TGIF, what you doing for the 4th of July
 

Okay so what are your plans for the fourth. And this week end.

I'm not sure what all we are doing. But we are going to the mall,
my son and Granddaughter and I tomorrow. Probably my grandson
who is 3 too.


Then Sunday Derrick and I are headed to Indy.

Donna

maybe this year i can find some red white and blue to wear. seems like every year i have a color missing... weather or matching or whatever. :D

Hope you guys have a great weekend Donna! :hug:

and everyone else too! :grouphug:

~ waves ~

a girl friends birthday party tomorrow night, working in the yard before that.....nothing else really.
Our season 5 of LOST came in today so we are excited about that:D
and I have a cold java stout waiting for me in the fridge!
bizi

Trying to really get that it is the 4th already. Seems summer will fly by. This morning is the parade for the town, I just could not get around, three hrs sleep not enough. Tonight the community fireworks display. Taking it hour by hour today.

We are having 90's which is unusual for sure. Glad I got the pool up for the kids. I guess food for the weekend needs to be bought.
Grill out and salads.
Everyone try and enjoy the weekend.
di
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yesterday I picked up my new piece of art work.
A friend of mine painted it and I love it.
Michaels did a good job framing it, that is always so hard to decide!
It is a jelly fish!
it has a straight edge frame...looks wavy for some reason....
this morning jeff made me some eggs with Mango, pinapple, habenaro pepper salsa.
It was so delicious!
sweet yet hot!

that's a beautiful painting! :) i like it!

i miss having artwork around... mine are all packed away... sigh.

i think the frame wavyness is an optical illusion caused by light reflecting off of it.

~ waves ~

Love the picture Bizi, makes me feel like swaying in a dance of water ebbing music
Waves. maybe you can get a piece or two out to enjoy. Did you take pictures for record, can they be put in an album?
Thanks for sharing!:hug:

no Di... unfortunately i can't... i'm talking paintings and prints for hanging on the wall. others here want bare walls. :o the last time i so much as mentioned the possibility of putting up a painting or two, there was a domestic catastrophe. :(

at least i get to enjoy Bizi's art from here every now and then! :D

:hug:

~ waves ~

I'm getting to enjoy Derrick's Art at my house. I just wish I could
share it with you guys.

I'm still working on that.

Hey Bizi how much does Michael's charge for framing.

Donna

Donna,
this cost about $100 to frame during one of their 60% off sales.
the painting is 8 1/2x 11.... I think.

oh I was obnoxious tonight with a friend....:(
I feel badly about it....I wrote her to apoligize....I had too much to drink....and went off on a tangent...about people being over medicated...her pdoc is using seroquel because her antidepressant was not working......she is dx'd bipolar 2 now....
I was very unsupportive......:(
sigh
bizi

Happy Weekend
 

Hi,
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We are getting rain for a few days . . . maybe this is putting a damper on the fireworks. People in neighborhoods started the noisy fun on Thursday.
M.

Dear Bizi

if her pdoc is overmedicating her i don't think it's bad to call a spade a spade. she deserves to be given some heads up on these things, especially if she is new to treatment.

if you feel you came on a little strong, you can always apologize for that, but i wouldn't apologize for your point of view... it is based on experience not alcohol. you might in fact remind her gently that you do have a genuine concern, even if you were too confrontational before. don't throw out the baby with the bathwater. :hug:

~ waves ~

I received a note from her this morning.
she is not upset at all.
she thanked me for my input.
so I am relieved.
alcohol and me....it reduced my inhibitions so I was able to have a really good time at this gathering I went to last night.
there were 3 people there that I knew....about 20 people total.
I had been out earlier with my girl friend, she lost her job and needed cheering up so I took her out and we had tequiala shots and ate dinner, so I was primed for the party.
She told me today that I helped her.
She is the one I went on the cruise with.
She is a lovely woman and a free lance writer, a good one at that. Something good will come from this.
bizi
symphony music and fireworks tonight.
Happy independance day!

yaayy, i'm glad your friend was cool and receptive Bizi. :)

i hope you enjoyed the parades and 'noisy fun' Mari & Di.

i hope someone got to see fireworks!

Happy Independence Day everyone! :)

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~ waves ~

Oh waves I am sorry that you are unable to enjoy the art work, Maybe make a few really nice pieces into a coffee table book. My dd has donated work to the cyber school. library and other places. Several pieces are rotated between two establishments every other month.

She loves getting the feed back, and even selling a few.

I hope everyone had the best day they could. Hot here and all week, every thing so dry. In the 90* s and that is not usual at all. But loving the pool.
Grandson and dd are having a great time in it too.
Hugs to all :grouphug:
Di

I managed to get a bit of heat exhaustion....and figured out that I am manic.
so I will be curtailing my computer work, coffee intake and decreasing stimulus in general. cutting back on alcohol intake in public....
increased my meds and have hubby on board....he still doesn't get it after all of this time....
sigh
bizi

i am so sorry to hear that...it sounded like you were having so much fun...
take good care of yourself
bobby

Maybe I am not manic.....
 

when I drink too much(coffee or alcohol), eat too much, do too much and start getting uninhibited....I am off center. I felt like I was not on meds yesterday.....the heat did not help things. My motor has been running high ever since I started dieting and exercising.
That was march 11th.
extra meds last night and today....I am already feeling more grounded.
I just need to be really careful.
We drive to indiana next week...I am not ready for that.
I don't do well out of my routine....
will need to find a gym that will let me join for a week.
off I go to the gym.
bizi:o

Bizi
First you usually can locate a gym that has guest passes.
Also if you are staying with family they might have a gym they go to.

Now if you are going to stay at a hotel, look for one that has
a good fitness room. Many of the ones in Indy do.

donna

Dear bobby
I do have a lot of fun...it jsut when I start to have too much fun...I run on the hypomanic side most of the time.
Rarely do I have depression.
I am so fortunate that way.
I deal with my social anxieties by drinking too much, then I get uninhibited and say/do things that I would not do/say when I have not been drinking or if I am getting too close to the edge of mania.
It is hard to explain.
bizi

Dear Bizi

i am glad it might not be mania...

but you have observed this running high for a while, so it seems safe to assume at least some hypomania, and act accordingly. definitely alcohol-induced inhibition can look manic, and you are going to be more sensitive to caffeine if running a bit hypo - even 'normal' amounts of it can produce frenetic energy bursts, with tendency of distraction instead of focus.

so, i think curtailing both alcohol and caffeine is a good idea for now. with the caffeine, i think eliminating would be best if you can - next best to that is just one cup first thing in the morning if you have trouble getting into gear.

also the family visit will add stress and could precipitate things.... i'd really consider taking extra meds right through that, till you get home.

Donna is right on with all the gym suggestions - want to tack on one more. ask at your regular gym if they have any affiliated gyms in the area you will be visiting, that will honor your membership. if not, they may be able to refer you to a gym there.

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~

you are right waves. thankyou
I will ask if I can jsut pay per visit or but a one week memeber ship...if they allow that...my membership here doesn't have any other afiliations.
I am better today, amazing what geodon and some clearer thinking can do for me.
I don't think I am manic, just runnig a bit high in general....need to slow down.
bizi

go on line to check out gyms. maybe print out a pass.
 

Bizi,

You can go to a company's web site and see if they have a free one week pass -- some will do that with lots of conditions.

Others might charge you by the day.

You say that you seem more up since you started dieting and working out. Have you considered that your blood sugar is lower now and affecting your moods? Have you checked? Have you talked to your pdoc to discuss more meds?

Hormones involved in exercise, blood sugar, and so on are powerful.

M.

I am afraid of my pdoc, she will want to commit me if she knew that I was this hypo...Not happening. I see her on july 29th.
There is nothing that can be done with my current medication schedule...am at the max doses. I don't want to take anymore benzo and I am not willing to change meds. She told me that I have to figure this stuff out for myself...that I can't just rely on the meds...so I am doing that....being more aware of the things that I am doing. No caffiene which I have a headache from....I am still dieting because I was starting to gain back some of what I lost by my binging...
I went to the gym last night and am going to go tonight again and maybe jsut swim...I have no other hobbies and going to the gym is productive and gives me something to do... and can burn off energy.
Other than be on the computer or watching tv...that seems very non productive. Don't want to go shopping and spend money....I am too restless to read, later we will watch another episode of lost and I will have a beer. then read before bed.
bizi

Dear Bizi,
Does your gym have yoga classes? They might help you control the up moods a little.

M.

yes my gym has many different classes but none at the times that I go.
I would have to rearrange my day...which would not be easy for me.
thanks
bizi

Good luck on figuring it out Bizi

I think you are a very good person knowing what you are doing for yourself.

Donna