I am safe for now....
I am sane for now....

Dear Bizi,

Thank you.
There is lots of good stuff in here. :) :(

Did you write this?


M.

Thank you Mari,
yes I wrote this.
In our heroines journey group we are approaching a death cycle.
There are mandelas of "gates of Death" and rebirth....
I kept thinking about the gates of hell and this poem just came out of my head, almost writing itself......
bizi

Bizi, that really is good! It is heartfelt and that comes through very well.
I appreciate the way you connect to your creative impulses.
:hug:

Beth,
You are working hard on your journey.
I hope you are feeling progress.

Keep up the good work.
M.

Just a couple of more sessions, I am very sad to think it is going to be over soon. We are getting together tomorrow night to go to the Indigo Girls concert, small venue, should be a lot of fun! Then we "die" on friday.....wonder what that will be like.
bizi

Have a great time at the concert Beth. I bet the Indigo Girls are fun live. :D

I really like their early stuff... I actually do a couple of covers from their first album - i enjoy it. Unfortunately haven't been heard more recent stuff, since i moved... they don't seem to be known here. :rolleyes:

that is sad about the Heroine's Journey ending. i wonder if you can keep in touch with some of the women... if you want to. anyway, let us know how things go.

(((HUGS)))

~ waves ~

Hi Bizi

I think you did a great job. And I like "Waves" wondered if you could
keep in touch.

Donna:grouphug:

14 months is a long time to be with a group of woman...we shall see if any thing continues, it would be nice to think that it will....
not sure....

Dear Beth
 

Hi

Did you guys go to the concert??? How was it?

What about the last Heroine's Journey meeting today... how did that go?

(((HUGS)))

~ waves ~

Beth, I love that poem you wrote. You have great talent to write such a good poem. When I write poetry it just comes to my head also at times. And it doesn't happen with me that much.

How was the concert?

barbara

THe heroines journey group was good.
I could not go thru the death experience fully...could not let go of my ego. Which was ok, still meaningful session, they always are.:)
The indigo girls concert was great!!!!!
I ended up having jeff drop me off so I did not have to worry about parking and walking by myself, not the best part of town.
I saw one friend then quickly went up to the stage to be as close as I could be which ended up 4th row. They were fantastic!!!!
So much fun, every one singing their favorite songs with them.
There were about 700 people. I had not been at a concert in a long time so that was a small enough crowd to not get too intimidated by all of the people. They were getting a bit too close but after a while you get used to people touching a bit at the arms. I thought that would freak me out but it did not.
thanks for asking.
They brought tears to my eyes..... I enjoyed it so much. I missed their music, it was very freeing to be there.
bizi