Kimmy.........
 

Big hugs and sorry I wasn't here when you really needed them but I can see that you were in good hands. I'm so glad you vented here...sometimes life just sucks and we need to say so. How do you like the new dr? Have you told your daughter how you feel about the purse strings? It sure is understandable and I'd feel the same way but if you can talk to her about it, it might help some. Anyway, remember that we love you here and want you to feel better both in body and soul. :)

((Kimmy))

I think it's unrealistic to expect the achievement of "happily ever after" in life. It would mean we've served our purpose and learned all we needed to know about life on earth.

I have times when I feel I have all the answers I need to maintain peace of mind and joy in living. That's usually when reality smacks me in the face and changes all the questions.

I see life as a roller coaster ride. It's our job to enjoy the ride, wherever it takes us, and to hold on for dear life when it takes a nose dive. It helps to have friends and loved ones by our side. It gives us the courage to throw our hands in the air and scream with joy. It gives us the strength to support others who are holding on for dear life.

We'll achieve "happily ever after" when the roller coaster comes to an end. We can then meet at the food court, pig out on our favorite foods, and laugh about our experience on the biggest thrill ride of them all.

If we jump off before the ride comes to an end, we'll only make the ride harder for those we leave behind.

Hang on, girl - you have friends who care about you. :)

((Kimmy)) The 'big house' doesn't allow more than 4 adults in it and our 4th ended up wanting the spot anyway. I don't know where all the other people are staying, like Mr. & Mrs. Alffe or LPP, etc. Everyone is staying in their own place. There is no one big house.

I hope that helps you feel a little less ticked off. :(

Love you, Doody

Oh and (Kathy) I like your analogy. I always say, fasten your seat belt and hang on.

Hey, Kimmy

It might help you to know that I wasn't invited either. Heck, I don't even know what's going on. Doody's talking about the big house - guess that means everyone's going to jail. :p

It's really hard to get everyone together in one place at one time. Someone always gets left out. We shouldn't take it personally.

We can look forward to hearing some funny stories when our friends return from their excellent adventure. Happy friends are strong friends. :cool:

Well, I'm not sure how much information to post on this very public forum but just let me say...that we are going to a wedding...the bride and groom are long time BT members who not only supported each other when they needed it most...but managed to fall in love to the delight of all who know them.

And Kimmy....EVERYONE on that private forum was invited...that includes you but I think you missed the invite while you were in the middle of your moving.

Kathy, I also loved the roller coaster analogy...I always use the "journey on the train" and when it pulls into the station...it's over! But a roller coaster is much more like our lives!!;)

And now I have to go look up the bug in the cup! :D

(((Kimmy))) ... I hope things are looking a bit brighter for you. I know for me that sometimes all it takes is 'a step back' from the situation or a bit of timeout to realize it isn't all so bad. Sometimes I've found myself catastrophizing (*) and I have to really think about controling my thoughts to get myself out of a pessimistic loop. I'm not trying to make light of anything you are experiencing, but I read on another thread that you were feeling less ticked off and I'm glad for you. I think Alffe is probably right that your invite was sent to your former address.

* catastrophizing probably isn't an actual word ... but it happened to pop into my mind as I was typing!

(((KathyM))) ... I really liked what you wrote about the roller coaster ride too. You are a wise lady!

(((Doody))) ... I didn't know what the 'no more room at the big house' meant so thanks for making that a bit more clear.

(((Alffe))) ... I think your brief explanation of the "toodoo" will be helpful to others who read here. It can be hard to feel like you have no clue what some of the people are referring to and it might seem like you are being left out of a good joke. I wish I could afford to attend and if I didn't live so far away .... or if there was a fantastic seat sale with an airline ... or if I won the lottery ... well I would be there if I could. My spirit will be there and I look forward to hearing about the wedding and seeing some pics!

