I'm Tired
 

I'm tired of all this.........
I'm tired of trying to please everyone
I'm tired of accepting that my life will never be the same
I'm tired........

(((((windseeker))))))

My sympathies...I'm in a blue funk tonight myself.

I hope you feel better soon.

I honestly am feeling the exact same way today. I actually feel like that most days, to be honest. I am sooo tired of trying to please people. I am just going to give up on that or I will go insane. I am sooo tired of not feeling like ME. I am sooo tired of just being TIRED. I have no desire to do anything at all, I have no desire to do any of the things I used to do. I can't help but wonder if this will ever change?

I really should be trying to cheer you up but your words really spoke to me. Hope you feel better. I think I'll go to bed.

Hang in there, windseeker.
Your injury was in this year 2012, yes?
I know how horribly frustrating and aggravating it all is to try to cope with, deal with, and all the effort to 'get better'.
I truly know from experience whereof you speak; of being just simply tired of it all ... tired of being tired, period.

I hear ya, andromeda, and hillie1971, also.
Hillie1971, how are things there where you live in Maryland post-big storm Sandy? I can well imagine the extra-stress of all that there this week.

Keep posting, windseeker.

Best to all,
Theta

:hug:
Wish I had words of wisdom for you windseeker, but all I can say is you are not alone. Your words spoke to me also.

At my rehab appointment the other day, the words I used were "I'm done. I'm done with this whole thing. Done, done, done." But I think our sentiments are similar.

:grouphug: to all that need them.
Starr

I felt the same way for the first 2 years, 3 months. That was probably the worst point for me. I finally gave in and started antidepressants. Since then I have made lots of changes to accommodate this new life of mine. And although the symptoms are still there they don't occupy my mind 24/7. I actually have a life again, a completely different life but it is living, not just existing as I was for so long.

Every once in awhile words speak to our hearts.
They move us not because of what they say.
But because they say what we know.

No one who has never walked this path
will ever understand.
They can not and I would not want them to.

We are only give this one moment in time
and what we chose to do with it
is the measure of who we are.

Its OK to be tired this is a monumental struggle.
To have walked through this test of fire
and emerged on the other side.
Is a mark of honor.

This mark of honor is there for all to see.
But few will recognize it,
only those who have earned it,
will know it.

I think part of what windseeker is tired of is his family and friends not supporting him as he is but instead expecting him to buck up and fix himself and go on with life.

There is an extra level of frustration and fatigue when family and friends who should be supporting you instead burden you with their expectations.

windseeker, Please try to remember that we are here for you.

My best to you.

No, windseeker you are not alone in this! I know I would rather be in a cast or have some other injury that people could see so that they would understand that I need to rest, or so they would even offer to help. But we don't. We have this thing that is frustrating, painful and sometimes lonely injury.
But know that even though today may have been horrible, you will have one of those days soon where you don't hurt so much, or are able to function just a little easier. Those are the days that give me hope and peace in my heart that I can do this.

How is your day going there?
 

How is your day going there, andromeda?
I hope that your blue funk may be waning, as is the fullish-moon directly overhead this morning at 7am. It was quite like a streetlight when I went outdoors this chilly morning.

A warm good morning to you there, windseeker.
Interesting range of 7am temps, 66 to 79 throughout the Bahamas, I see. Are you in northerly or southerly islands?

Good morning there hillie, rmschaver, roadrunner, and starr.
How is your morning there where you are?

Thinking of you each and all this morning.

Theta ;)

Central

Thank you for your personalized weather report. That was sweet.

Thanks to everyone else for listening and relating

Thanks for asking, Theta. My blue funk is ongoing but I've managed to be quite proactive this morning, which, by the way, has been chilly and bright. ;)

Yes, this definitely adds a whole new dimension to the experience. Not having family support, I can identify... having family that is expecting MY support through their difficulties and them being upset when I just don't have enough for them is causing many problems.

Getting to be quite the ugly situation around here. So yes, I can identify and empathize.
:hug:
Starr