So tired of this cycles.... :-(
 

Im blue and depressed again...

Hate life, hate everybody, hate my dreams, hate my life... Im mad.

I had been feeling "fine" for the last... hum 2 weeks maybe or more, and now, again, everything is pathetic for me... :mad: :(

I want to be strong.., but Im weak
I want to be happy but Im sad
I want to confort my friends but I just talk to them about how miserable Im...

Argh... it is horrendous... I dont want to even get out of my room... My mom will ask "how are you" and Im not in the moood of saying "bad again" and explian her my character/mood problems... :mad:

I feel.... hum... frustrated... devasted... erm... depressed, yes...

I hate when life strikes me like this... and precisly when I was feeling fine and strong and doing my things... :mad: :rolleyes:

Thanks for reading. :hug:

hi there
 

Dear Majo

geeez it seems i always shorten your name but i don't seem to stick to calling you Blue or Majo. seems i end up with a bit of both... hehe. :D:rolleyes: do you like one or the other better, or would you prefer if i didn't shorten it at all?

i am sorry you are getting hit with a down spell. i agree it sucks to have to tell others "i am down again." :hug::hug: i know what you mean - i go through that. it seems like people don't understand, and even if they do, it would be much better if it just didn't happen, so there wouldn't be anything to have to explain/understand in the first place, wouldn't it! :mad::(

and yes it bites to get depressed just when things were going well you have got depressed. :( been there too. the only good thing about cycling is that, at least, you know it is going to get better again. you will cycle out.

you mentioned elsewhere about being hypothyroid. that can cause depression, hypomania and mood cycling, especially rapid cycling. i am wondering if your hormone supplementation is adequate. sometimes just T4 is given to correct thyroid hypoactivity, sometimes a combination of T3 + T4 is needed. the thing is, the right balance of the two needs to be found. i would encourage you to talk to your endocrinologist about the possibility of adjusting your treatment... it would be AWESOME if you didn't HAVE to cycle!!! :hug:

~ waves ~

Thank you so much for reading and replying hun... Im definetely not having a good day :(

Im feeling BAD

hey sweetie... i'm sending you some huggggs! :o

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Thanks honey. You are so sweet... Im still down... :(

And Im feeling pretty mad right now... does that mean Im starting to go up (maniac) now ? :rolleyes:

awww...

irritability can be present in either case really.

can you talk to your endocrinologist - cycling can be caused by hypothyroidism. that is one of the differential dx's of bipolar. :o

i'm sorry you are suffering, regardless of how it comes about. :(

:hug:

~ waves ~

I am sorry that you are suffering
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Majo, :hug: :hug: :hug:

Can you get treatment?

M.

It's been horrible...

I was starting to feel better when "boom", I found fungi in my cells... lost money as I cant concentrate on what Im doing... Im scared.

Today I had a crisis, couldnt remember ANYTHING !!! That induced me a panic attack... I managed to calm down as my mother was here and didnt want to worry her... I started to remember who I was and so.. but it was horrible !!! I mind was all blank !!! :eek: :eek: :eek: Has anybody suffer something similar ??

Dear Mari, Im in treatment... so... I dont know... :( The only thing ive gained with treatments is weight... :( :rolleyes:

Thanks for the support and for reading :hug:

Dear Majo

i am sorry about your panic attack. i have had one where i lost all orientation of where i was. not who i was but where. it can affect our minds in weird ways, that i do know.

what are your treatments, and for what things?

~ waves ~

I am sorry that you had a panic attack...
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hello dear waves...

I was on cymbalta, prozac, vitamins, lyrica and celebrex... :rolleyes: A nasty combo to be honest... :mad:

I wasnt feeling alright, so, decided to stop... :rolleyes:

Im better today... however, last night was horrendous... too much pain !! I couldnt feel my left arm, any of my legs and any of my hands !!! :eek: Back felt like in too many pieces... hurt like hell...

I insist... sundays bring me anxiety... at least I can watch the world cup of soccer and kill more time...

BIZI ! I love your new avatar !!!! :)

Thanks all.

Hi Majo

i am confused.

you mentioned in another post (we were talking about eyes) that you had a hypoactive thyroid...

did a doc tell you that after testing it?

are they NOT treating that???? :eek: (and if not, did they tell you why not?)
:confused:

maybe i misunderstood something. i hope you can straighten me out. :o

sorry to be a bug.

~ waves ~

A bug huh ? LOL, noway dear waves, no way... :hug:

Oh yeah, I forgot... I take Eutirox everyday for my hypothiroidism... :)

How are you ? Oh damm... Im out of news again as my silly internet modem died... and... well, Im... robbing the one of the guy next door :o but is... so slow... and... it keeps disconnecting !! :o :mad:

:hug:

yuck i'm sorry about the modem troubles! so annoying! :mad: my provider has flaked out a few times on me too, since the downtime a while back, but it has only been a few hours - i have not had to report it since then, so that's good. still it is a pain to be in the middle of something and suddenly POOF! cannot load page, bla bla bla... :mad:

as for the thyroid - ah ok, no prob. i thought maybe i was getting mixed up.

when was the last time you had your thyroid hormones checked?

because that stuff can change... :o :hug:

~ waves ~ who wants you to feel better

Aw, thank you darling :hug: :hug: :hug: I wish you well too !!

Nop... I DO need to get my hormones checked again urgently... :o Puff, I rang the lab and the cost isnt cheap, so, will need to wait until july it seems... :mad:

Love ya !

sigh. :( i am sorry Majo, i wish it could be done sooner. i guess it isn't covered by any national assistance or insurance program, huh. sigh. what about for students? any chance you could do this at university - do they have student health services?

you've probably thought of that already but i thought i'd toss it out there just in case. :o

hang in there dear.

:hug:

~ waves ~

Thank you sweet waves :hug:

I will just need to wait until july... :( Using national insurances would take more time and, I dont know if Im candidate for having my tests with them as they would probably think Im "fine"... :rolleyes:

Oh well... July is around the corner I guess...

Have a good Friday ! :)

*GROAN* i know what you mean about national health programs... :rolleyes:

here they have bunches of rules and regulations too... like to get a cholesterol split (HDL/LDL)? your PREVIOUS cholesterol check had to have been > 200. like, prevention... what's that?? :rolleyes::mad:

sigh. well, i hope you naturally cycle into feeling a bit better before july... sigh.

:hug::hug::hug:

you have a good friday too!

~ waves ~

Hugs to you dear blue!
((((((HUGS)))))
I hoe you feel better soon!
bizi

Thank you dear waves and bizi :hug:

You are very kind.

Life just sucks for me... it's too difficult... :(

hang in there blue
((((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi