Extra tired
 

Dear all,

Wanted to drop you a "note" telling you Im thinking about you all every day, and praying fr you every night...

Im sick (physically, mentally and spiritually), and Im feeling extra tired 24/7... (nothing to worry though... or at least, I dont feel at the "edge" :o ) I was for example, reading waves' thread and I couldnt finish reading it :( Im a fail :(

I want to write you, but I cant... that depress me...

Hoping to come back this weekend and post !!! :(

Love you so much. Think you always, all the time...

:hug: s for everyone !!!

Dear Majo,
Nice to hear from you.
I wish you felt better. Thank you for checking in even though you don't feel like posting, you came and posted. so thank you for that.
I hope you get thru the rest of the week and feel better for the weekend.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

:)
Dear Majo,

You chear me up even when you do not sound well. I wish you luck on the sleep front.


M

Hi Majo...

see now you got me to crawl out of my hole and post also :o that is an achievement! :o

i hope you feel better soon, mentally, physically and spiritually. i know what you mean feeling yucky on all those fronts.

thank you for trying to read my thread. it's ok you couldn't finish, i sure appreciate the effort. you aren't a failure. i appreciate your thinking of me. i think of you too.

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

Love Ya
 

:circlelove::You-Rock::Heart: (((((( BlueMajo ))))



Phyllis

thanks for posting
bobby

Hi Majo

I can totally relate to the extra tired.

I seem to be having that problem right now. Not sure why just am.

But it can be life at times I think for us all right.

See ya soon. Hopefully back this weekend.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

Ggggggggrrrrrrrr
 

GGGGGGGGRRRRRRRR yes, venting time !!!

I mean, I hate the fact that my mind and brain wanted, needed to come here but my silly body wont let me... and my body would contage my brain so it would start feeling tired too... :mad: I finally come today and I can see many things have happened and I missed them and now I feel stupid commenting old posts !!! :mad: :(

This week was: PATHETIC

I got insulted and molested at school... by a silly girl I dont even talk to... :mad:

Had family problems too... I need to put end to this problems, I mean, I really dont want to see my family NEVER again.... I will seriously talk to them next saturday and let them know Im so busy that they wont see me ever again, except in the nasty wedding of my cousin... (Im talking about my freaking aunts and cousins, not my parents by the way)

My cells are not cooperating... :(

Have been feeling depressed and my self-esteem has been null... Normally it is low anyway...

So yeah... freaking week... not to mention my meds are making me feel dizzy and my stomach feels funny :mad: :(

Oh yeah... Im wearing glasses... they help me while on the computer... :) But they make me feel depressed because I remember when I needed glasses all day and then the surgery I had and changed my life forever and... blah... ugh....

I feel like Im going to explode !!!!!!!!!!!!! :mad:

((((((BlueMojo))))))
 

:hug:You're in my constant thoughts & prayers, sweety!!
:)I'm sooo glad you're here!!! Please, continue talking to us and let
us support you as, you do for so many of us so often!!:)

:hug: BlueMojo :hug:

Phyllis :)

Hi Blue
 

We are all here and care about you. Sorry you are having a tough time today. Wish I could make you feel better. You are not alone. Look at all the people right here that care about you so much. I do too. ginnie

Dear Majo,

You do not have to tell them anything.Don't show up.

We will support you. :grouphug:

M

Mayo

Were all here for when you need us. If you want to post on old threads
do its fine. Its good to hear from you.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

I vote with Mari on this one. Don't go to the wedding.

I am sorry that your feeling so down.
You will feel better...hold on.
I wish your cells would cooperate.
thinking of you tonight.
((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

I vote with Mari, Bizi, DO NOT GO TO THE WEDDING!!!!


Donna:grouphug::hug:

Do not go next Saturday either.
Take care of NUMBER ONE -- that is you. :D

M

Re: wedding
 

don't attend, I agree. We have to surround ourselves with good vibes, and not those that bring us down. I wish you all the best. ginnie

Thank you mt beautiful friends :hug:

You cant imagine how mad (or sad or both ?) Im towards my family....

They keep saying that everything I do, and my father and mother do is bad, pathetic, etc.... so, the other day, I didnt answered a call from my oldest cousin because she wanted me to explain her something about my career, which she has always insulted and said nasty things... and guess what ? To all the family, Im a rude ugly monster...

Thing is we used to go every saturday to drink coffee with my aunts, but I dont want to go back never again....
So, like you suggested, I wont show up... :mad:

About the wedding... *sigh*.... that is another cousin... and she asked me to be her ehm... to testify ? you know, I have to sign in the wedding... So I will attend the ceremony and then leave....

Still feeling crappy...

Thank you for being my friends, my family :hug:

Majo,
You are learning to take care of yourself.
Show up, sign as a witness, and then leave.

I am so proud of you.

These are good decisions. Do what works for you.
M

thinking of you
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

:winky:

Thank you lovely ladies !! :hug:

I hate the fact that tomorrow is monday... we have talked about this in the past, and also about the fact that people is so cruel...

I thought I had a "friend" in the lab next to mine, her name is Eva. She always ask me for little favors, like, using my equipment or, I give her some of my lab's reactives when she run out of these in her lab... and, I have asked her for some medium for my cells twice and the 2 times she has "forgot" to give it to me... :mad: :( She had me 3 hours waiting for her on friday, because she was going to give the tube to me... I saw here running out of the institute and I call her cell phone... she didnt reply and 5 hours later, she told me she had forgot the tube "somewhere"...

Im tired of this you know ?? I feel anger, but also, so disillusioned about her attitude and... oh well...
Is like, nobody would help me ever in that pathetic place...

And tomorrow I have to go back... and have class... and have to talk about an article...

Im so tired of this stress... Im so tired of this life... :(

It is hard trusting someone when they let you down. I think I would stop giving things to her, sounds like she is using you....and the friendship is lop sided. Concentrate on your work and not needing anyone elses assistance.
You are smart and have come so far.
sending encouraging thoughts your way and strength because you really are a very strong woman.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Hi, Majo,

When we are tired and stressed in one area of our lives, it affects other areas too.

Get strong. Focus on yourself. You will be better someday.

M

:hug: BlueMojo :hug:

Phyllis :hug:

keep on hanging in there
 

Dear Majo

sounds to me like, even though you often feel like you are drowning, in reality you are doing a very good job of staying afloat ... despite the tempestuous waters. ;)

(((hugs))) and courage.

~ waves ~

you are going through so many trials and it is so hard for a bipolar to protect ones self. you see how many people on this forum care about you. if only you could cast aside the others in your life who don't treat you as you deserve to be treated. there are so many who appreciate you! remember that
bobby

Mayo

Add some more pictures to you collage of people who are there with you.

You can add one of Derrick's art pictures if you like. He would feel
honored.

Donna:grouphug::hug:

Hello my sweet people !!

Thank you for your support... I feel so abandoned here... I mean, in my real life... :(

Im feeling anxious today.... blaming my eyes and all their silly symptoms for that... :( :mad:

I have come to the conclusion that I will never be happy... There is always something or someone that bothers me, and there is always something missing in my life...

The worst thing I think, is, that my stress somedays is not even real you know ?Like, I dont have to study or anything, but I feel stressed thinking about "Im sure Im going to end blind" :rolleyes: How crazy did I sound ? :o

Im tired of myself... of my brain that would not stop saying me BS... :mad:

I appreciate you all here so much :grouphug:

And Donna, I have one of his pictures as my laptop desktop... ;)

I love you so much !

Dear Blue
 

I know you are not happy today. I want to extend a :Heart: to you today. It is valentines day, and my friends here are on my mind. I hope that you can know joy again. I think that even if I were dying, I would be able to find some measure of peace in very small things. I don't don't know why my depression got better, I only know there is help and hope for you, that your spirits can be lifted a bit. Try to do an act of kindness toward yourself today. Something you don't normally do, just to make yourself feel the tiniest bit better. Those small steps, and lead to giant leaps. It begins within you. You have such a good heart, and you are so kind to others. Be kind to yourself to. I want you to know I care about you. If I were your neighbor I would be over with a :hug: and maybe some cookies, or a bunch of home grown bananas. Don't give up Blue, so many do care about you. You are not alone because you have all of us here. Is there anything that you can think of that would help, or something I could do to make you feel better. Valentines day is about:hug::In-Lurve: there is a whole lot of that being sent to you. My foot hurts today, but I came here, and I got a smile from another. That made my foot feel better, just like when I was little and my mother would kiss the hurt. Keep in touch Blue. I am here anytime. ginnie:Heart:

Majo,

What works for me most of the time is practicing being thankful. I thank the moon, the sun, my body, my brain. . . . When I wake up in the morning I thank my body and the universe for helping me through the night.

M

:Heart::Heart::Heart: BlueMojo :hug::hug::hug:

Phyllis

Thinking of you tonight
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

Hi there my lovely friends !!!

To make my life more miserable (well, Im exaggerating, but... hehe) I got a bunch of allergies and my eyes are so itchy and red and teary.... :mad: Im thinking I might have a little infection too ?? not sure but they hurt... yesterday was horrible...

So, seems that all I can think about is eyes eyes eyes....

Im dieting.... following all your advices of the diet thread... and drinking lots of water.... so, we will see....

This photofobia wont let me post more !!! arghhh !!!