Thank you soooo much for your support!!!
{{{{{{{Alffe, Kathy, Doody, Scrabble}}}}}

I MUST apologize!! I'm so sorry for being so selfish and complain about anything! I was definitely deeply depressed, and wasn't easy to deal with according to Bridgette. Please forgive me for anything I posted that may have offended anyone! :o :(

Kathy, I loved what you had to say, and truly appreciate your support! This feels like a manic depressive state of mind, and I'm not handling it as well this time.

Scrabble, I can Totally relate to what you "said"!! I agree with you! Your support and kindness mean alot to me! Thank you!! :)

Doody, thank you for helping me see things more clearly, and no I'm not ticked off. I wish I could control my emotions better! Forgive me for misunderstanding where you were staying. I really messed that up, and I'm totally embarrassed!! I hope I didn't upset you in a big way! Your love means ALOT to me!!! :)

Alffe, much thanks to you for letting me know there was an invitation for everyone, I truly didn't catch that. Now I feel even worse. I really do not blame any of you if I made you angry at my complaining, without thinking about how and where I did it. I was seriously wanting to see if I could make it there. Maybe by bus or train? Then I started thinking, "am I being too presumptuous about showing up?". I usually try not to assume anything anymore. Anyway, I'm very sorry if I offended you! :(

Feeling very low...
~Kimmy

(((Kimmy))) You have offended no one! And we would all be tickled pink if you showed up.

Please don't apoligize for expressing your feelings...we all have down days. Life is a mixed bundle...good days, bad days...I'm headed for the ibuprofin bottle cause my hips are screaming. :o

((Kimmy))

No offense taken. I just wanted you to understand that there wasn't a big house full of people.

Can you imagine the lines at the bathrooms? :D

(((HUGGGSSSSS)))) dear Kimmy... I was here, but not writing. Sometimes, I can't write. (I know when I say that, you will all know what I mean.) I knew you were lost and wondering ... and was pleased that so many stepped up to support you. HUGE HUGS to all of you!

Scrabble took the words out of my mouth and they bear repeating:

I can't tell you how many times I've thought about the lottery lately... I'd be heading south/east so damn fast...

I am delighted for those of us who can be together. I can't WAIT to see the photos either! And the stories!

xoxo *smallheart (hmmmm.. guess that won't work *wink)
*womansmile

Kimmy....how did the shot go...I hope it wasn't awful! Hugs

{{{{{{{{{Addy, Lara, and Alffe}}}}}}}}}}
Thank you for your caring love and support!! It always feels good to come in and see your posts with good advice, and positive thoughts when I'm having such a rough time mentally and emotionally. Those sort of disabilities are hard to deal with sometimes, and I Thank God for all of you who do understand! It's as difficult for the support person to work through, as it is the one with the problems! That is what makes your support so special!!

Here is a brief overview of what was covered in yesterday's appointments. First, the injection wasn't really that easy this time! The doc would push that needle further into my spine which made me jump, so he told me to say "Oh Baby!" everytime I felt that bad LOLOL!! I was laughin until he pushed the needle a little more, and then I hollered Oh Baby!!! In the end he repeated it with me a few times, as I think he knew it was hurting BAD with the last of the med he pushed through the needle. I was able to leave for home 20 min. after I got off the table!

My yearly physical exam was this morning, and then I went over to get the injection. I had the female exam part of my yearly physical done, because we had to discuss some extra stuff, so he will do the rest of the physical next visit he said. Do you remember those huge cysts I had not too long ago, in the vicinity of the groin? Then remember how they multiplied? They've came out again!!! He took a culture of them also today, which involved a small cut on one of them....uuggghhhh!! They are very painful, and my pain meds aren't helping that kind of pain.

I also have a large ulcer on the inside of my calf about the size of a nickel. He took a culture of that too. I thought it was a spider bite, but he isn't so sure. The specimen will help figure that out, I hope! The doc gave me a script for Augmentin, and wants to send me to a gynocological specialist to look at these cysts. He told me they may need to be lanced or excised....eye yi yi!!

THEN, we discussed the results of my chest x-rays, and there is a nodule on my lung, behind my heart. It's small, and he wants another doc to take a look at it, if he will. My doc is having the new films taken on my first appt. reviewed, and compared with some 2 yr old chest x-rays that I have. I have to take those old films to his office, then wait to hear from one of those docs to get back with me.

My doc had taken wrist x-rays on my first visit, and is now sending me to a neurologist due to having carpal tunnel. My appt. is scheduled for the first week of November. The Neurologist wants me to plan on having an EMG and a nerve conduction test at that visit. Oh Goody!!!

There's the short and skinny on today's appointments. I go back to see this doc (primary care)the same day that I go for the EMG/new neuro visit. I have 2 more injections scheduled for the next 2 weeks, as they do them in sets of three. Oh Boy!! I'm wore out just trying to remember it all! It is alot to cover all at once, but this doctor seems to be very thorough, which is good! The pace will slow down once I get all of the new doctors set up, and their tests done. It does wear me out!!

I appreciate your asking Alffe!!
{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}
~Kimmy

Oh lordy Kimmy you are getting looked over from stem to stern! :D
That's what I like about getting a new dr....they take nothing for granted and want to form their own opinions. He sounds like he has a sense of humor too.
Gentle hugs....you aren't having a whole bunch of fun. :rolleyes:

Oi vey. And yes those do hurt, those epidurals. I used to get them all the time til they figured out the sacro injections helped me more. And lord those hurt too.

And I thought I had troubles. You are over the top with physical problems!

HUGS

Yup....I'm not in good shape at all!! There is more to come, but this is more than enough to be looking into for now! I get so tired of being sick and tired! Maybe this doc will get to the root of some of the things that have been a problem over the last 10-20 years.

I haven't posted much due to all of this stuff going on, and how it affects me alot of the time. I'm hoping the injection will help me get up and about, feeling better so I will feel like hopping on here more often!

Love you both bunches!!! :D
{{{{{{{{{{Doody & Alffe}}}}}}}}}}}
~Kimmy

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Kimmy)))))))))))))) )))))))))))))))

My heart goes out to you. I hope you don't think I've lost my mind (I may have).:confused:

Hugs to all of you. I miss coming to this forum. I always feel comfortable here but seem to forget about it. Wonder if it's a mental block? I love the wonder thread. Alffe, I haven't forgotten that I owe you and this forum a post about my Father and how/why I have the opinions I do about 'end of life' choices.

Love you! ss:)

(((Shotspine))) I forget about other forums too. But if I went to every one that applies to my physical conditions, I'd be scattered to and fro! :D So nice to see you.

{{{{{{shotspine}}}}}} I don't think you've lost your mind silly girl! LOL! You're going through as much as I, in your world, and I hate it for you!! That's just life these days. We all seem to be having our own extra dose of "stuff" lately, and we could all use a break!

I appreciate your support SS!
~Kimmy

Bump for Kell...the info. :D (it wasn't in a wonder thread!) :o

Guess what my nosey self j-u-s-t finished doin:D ..
Yepp-i read allll the wonder threads..heehee
Now i know what everybody is wondering this month..:D
I do appreciate you bumpin this for me though!:)
Thank you {{{{alffe}}}}

Woke up thinking about you Kimmy. Didn't you see a neurologist this week?
Big hugs....Stay strong and post when you can. Love, Alffe

{{{{{Kimmy}}}}}

:D just post when you can kimmy. just hink about how much money you will save from not having to buy books to read. just log on here. :p

we do miss you, but we do understand. ain't that grand about friends? :D
the most important thing to us...is that you take care of you.

Your friendship means alot to me!
 

Thank you for your support! It makes a big difference knowing I have someplace to go where I am much better understood. I'm thankful for friends like you! :)

{{{{{{Curious}}}}}}
~Kimmy