Home from hospital!!
 

I went into the hospital a few Mondays ago after seeing my psych doc. I was in there for 11 days. I do not feel like much was done there to make me feel better. The docs there did 3 med changes. They took me off of one drug and put me on two more. I hope they work. This is not why I started this thread! The reason was that Friday was my first day home and I almost called my doctor and told her that I needed to go back in there. All I did that day was go and see my therapist and go to the bank. I was completely overwhelmed, and couldn't take it. When I was in the bank parking lot I had a panic attack and could barely see or breath. I took a klonopin and just sat there crying. I was finally able to get myself home. This panic attack happened with me doing hardly nothing, now today I have to go out again and do much more. I have to take my two dogs to the groomers, go to the bank again, go to walmart, go to the grocery store, go see my therapist again and then go pick the dogs back up.:eek: This does not include coming home and cleaning and making dinner.:eek::eek: I am so scared!!! I do not want to end up back in the hospital, but if I cannot handle everyday stress then I think there is a big problem!! Yes or no? My husband is always so supportive but I really wonder what he thinks when I cannot even handle seeing my therapist and going to the bank! After Friday happened I just sat around all weekend and rested. If I have a problem today I cannot do that! I am booked up most of the week with things that need to get done. Just writing this it sounds like it is going to be too much on me. These are normal tasks that people do everyday!! Why can't I be normal and do them without incident?:confused: I hate being bipolar and not being able to deal with stress and anxiety. I thought that was why docs put you on meds to make you able to cope!! Why don't they work? I have been on most of them and they all do nothing!!!


collinsc

I'm so sorry, collinsc. How nice that you have a supportive husband. I hope things improve for you. :hug:

hi,
it sure sounds frustrating.
I am sorry tht your meds aren't working for you.
try to take one thing at a time ask for help with the errands if that is possible.
I am sorry it is so hard right now....
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Sometimes when people are in the hospital they may get to feel safe and comfortable there. Sometimes just being in the hospital makes us feel strange after getting out because once where we just come out of we felt safe and comfortable to something where there is no sense of safeness and chances of comfort are mininal. I would not worry so much about having to be able to run errands until your ready. I did not drive for almost 10 years due to anxiety and panic attacks. Now I no long have panic attacks or anxiety. It took time but it did happen. Try not to be so hard on yourself too also.

barbara

Collins
It takes lots of patience and time to go through these things.

Work through this, give yourself time. I think your husband is
doing a great job being there for you.

Donna

hey there
 

it's wednesday. how have you been holding up so far?

My pdoc told me it is not unusual to freak out after being in hospital.

I wonder if it could have to do control. In hospital we sort of acknowledge a lack of control. We hand the reins over to someone else - both whatever got left on the home front, and ourselves to the docs and assistants. They feed us, give us meds, even tell us what time to turn out the lights in some places. When we come out we have control again, of ourselves and many many other things. But then, when things feel beyond our control, it is very scary and hard, because we feel like we "should" be in control?

I wonder if it can comfort you a little to know that, whatever the explanation, many others experience reactions akin to yours.

I hope you are doing better already. :hug:

~ waves ~

I never thought about the way Waves explained it. Let us know how your doing.

barbara

Dear Collinsc,
Yes, as others are saying, coming home involves a recovery period -- like any kind of hospital stay.
Do you have a good therapist?
Can you spend time at home for a while being with yourself?
M.

I have to say even just being in the ER needed a recovery period
last week for my son after his severe allergic reaction. It was
3 or 4 days before he returned to the young man I knew.

He was anxious, upset easily and just not himself. It wasn't just
me that recognized the difference. Even the aide he has had
just a short time this year knew. She just kept a close eye on
him. But let him have as much room as needed.

They also sent him to the nurse to rest because of a headache
one day.

Donna

Answers
 

Mari
Thank you for thinking of me! I do have a therapist and he is pretty good. I do not think I would switch to any other. It doesn't seem like I have had much time by myself since I got home from the hospital, but normally I am alone for most of the day. Both my husband and my stepson work and that leaves me here with my dogs.

collinsc

hey
 

Hang in there, Colleen.

it WILL get better.

this week is almost over. TGIF and all that.

it sounded like you had a lot of stuff to do this week. i am hoping you plugged through ok, and that next week will be a quieter one for you.

(((HUGS)))

~ waves ~

Collinsc

I think you sound calmer already. I hope that sounds logical.

I am kind of not calm right now.

Donna

Hello!
 

I am doing better at times! It seems to come and go. One minute good the next crying for no reason! Are you alright? Why aren't you calm?:confused:

collinsc

there is a recovery period....
they should not expect you to be functioning at 100%...tha tis unresonable.
hang in there keep talking posting venting...we are listening to you
bizi:hug:

Dear Collinsc,

You mentioned that you have dogs. http://bestsmileys.com/dogs/1.gif
Does being with your dogs help you?

How are you doing with the new med changes? Maybe you will start to see a positive effect soon.

M.

Mari,
Most of the time being with my dogs is what I think keeps me semi sane! I spend most of my day alone with just them so they are who I talk and play with! There are time though when all three of them are looking for attention and I am trying to do something that I get frustrated! I never take it out on them though! I realize they don't understand! As far as the meds go I do not think I am at a high enough dosage yet for them to help. The doc said my nurse prac would gradually increase them. I have to call her today. I also need a new script for my sleeping pills. They at least give me 4 hrs of sleep! Thank you for asking! How have you been doing?

collinsc:hug:

Hi Colleen,

It is good that you have dogs at home for company. I'm hoping the increase in meds will do the trick. Hang in there.

barbara

Hi,
Four hours of sleep! lol You make it sound like a good thing. ;)
I'm not sure how I am doing.
I think I am getting ready for bed for the day soon.
M.

You!
 

Mari,
I hope you are doing better! Please keep posting! If you need someone to talk to I always answer my messages! We could even talk about the small stuff if that would make you happy and take your mind off of things! You get some sleep and I will chat at you later!

collinsc:hug: