Wonder Number 273...
 

I wonder if Alffe (who dislikes polls) noticed I used the poll icon ... just cuz ;) ... ha ha... no poll!

I wonder if any of you are watching the Oprah Lifeclass series?... I have a friend who comes over every Monday night to watch them with me. The guest she has have been blow-me-away fabulous! Oprah's Masterclass is fabulous, too. I think you can watch most of this on the internet (I hope my NZ and Aussie friends can see it, too?)
My spiritual journey continues!

I wonder if anyone has talked with David? When he said good-bye to us here at NT, I believe he meant he was going to give up all internet social networking. He hasn't posted on FaceBook since March... the selfish me misses him :( and at the same time, I know he did what is right for him and I wish him well!

I wonder how bad things are going to get in this "recession"... and at the same time, wonder at how amazing it is to see people going back to the grass-roots of providing for themselves.

I wonder at the courage it takes to change oneself.

I wonder at how grateful I am for epsom salts! I have a job which requires me to be on my feet for about 5 hours - (I've been wearing a step-counter and average about 1000 steps an hour!!! yayaya!!!).

I wonder how you are all doing today?

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I wonder so many things...for starters why do we have two Wonder Threads #273...:p Polls! lol

I wonder how happy I was to see my grass seed sprout! Lara, you were right.

I wonder what my dear friend learned at the oncologist today...such a hard decision she has to make..:(

I wonder if she listened to Diane Rehmn show yesterday...her guest chose not to have chemo for her advanced breast cancer, a stage four, She was into the quality of her remaining time on this earth. http://thedianerehmshow.org/shows/20...sive-treatment

I wonder what those little Butterflies/Moths are darting around the lilac bushes....top of their wings look like a monarch....:confused:

I wonder what a revelation is was to me not to be able to comprehend a book I ordered and wanted to read "When I was a Child I read Books".
I heard the author interviewed on NPR and loved what she had to say so I ordered her book. Try though I may, I cannot understand it.

I wonder that I am unable to handle surprises, stress....that doesn't make me a bad person...just a very suspicious one.

Hugs for the room :grouphug:

I wonder if Alfee is seeing double :eek:... I don't see what you're seeing!:rolleyes:

I was wondering about our Goofy-sis and how she's doing right now... so I came back here to wonder about that! :hug:

and Alffe, I wonder why surprises/stress are suspicious? :( and wanna tell you its okay to not be able to handle it... its perfectly understandable! :hug:

Addy...thank you. You are such a dear friend!! It is just so scary not to be comfortable with our minds and thoughts...I am still "me" but who is that??
Am reading a wonderful book (one that I can understand and identify with)
Speaking our Minds by Lisa Snyder. What it's like to have Alzheimer's

It is so "right on".

Oh Alffe.. I wonder who I am all the time... and like you....

I'm just plain old me... take me as I am... I is as I is!

I wonder where what that Doody is up to today... likely out there straightening up the willow tree! :eek: (<<<< that's ME when I watched that old movie "Twister" the other night! - I know its got some real phony parts... but man, those winds are real! :( )

I wonder if Lara is enjoying today (our tomorrow!)... and if she got out in her garden today?

I wonder if I can say that I am stressed today, also. And that my father-in-law, the BEST dad of 7 kids, 17 grandkids and 5 greatgrandkids, passed away early this morning. Our world will not be the same and his house seems so empty without him there....it's so not real yet.

I wonder why I wonder about "a body" when it's just a carrier of a soul. Yes, it was as easy to kiss him in life as in death, and, even though I knew it was only a body and he was not there anymore, I didn't want to leave him in the hospital alone....he'd just been razzing me yesterday! How crazy is that?

I wonder how my hubby, brothers, and sister will do with this....we're a very close family and when hubby asked dad at Christmas what he wanted for Christmas all he wanted was for his family to always get along. I guess he saw more than we thought..LOL. Wise man.

I wonder why I always feel so empty when someone I love so much leaves.....perhaps that's the reason I never used to let myself love....but I can't help it anymore; I just have too much love that it overflows whether I want it to or not. I do wish that I could stop crying, though .....just too emotional, I guess.

I wonder that my family on here doesn't care if I cry.....because you don't have to see what a mess I've become...I'm not a 'pretty crier!'

I wonder if I can say that you, hippiechick, may not be a "pretty crier" but you have a beautiful soul...I'm sorry for your loss..he sounds like a terrific man..:hug:

I wonder if it will get up to 70 today and I can plant those bulbs..they are starting to sprout in the bag and want some dirt I think...:o

I wonder how grateful I am to the author Lisa Snyder, for the book I am into..Speaking Our Minds. She wrote, "We were all going along quite productively in our lives until we were confronted by memory loss, confusion, nervousness, loneliness, and isolation. It's as if you're reading a book and someone has torn the pages out." I couldn't have said it any better myself.

I wonder if i can tell Addy thank you..... {{{{HUGS}}}} i dont know how i'm doing.... :( My psychologist sends me a text message almost every day and makes me check in with him. sigh.....

i see him again tomorrow.... last thursday we hit the root of my problem.... what i've kept secret for years and years and nobody not even my husband knows.

I'm in a hate life mode right now i'm going through the motions. going to work but not actually there, cooking meals for my husband but not remembering it, went to choir practice last night and couldn't remember what we did this morning...

yeah, a major life sucks mode right now.... guess this isn't the right place to unload.... in a wonder thread, but oh well.... :)

Oh gosh...

I wonder if I can say to Hippiechick that's I'm so very sorry to hear of the passing of your Father-in-law. :( Words and emoticons on a screen as I type do not ever seem to convey my true response. :hug: I understand your feeling of not wanting to leave him alone even after death. That is absolutely not 'crazy' at all. You musn't think it crazy. It's natural. It's good you're a close family. That will surely help you all through this grief together.

I wonder if I can tell Hippiechick that I used to have trouble getting close to others as well. Still do mostly but not like when I was young. That was because of horrible loss especially of my mother when I was very tiny child and father when I was a teen. Then it just sort of kept going. Loss after loss. I'm also glad that these days I feel, well I actually feel a little ambivalent in truth, but mostly I feel a lot of love flows from me as you describe and the tears... well, the tears are good. They are an outlet. Not sure any of us look pretty when we cry. I don't believe we're meant to look pretty when we cry. It's never about how we look. It's about what's inside.

I wonder about Lonely1... :hug:

I wonder about those headaches too. You should get that sorted with a doctor. Maybe it's stress, depression, lack of sleep, neighbours making too much noise. Long term headaches need investigatiion.


I think every person who has ever lived has thought that. It's how our species thinks. We all think that way from time to time. Trick is to not think that way ALL the time. That's the hard work. <sigh>

I wonder if Lonely ever gets in the SUN? Might be difficult there. Sunlight on the body is a necessity. If no sunlight then look into taking supplements. The less sun you get the more SAD you will get.

Hang on... and maybe get some Vitamin D and some Vitamin B complex into yourself for a start. None of that will take away pain and pain of loss, but it may allow you to start dealing with day to day living on a totally different plane.

Not your era, but it was a good one. ;)

(just close your eyes and listen)

Here comes the Sun
George
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6j4T...eature=related

I wonder if I can tell Lara that, no, I never get in the sun. Sunny days make me much more sad then rainy days, because on rainy days you're supposed to stay at home and do nothing, and on sunny days I'm the only person that does that.

I wonder that I don't go to the doctor about my headaches because there's very little chance of it being anything, and if I ask he doctor he would tell me the same thing... right before charging me 3 or 4 hundred dollars. Also I secretly hope it is something serious and don't want it treated. :o

I wonder about a phrase that people tend to use, "do what makes you happiest." I wonder because it doesn't tell you what to do if nothing makes you happy, and the thing that would make you happiest is the one thing everyone tells you you can never do no matter the circumstances.

I wonder if Lonely1 is a problem without a solution! Mr.Alffe likes to say that to me when I constantly have reasons not to try something he suggests when I am stress, stress, stressing about something.

Yes, I understand that you will think you not stressing, you are accepting, resigned. ~sigh

Does your family know you have headaches? :grouphug:

I wonder if I can join in on what Lara said. No sun, no vitamin D. And did you know, Lonely1, that a lack of vitamin D can cause depression. I've had so many professionals tell me that. And in fact, my doctor did a blood test screening for vitamin D and I was horribly low on it. He told me to start taking it every day.

I wonder if I can also agree that you, Lonely1, need to go to a doctor for help. And that headaches can make the depression much worse.

and I also wonder if I can tell Lonely1 that I too love rainy days. I too prefer rainy days over sunny days so go figure THAT one out. I think it's because it gives you good reason to stay inside...and not feel guilty about staying inside.

Oh well, who am I to be preaching at the choir. I've struggled with depression for as long as I can remember and I HATE it! I hate it so much that I go to doctors to help me keep it under control so that I can have good days.

I wonder that I always remind myself, when I get into deep depressive periods, that they will go away.

I also wonder that it's easier to slump on a couch at home than have to face leaving the house to go get help...because you know it won't be an immediate fix. But at least when you go for help, it gives you hope and direction. :hug:

I'm rambling. Love to the room.

I wonder if I can say I love rainy days more than I love sunny days... which might seem strange considering the wrath that rain has brought us here in recent years.

I wonder if I can tell Lonely1 that a walk in the rain is very invigorating. Probably not in winter like over there, but here the rain is warm. (unless it's hailing).

I wonder that I really can't think of anything I would love to do more than to go down to the beach on a wet and windy night and just listen, watch, smell and feel. Sadly I can't get there anymore. I so wish I could. To me rainy days mean planting cuttings in my garden or cooking or reading while I listen to Bob Dylan or Pink Floyd or Eric Clapton or Van Morrison WAY louder than usual. However, rainy days mean I can't really go down the driveway here because it's too slippery and dangerous to me. When I was young I loved danger. Whatever happened to me......

I also wonder if I can say I love reading your posts Doody when you're in MammaBear mode. :hug: Such strength. Love it. That's why you survive Doody. You're a fighter!

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Doody
 

I love the way you talk Doody!

I wonder, if, Medicaid will *ever*, quit being so stupid and start paying
for *all* of the medical supplies, I need, monthly?!?

Phyllis

I wonder that yes, I am a problem with no solution. :rolleyes:

I wonder that the headaches aren't that frequent, maybe a couple of times a month, and they're caused by pressure on the outside of my head, like when I'm leaning back against a pillow to read or watch TV or something. The only strange thing is why a pillow isn't soft enough to make it comfortable to lie down.

I wonder that doctors don't like me because I'm too self-aware. If something's wrong I usually know why, or at least know what isn't the cause. (They like telling you whats wrong not the other way around. And they hate it even more when you tell them their diagnosis is wrong, and will treat the mis-diagnosis just to spite you.)

I wonder that when I was about 5 years old I went to the doctor because I was having hallucinations of green dots flying across my field of vision. She gave me the brilliant diagnosis that I was probobly tired, and even as a five year old I thought that was a stupid idea. It's approching 20 years later now, and I still see that same hallucination when I close my eyes.

I wonder about doctors ignoring the hallucinations of children.

I wonder that my depression is more a symptom then a disease; it's there because I'm unhappy with my life. Turns out I don't really have a personality and every time someone tries to make even the smallest of small talk with me it's so awkward it actually hurts. People just don't understand that I REALLY HAVE NOTHING TO ADD TO ANY CONVERSATION.

I wonder if I should start my own thread if I want to talk about myself so much... but it's just easier to wonder. :o

I wonder that I'm sorry I'm a problem without a solution, but thank everyone for wondering about me anyway...

I wonder that Lonely1 has nothing to be sorry about...wait wait, you're sorry about everything...that's your "mo"....only one of the reasons why I find you so interesting and a "challenge". :hug: You are consistent if nothing else! Oh and stubborn, funny,....I'll think of more later. :p

I wonder if anyone here has had the norovirus....shutter! So violent, so contageous,

I wonder what I can take to my dying BBF when we visit this weekend...taking love and years of memories...I know there will be laughter and tears...but what can I take???

I wonder how thankful I am for having three wonderful daughters who support us...who forgive us our shortcomings.

I wonder how much I miss our Michael. We were so much alike.....

I wonder if I can help Alffe on what I might take...

I wonder if

1st... I can say...take your heart filled with love... I know it's going to hurt but your love with shine through.

2nd... nothing better than homemade cookies w/milk, coffee, or tea.

3rd... I know I would enjoy a small bouquet of brightly colored daisey's... you can usually find then at Wal-mart this time of year.

It's time to put my wonderer to bed...
Hugs to all,
:hug:
Abbie

Cookies? Cookies!! I wonder if I can leave a recipe
Here's an especially great one

WHITE CHIP ISLAND COOKIES
375* - 3 doz - ungreased - 8-11 min.

1 2/3 cups all-purpose flour
3/4 teaspoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon salt

3/4 cup (1 1/2 sticks) butter or margarine, softened
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1/3 cup granulated sugar
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 large egg
2 cups (12-oz. pkg.) NESTLÉ Premier White Morsels
1 cup flaked coconut, toasted if desired
3/4 cup chopped macadamia nuts


PREHEAT oven to 375° F.
COMBINE flour, baking powder, baking soda and salt in small
bowl. Beat butter, brown sugar, granulated sugar and vanilla
extract in large mixer bowl until creamy. Beat in egg.
Gradually beat in flour mixture. Stir in morsels, coconut and nuts.

Drop by rounded tablespoon onto ungreased baking sheets.
BAKE for 8 to 11 minutes or until edges are lightly browned.
Cool on baking sheets for 2 minutes; remove to wire racks.

I wonder if I can say that your just being there would be enough I'm sure. :hug: :(

Thank you all...Mr.Alffe suggested I take food since there are so many people in and out of their home. I did make chili, and "a*s*s soup..also chinese noodles (eat cold) but Abbie, wren...I burned the cookies. :(

I wonder and pray that I can offer her some comfort. She drove up here in an instant when Michael killed himself..and just her presence helped me.

Leaving shortly after taking Cassie to "camp"...home tomorrow. :grouphug:

Safe trip, Alffe and Mr. Alffe.

You will be comfort just being there for her.

:hug:

I wonder...

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