I need sleep
 

Hi,

I am barely awake even though have been up for a few hours. My body clock is sooooo confused by having to get up at 9:00 am for work after sleeping whenever I wanted for two weeks.
I went to bed at 6:30 am this morning after having been up all night. I woke up at 10:30 with no alarm because I did not have not go into work.


FOUR hours is not enough sleep. I had four hours the night before as well.

sigh

M

i am so sorry. can you catch up on some this weekend and do you have monday off?
bobby

H, Bobby,

Yes. The weekend and the Monday holiday will be nice. That is good.

I am trying not to nap because tdoc doesn't think napping is good.
M

I stayed up to late last night watching csi on tnt. I was up till 2am, then
up again at 6am.

Heehee, Not normal for me.

But it was good, its snowed and snowed here.

And its bad right now. My husband is safe in Gary area.

I had two workshop's today, one got cancelled.

His comment, he was glad I was home. I didn't need to be out in
this either. Heehee, gues I am not a judge in the weather. But it
wasn't me really.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

Dear Donna,

'Glad he came home safe in the weather.

M

Fifty five dollar co-pay
 

Hi,

I had to pay a $55.00 co-pay at pdoc's office! I probably paid it the last two times in 2011 but was not paying attention.

Wow. Thank God for insurance.

M

oops , No he is in a hotel room tonight.

I'm home safely.

Heehee

Donna:grouphug:

yes thankful for insurance...they have spent a fortune on me this last year, last 2 years that is. between right shoulder injury mri, pt then fall and broken collar bone and ot on left arm then all of the face stuff and medications. It all adds up!

HOping that you can sleep tonight mari!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Dear Mari

i hope you can get more sleep tonight also. it usually takes me a while to go back to a day schedule... going to a night owl schedule i can literally do overnight it seems! LOL.

my former pdoc also considered daytime napping poor sleep hygiene. he said resting was ok, and i seem to recall he said if you really need a nap, to set an alarm for no more than half an hour.

he was also very strongly against sleep deprivation because of its effects on bipolar mood (induces mania, and to those predisposed, mixed states) however, and when push came to shove, he would tell me, just sleep whenever you can. however, i was not working at the time ... you are sort of between the devil and the deep blue sea in that respect.

i send you peaceful, restful, sleep-regulatory vibes... :hug:

~ waves ~

HI,

I think I took a nap for 1.5 hours in front of the tv. Now I am sleepy again because the meds have kicked in but I am trying to get work done because after the nap I am the mostly mentally alert I have been all day. :Head-Spin:

M

YeaahhhhH!!!!! :yahoo:
i hope you have a productive time, and then some more good sleep. :)

(((hugs)))
~ waves ~

i don't know but when i am exhausted i welcome any type of sleep nap or whatever. sleep deprivation is the worse.
bobby

Three hours of sleep
 

Hi,
I tried to stay awake and got nothing done. Everything I typed came out with errors and gibberish.


I am going to focus on being nice today. I am dull headed and out of it, . . . sometimes on those days I end up jumpy and agitated in an effort to stay awake.

Maybe I can focus on being nice.


M

sunflower for the day
 

Dear Mari,

You have a good goal. I am sending you a picture to help you flower-ish... ;)

http://123pictures.files.wordpress.c...flower-sf.jpg?

I chose a sunflower that still has green at its center, to lend harmonious and communicative energies. And of course the fact that it is a sunflower might help overall.

take care

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
The sunflower is beautiful. I like the growth of the green in the middle to. Thank you.

M

Dear Mari,

thinking of you. how did your day go Friday?

What about your weekend... have you been able to rest/sleep and replenish your energies?

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~ glad you liked the flower :)

Hi,

Saturday night I slept in slots of a couple of hours as I woke up through out the night. I go through this when my body relearns that I have to wake up at 9:00 for work.

The cleaning lady was here most of the day. I was doing some work a long with her --- using her energy levels to toss out stuff and organize other stuff.

For all the laundry of floor rugs and bedspreads and such I felt as if I might as well be doing laundry by hand: http://bestsmileys.com/cleaning/3.gif

Tomorrow / Sunday I will need a low stimulus day. It is chilly here now but I hope to get twenty minutes of sun in the middle of the day. I am finding that the sun helps with mood.

M

Dear Mari

glad your body/brain is finding its way back to your work schedule, in its own way.

yesterday sounded like a full workday. i laughed at the handwash icon. i do handwash small items. but i can't imagine handwashing a sheet let alone a heavy bedspread :yikes: and yes, even with the machine, dealing with those heavy articles is ... heavy, in more ways than one. :rolleyes:

Today i'm wishing some R&R and a...

bright, bright, bright, sunshiney day

:sunchair: http://bestsmileys.com/sun/4.gif

~ waves ~

Hi, Waves,
Thanks for the sunshine wish.
I was in the sun from 4:30 to 5:00 pm -- late in the day but sun was here. I am following through on my plan to reset the body clock.

M

Depressed
 

Depressed and Sleep Deprived

Hi,

Last night I had five hours of broken and very light sleep.
I need sleep.
I was a complete mess today.
Tonight: Sad. Feel like crying.


Perhaps I can do this:
1. Take meds a little earlier than usua.
2. Take more of the Gabapentin than usual. Usually I take a little less than half of a 300 mgs capsule. Tonight I could take more than half.
3. Climb in bed.


Number three is hard.
I need a way to talk myself into going to bed.

M

I am very sorry that you are sad, sleep deprived and feel like crying. Maybe you need a good cry????
Does hubby help comfort you?
good luck with your decisions this evening....
sending sleep vibes your way.
:Zzzz:
bizi

Hi,

. . . 'Still up.
. . I think I have to get up with the alarm for a meeting. Ugh.


Need to wash hair tonight or tomorrow.
Need to remember to buy gas for the car--- Will have to leave early for that. Darn.


Get good sleep every one. :Zzzz:


M

Hi Mari,

Could you sleep ?? I hope you had rested at least some hours... :hug:

Funny, you need to sleep, and I need to wake up... hell... Im sleepy 24/7...

Talked to tdoc
 

Hi,

Tdoc and I had a phone session this afternoon. I told her that sitting in the sun 15-40 minutes for two or three days a week since the second week of December has greatly lessoned my anxiety. We spoke about how I am dealing with everyone in my life differently now that I have less anxiety.

I told her about the years of horrible sleep paralysis back before I knew what it was. She said she knew about it but I could tell that she didn't know how frightening it could be until I told her today. She asked if I thought that was related to my fear of going to bed. I told her it was only one small part of the problem.

I asked her if she could give me ideas on how to meditate with my eyes open. She told me to
1 Relax
2 Slow my breathing
3 Find a spot on the wall across the room to focus on . . .
(In other words --- meditate the same way)
I can do that.

M

This sounds like a good session.
How do you feel about it?
I am glad that you have less anxiety and that you are able to sit out in the sun. Can I gently ask you if you have had your vit d levels checked?
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Dear Bizi,

In Oct 2010 I tested low:
Reference Range: 20-100
Vitamin D, 25-OH, Total 13L

I was retested June 2011 but did not get the results. I see the mdoc in two weeks in early February and will talk about the results with her when I see her. From what I read on line, I cannot take lots of oral D3 because it could interfere with my Verapamil. I think it is best to get my D3 from the sun.

Mari

Hi Mari. Yes. Try to get as much sleep is you can. For us who have anxiety,sleep is our friend. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I wonder if there is a relationship between the shorten days and insomnia?
Feels like I need to be awake, sleep just will not come. For the last two weeks now really messed up patterns. Sometimes passing out at 9 pm, only to get up 1 AM....
I think a week on a warm sandy beach soaking up rays would refill me. lol.
Hope the patterns lets up for you and feel refuled soon.
Hugs
Di:grouphug:

I am sorry Di, that you have sleep issues too.
I wish you both would sleep better.
bizi:grouphug:

DENTIST TUESDAY: How much Klonopin?
 

Hi,

I have a dentist appointment from 2:00 to 3:00.

Klonopin questions:
1. When should I take Klonopin of for this? Twelve noon? Twelve thirty?

2. How much should I take? I do not remember how much I took last time.
0.5 does not seem like enough. 0.75 might be more than enough and might make me sleepy the rest of the day. (Usually I take one dose every 24 hours -- 2.5 mgs at nighttime.)
I have work to do when I get home from the appt -- it is a few hours of mindless work that requires lots of focus.


M

peak levels for Klonopin.
 

hi,
Wikipeida says this about peak levels:

Two hours feels about right but I need to sleep now.

I will set my alarm for 12:30 pm so I can take 0.75 mgs under my tongue.

I have The Black Keys, Mumford and Sons, Muse, and Kings of Leon on my iPod.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sgdK3WVUEgg
Kings of Leon Radioactive Lyrics

If they don't work, I will switch to relaxation.

M

you might not have gotten to sleep I think .5 might do the trick since you are tired in general from sleep deprivation.
sorry you have to go to the dentist.
bizi

hi... i slept through all these posts!
 

Sorry i missed your post about the dentist/klonopin, Mari.

i am getting sick again and was sleeping... woke up late this afternoon and pretty much stayed in bed. i hope your dentist appointment goes ok... i guess you are there or on your way to it now.

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~ sending calming thoughts

HI,

I just woke up half hour ago without the alarm. I have not taking the Klonopin yet.

I am sleepy. Maybe 0.5 will be enough.


I ok with going to the dentist. She is wonderful. Hubby likes her and her whole staff too.


M

Hubby wants me to take a trip with him in the summer
 

Hi,

UGH.
Hubby wants me to go on a work trip with him for a week in June. :mfr_wha:
I last flew on an airplane in 2003 or 2004. I don't like planes or hotels or being away from my home.
On the other hand, I do not see how I can manage for a week by myself.

Hubby really thinks I am going with him. HA!


M

Be careful next thing you know he will buy you airline tickets!
bizi

Bizi,

He wants to buy the tickets now.

I think he is going to win on this.

The best I can do is get him to complete some promises now before I agree to his buying the tickets.


M

Get a lot of compensation in things he does for this. If its something
you really don't want to do.


Donna:hug::grouphug:

sleep please
 

Oh dear

This is how many hours I slept the last three nights:
~Tuesday: five hours
~Wednesday: four hours
~Thursday: three and a half hours


This morning for some reason I woke up very early when hubby got up (most times I don't notice.) I could not get back to sleep.

Today I have a meeting and a mammogram. I cannot reschedule the mammogram to try to sleep. Something tells me I have to go to the mammo appointment.


I would like to cancel all of Friday but I have a big day AND two meetings with my direct boss.

I am so tired of looking at my clothes. I want a new wardrobe. I want someone else to drive me to work too.

M

(((Mari))) i'm so sorry.

this is going to sound weird but if you're not up to driving, can hubby get you to/from work, and you take a cab to the mammogram place? or the reverse - cab to work, and see if hubby is free to take you to the mammogram appointment? or cab all around?

or call in sick to work and get work buddy to update you on the meeting later, so you can sleep a little before/after the mammogram?

i am trying to problem solve. maybe you were just venting. i hear you. i am also concerned for your safety though. that is very little sleep you are riding on. :( :hug::hug::hug:

i wish you were able to sleep and felt better.

:heartthrob: ~ waves ~ :heartthrob: